bleh.

BLOG MOVE

2008-04-30T11:57:00.002+08:00

to my dearest, loving blog readers...i'm moving to a new blog. thanks.. I won't be posting here any longer... please proceed to:

to my new blog

much luv,
tintotz.

tagged by kevin. tag overload 1.2

2008-03-30T13:57:00.000+08:00

Rules:

*Each blogger starts with ten random facts/habits about themselves.

*Bloggers that are tagged need to write on their own blog about their ten things and post these rules.

*At the end of your blog, you need to choose ten people to get tagged and list their names.

*Don't forget to leave them a comment telling them they're tagged, and to read your blog.

1. I used to hate math. but then, i have this weird philosophy that I develop my weakness and turn it to an advantage. oh ha!

2.I like listening to a wide genre of music. in fact, my playlists' songs range from andrew lloyd webbers's miss saigon broadway soundtrack to john lennon's singles, and finally making way for estelle's and kanye west's latest collaborations.

3.I'm a self-confessed geek. man, I must be one hot geek! ahahahaha.

4. I like travelling. preferrably beaches and other beautiful coastal locations. they give me a sense of relaxation that no other place can give.

5. I love to draw anime. though i appreciate art in a way most normal people do, I differ when it comes to animation. I'm not an Otaku. I'm just fascinated on how these creations represent humans on how they look, react, and speak, and amzingly, i find great creations in seemingly simple-plot animation productions. and find nothing in big-budgeted fan-service series. i hate them.

6.I've been in college for 5 years now. do i regret it? maybe, but not all. for me being college is not a thing on how fast one could graduate but on how to deal with challenges.
I have learned a lot. (yeah maybe not in networking.) and enjoyed a lot.

7. I am a certified foodie. I'm open to different kinds of cuisine. though I'm a bit sensitive to veggies and other green stuff, I'm still willing to try. a warning though: CAN'T COOK.

8.I'm a sucker to cute guys. HAHAHAHAHA.

9. contrary to artistically-inclined people, i cant do poetry. icant compose songs.

10. recently, i just found out that i have this strange 'namamahay' thing. when i spend nights in my friends' houses, i usually dont have any trouble when eating.BUT in all places, in janet's crib, my tummy always does the 'churning' thing. parang hindi natutunawan lagi.. :( bad. maybe there's some kind of kryptonite in janet's crib.

Tagged by gizelle. :) - tag overload 1.0

2008-03-30T13:52:00.000+08:00

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so, I tag,

ate ina
kevin
katkat

[RANT]: What it feels like.---read at your own risk.

2008-03-01T17:43:00.000+08:00

[another rant post. sabi ko hindi na ako gagawa neto.]

last saturday, nagulat ang karamihan (sa commotion) sa tangkang pag talon ng isang estudyante sa skul building. parang automatic na sa lahat na tungkol sa school stuff ang dahilan niya.nagmukha siyang weak sa karamihan. pero para sa akin, napakatapang nya.hindi kasi ganun kadali ipunin lahat ng courage mo to "actually" kill yourself. I couldnt even hold up my breath for a minute. >.<
pero the thing is, hindi ko siya maintindihan. may parents, at mga kaibigan cya, but still naisip at muntik na nyang maisakatuparan yun.

pero iba na ngayon. naiintindihan ko na sya. gusto lang nya sigurong matapos na lang lahat. baka ako rin ganun. kasi pagod na ako. ilang linggo na rin akong ganito. I've been running around in circles, chasing my own deadlines, and slowly killing myself.

I just wanted to stop. pero hindi ko magawa. sa kada higa ko para matulog, mulat parin ang mga mata ko sa mga naiwan kong gawin.
which leaves me to a dozen sleepless nights that resulted in numerous freakin' zits.

on the other hand, oo nga no. i could just stop. i could give it up all away to save my remaining sanity. no one could question me on my actions, who would else blame me anyway? why would I whine all day when I knew that I could get away from it all?

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yawn*
drama lang yan. burned lang ako talaga. pero seryoso yan. seryosong tintin yan. hindi ko lang siguro mahanap yung tamang strength and motivation para magawa lahat ng dapat kong gawin. maybe a decent sleep would do. or an ice cream perhaps. gusto ko na rin kasing matapos yung mga nakabinbin kong trabaho eh. tsktsk, na mimiss ko lang talaga siguro ang magpetiks.

100lb Tintin

2008-02-17T20:50:00.000+08:00

matagal tagal ko ring hinintay to. bukod sa graduation ko, isa sa mga pinakahihiling kong mangyari sa buhay ko ay makatungtong sa guhit ng 100lbs. ako rin hindi makapaniwala sa nakita ko.

lately, malakas akong kumain. (MALI KA) i dunno. basta, malakas lang kumain. nung saturday, kumain kami ni ogarts ng mga bandang 11:30am. lunch. gewd. pagdating ng 2pm, gutom na ulit ako. hinintay ko munang dumating yung mga ka grupo ko sa design at tsaka ako bumaba para maghanap ng pagkain. pagkalipas ng ilang minuto, may bitbit na akong scallop dumpling ng paotsin. hehehe. hainanese rice, toyo-chili..mmm...toyo chili....^_^

so, sa taas na ako umakyat at dahil kasama ko si xyrelle, kwentuhan mode kami muna. medyo pinabayaan ko muna sina jv dun sa software part namen. heheheheh.

natapos na kmi ng mga bandang 6pm. diretso ako moa. busog pa ako, kasi mga 3pm na ako kumain ng paotsin. hehe. malamang, kanin yun.

pero nasa pho-hoa sina mama. vietnamese noodle!!! oh no!! ang kahinaan ko!! so ayun, isang light bowl ng beef vietnamese noodle. na habang nakikinig sa tsikahan na walang humpay nila mala, e ayun ako, kumakain ng noodles.(btw, mas malaki sya sa meryenda size ng chowking noodles. medyo marami rami din yun.) little did i know na, WTF! naubos ko yung noodle!! PATI SABAW!! -_-;

hindi lang ito ang unang pagkakataon na kumakain ako ng husto. pati ata nung friday. naubos lang naman ung pera ko at halos maubos yung baon ko para sa saturday. buti nalang at pauwi na ako ng saturday night. sweet.

after the noodles, edi pauwi na kami. medyo, bitin. medyo lang, kaya na siguro punan ng ice cream ang hunger ko. tama! ice cream nga!! pero ayaw ko ng iba..

gusto ko green tea ice cream. so ayun.

ako ata ang pinakamasayang anak ng gabing nun. noodles + green tea ice cream? solb na ako!! lahat ng pagod ko for that week, natunaw na kasabay ng ice cream kong masarap. solb talaga.

exhitbit 2:
sunday. nagbreakfast. hehe, madalang to, then pagdating sa school este mcdo, heheh, so far, hindi ako gutom, pero gusto ko ulit kumain. ay amf, wala pala akong pera, mahal dyan sa mcdo ang big breakfast. hehehe

on the way na kami sa LeadershipTraining. may nadaanan akong panaderia. may CHEESEBREAD!! yey!!! ayun, medypo pinakyaw ko ng yung natitirang 5 cheesebread at binigay ang iba kay migz. heheh. hmm, mahihirinan ako neto. gusto ko rin pala ng nestea iced green tea. okei. solb. tuloy ang training.

pagakalipas ng mga nakakapagod na activities sa training, lumabas muna kami. kain sa 7-11 nila eric, payi at audie. hehe, bakit kami lumabas? kumain.

may cheese curls ako at nestea green tea ULIT. yummy. ~~2 bottles down na ako amf.~~ binigay ko pala kay eric yung natitirang 1/4 ng iced tea. hehehe. libre daw nya un eh, sabi ko hati nalang, arte nun.

then, uwian na. sa makati naman ako.pupunta atang market market.
13:00-2:00pm ---kain ulit. naka isang order ako ng quarter chicken na may rice at salad. kulang parin.

daming tao sa market market. di na ako babalik dun. amf.

3:00-4:30pm ---- kain ulit. hindi ko kasi matanggal ung mata ko dun sa hotdog stand sa may sinehan. nathan's hotdog pa naman yun!! waa!! masarap yun!!

one hotdog and a large lemonade for me. kaching kaching!

grocery. sympre mga 5-6:00pm na yun, medyo gabi na, at pag gabi na, dinner mode na. yey!!

ayun kain ulit.

nalimutan ko yung lugar, pero may island something un eh, ok naman ung food, sobrang daming tao nga lang. heheheh

naka 2 cups ako ng rice, + ulam mula sa boodle-fight style na inorder ni mama. ayus, sa sobrang gutom naming lahat, ambilis namin kumain. naunahan pa namin ung nauna samin,

bahay.

then I checked: 45kgs.
1kg = 2.2 lbs

99lbs. yeyyeyeye!!!!

anyway, masaya ako ng ganito. nasa tamang timbang na kasi ako. kinompyute ko na ung ratio ko,e nasa healthiest daw ako. sweet!

@janet: finally!! papayat ka na pre!

Twin tag

2008-02-06T13:57:00.000+08:00

due to insistent public and market demand, heto na ang twin tag ko.twin tag? yeah twin tag. it's a tag from your twin. hehe. siguro naman kilala nyo na kung sino ang dakila kong twin. hehe.

9. I was supposed to be named Manuella. bakit? kasi sa Quezon ako ipinanganak at ka birthday ko ang dating pangulong Manuel Quezon. SWEET! buti nalang hindi tumitira ng katol ang mga magulang ko kungdi "MANNY" ang palayaw ko. bwahahaha!

10. I'm a sucker to chinitos. ( <-- not so secret!)

11. dati, pag binigyan mo ako ng japanese comic book, a.k.a MANGA, at lalaki ka, gusto na kita.

12. minsan kong hinintay ang lola ko na umuwi ng pilipinas para tapusin ang castle 3-3 sa super mario world kasi hindi ko matapos. alam nya kasi kung pano tapusin.

13. last time na nag dormitory ako ay yung one term after 1st term ng first year. ngayon na naka dorm na ulit ako, last term ko na + 1 term pa. <-gets? hehe.

14. makakalimutin na ako. kahapon, february 5,2008, nasa school ako, kasama si toni. pumunta ako ng skul kasi may gagawin ako at BIBILI ng test booklet. ayan, umalis na si toni..at ayun din ako, sumabay din umalis. naalala ko lang yung test booklet ko nung nasa opis na ako ni mama. whew, buti nalang malapit lang opis ni mama sa skul. demmet. talaga naman. muntik ko na rin maiwan yang lintek na test booklet na yan sa ace hardware, the same day.

..(ay bertdey pala ng mama ko ngayon!!!)

15.sa mga hindi nakakahalata, INVERSELY PROPORTIONAL kami ni janet. kaya kapag inaasar nyo syang "bigatin", e nasasaktan din ako kasi, parang inaasar nyo din akong patpatin. its like killing two birds with one stone. yun nga lang, bihira ang hindi nasasaktan sa mga nang-aasar samin. hehe.

13.when lost, i prefer to walk. kesa sa sumakay ng sumakay sa jeep, hindi ko kasi makita at visualize kung nasang lupalop na ako. sabi ng iba, mas maganda din to kasi its as if, memoryado mo na yung mga nilakaran mo, naka-store na yung nilakaran mo sa brain. hehe.

14.tamad akong gumising ng maaga.

15.tamad din akong matulog ng maaga. kahit walang ginagawa, minsan, hindi ko rin maintindihan kung bakit ako nagpupuyat, samantalang gustong gusto ko namang matulog.

16. hindi na ako sumusuka sa bus.

17.i never liked girly sandals. madalas kasi akong maglakad. masakit sa paa. unless tsinelas ko yan na pambahay.

18. sa side ng dad ko, (carandang side), ako ang pinakamatandang apo. meron nga akong 20-yr old uncle. matanda pa ako sa kanya.

19.I rarely show emotions. para sa akin, emotions are weaknesses. ewan. opinion ko yun, flame me if you want, wala akong pakialam. pero minsan, ito rin ang nagpahamak sakin, somebody told me na dapat minsan gamitin ko naman to. mabisa namandaw eh.

20.I have few close friends. nahihirapan kasi ako sa 'maramihan type.' kaya madalas, less than four lang lagi ang kasama ko, in fact, crowded na para sakin ang 4.hehe.

21.hindi ako nagtatanim ng sama ng loob. kung galit ako sayu, o may nagawa kang hindi ko talaga nagustuhan, madalas, kinabukasan wala na. pero kung tulad ng mga ka grupo ko sa ****** ang ginawa mo, kakalimutan nalang kita. oo hindi ako galit, at napatawad na kita bago mo pa malaman na pinatawad na kita. pero don't expect me to rub shoulders with you again. parang sa unix lang, $rm -r <your name> gets?

the green side.

21. hanggang porn 5minute video clips palang ang napapanuod ko. hindi sinasadya ang panuorin, katuwaan lang. but as most girls do, I squirm at my seat kapag nanunood neto. ewan, wala naman pala talagang kwenta. madalas kasi hindi magaganda ung models. hehe.

22.kapag naguusap naman ng medyo pang higher rating, hindi naman ako nahihiya, kapag hindi ko kasi masyado close yung nag-uusap at iniciate nila ako na "sumali" eh, ako nalang ang aalis, kaya madalas kapag napadpad dito ang usapan, mga close friends ko lagi ang kausap ko. napupuno ng tawa at pang-aasar ang usapan. kung baga, naging stress-reliever ang mga usapang ganito. pwede ring ice breaker.

23. kisses. haha. ay sows.counted ba ang sa cheek? ang naalala ko lang ay yung sa prom ko, si martin pala yung nakascore ng halik saken, ang danda danda ko daw kasi, little did i know na nung nagcollege sya, bading pala yun! OMG. (migs, kilala mo to. taga addas to ehh)

24. minsan na akong nakapagbasa ng erotic novel. cant remember when and where. grabe, mas maganda tong basahin kesa sa manood ng porn. bakit? kasi sa porn, madalas kita mo yung mukha ng models, wherein, madalas pangit pa. e sa novel, imagination mo lang ang puhunan mo, solb ka na! plus madadagdagan pa ang yong vocabulary skills! not bad.

25.i'm not a good fan of muscle-bound guys, its a big TO for me kapag nag-fitting kang damit.it even better kung medyo skinny ka, pero hindi kasing skinny ko. hehe. gym shirts? eww! biru mo, anlaking katawan ang naka-hover sayu! yulk!

26.when joking around green stuff, my imagination can take you places, trust me, hindi ako master sa topic na ito, but I can assure you a joyride. take janet for instance, bakit nga ba napakalaki ng issue sa kanya ang masturbating theme dati sa ethics? kasi naglalakbay na sa kalawakan ang imagination namin at that time, e sakto, nahuli sya ni sir sy na pangiti-ngiti at namumula,ayun napagdisketahan na hindi maalam sa topic na un, pero sa totoo lang, mas maraming alam yan! hehe.

hmm, anu pa ba?

ayan janet, tapos na. done.finished.

tagged by drei.

2008-02-01T19:41:00.000+08:00

hay. at dahil naguubos nalang ako ng excess energy sa katawan ko, heto at pinatulan ko na rin ang kalokohang to.

the following are from drei's site

1) In the 8 facts about [you], share 8 things that your readers don't know about you. At the end, you tag 8 other bloggers to keep the fun going. Each blogger must post these rules first.

2) Each blogger starts with eight random facts/habits about themselves.

3) At the end of the post, a blogger needs to choose eight people to get tagged and list their names.

4) Don't forget to leave them a comment telling them they're tagged, and to read your blog.

1.) madali akong mapikon. especially pag tinutukso akong boyish, etc. hindi ko actually alam kung may nakakahalata nito.

2.) mahilig akong kumain pero ayaw kung magluto. still, i love the idea of cooking, sa sobrang pagmamahal ko sa culinary arts ay pakiramdam ko na hindi ako worth para matuto neto. i leave this art at the mercy of the experts. in short, tamad din ako magluto

3.)no bf yet. ewan ko kung may nakaka alam tungkol sa affair ko nung hs(alam ko meron eh, nagbabasa kaya sila dito?), pero it was just considered a fling by experts.

4.)ayoko talaga pag pinapakialaman ako. yeah, i blog and rant about everything that happens, which makes it contradicting kasi ang alam ng marami, ok lang na marami ang nakaka-alam kung anu na ang nangyayari sakin. pero nakakairita minsan when people say what you should and shouldn't do. suggestions are accepted, pero yung tipong makikipagtalo ka sakin para
i insist yang idea mo, aba eh, magisip-isip ka na kung tama pa ba yang ginagawa mo.

(hop hop..chill lang)

5.) i hate idle time. ayaw ko rin nasasayang ang oras ko.

6.)i used to eat spaghetti without any sauce.

7.) I'm good with maps, directions and MOST of the metropolitan manila area. this is a guy's ability. hmm, at least diba, kahit pure girlalu ako, hindi ako madaling mawala sa isang lugar. i love to travel, kahit dito sa manila lang.

8.)i used to hate math, and partly, i still do! hahaha, sabi ko sa sarili ko nung junior high ako, na magugunaw na ang mundo pag nag engineering ako. ayun, 1 yr after, ang engineering nga ako! (the sky must be falling!!) pero oo, paulit ulit na nagunaw at nagawang muli ang mundo ko dahil sa engineering na pinasok ko. makes perfect sense.

this is contradictory to what my mom has predicted. minsan ko nang naitapon sa harapan nya ang math
book ko nun, pero nahulaan parin nya na mag eengineering ako sa kabila ng pangarap kong maging animator/cartoonist.

okei, finished na.

ang susunod naman sana
ej
ate ina
katkat
deadstopzine

hehe happy reading!

ang mga ceremonies bago gumawa ng dapat gawin

2008-01-20T13:12:00.000+08:00

mula kay kevin, ang pinsan kong matangkad. ^_^
Random survey that will kill time.

Random

Name spelled backwards?: enitsirk
Ever been to a concert?: yep. .
How old will you be in 12 years?: 32! all hell naw!
Do you like squirrels?: no
If so, why?: because they're cute.
If you could fly, would you run away?: yes, but i will go back after a short time
Describe the reason why you are taking this quiz in one word: tired
What's your favorite number?: 3
Do you talk to strangers?: no.
Do you believe in perfection?:no.
DID YOU KNOW that sharks drown when they are pulled backwards?: yeah!
Know that you know that about sharks, do you see them the same way?: yeah!
What do you think about hot-air ballons?: i envy them.
Why couldn't the rooster cross the road?: he has no purpose of crossing the road
First of all, why would a rooster even cross the road?: is it because he must get to the other side?

Say one word that comes to mind when you hear:

Fire?: hot
Snow?: christmas
School?: friends
Surfer dudes?: whites
Monkeys?: noisy and rowdy creatures
MySpace?: american teenagers
Hello?: phone
Britney Spears?: sayang to.
Converse?: wardrobe staples
Drugs?: addictive
Fashion?: money
Chonga?: what? anu yun?
Superman?: very manly ^_^..

One random question:

Real bears are aggresive. Then why are teddy bears nice?:
real bears = aggresive
bears = agressive
teddy bears = nice
agressive = nice

A Penguin question:

If penguins could fly, would u consider them to be super birds?:nope. they are just the way they are..

Other

Rhyme orange:: with??
d0 G3t @nN0y3D w3N p30Pl3 RiT3 lYk DiiSz?: yeah. makes me hit people. haha.
what are you listening to?: shiela and the insects - quick to panic
do you like the number 39?: nope
does your favorite color say something about you?: red. it says I'm hot. ^_^ (nah, biru lang.)
are you a girl or a boy?: girl
are you sure?: yeah and I'm damn straight
what time is it?: 18:12
in how many more hours do you go to sleep?: depends.
did you enjoy this survey? be honest: kinda.

O RLY II : August 19, 1986

2008-01-16T20:07:00.000+08:00

19 August 1986

Your date of conception was on or about 26 November 1985 which was a Tuesday.

You were born on a Tuesday
under the astrological sign Leo.
Your Life path number is 6.

Your fortune cookie reads:
You will inherit some money or a small piece of land. <---ahahah! hindi ito ang gusto ko ngaun.

Life Path Compatibility:
You are most compatible with those with the Life Path numbers 3, 6 & 9.
You should get along well with those with the Life Path numbers 2, 4, 8, 11 & 22.
You are least compatible with those with the Life Path numbers 1, 5 & 7.

The Julian calendar date of your birth is 2446661.5.
The golden number for 1986 is 11.
The epact number for 1986 is 19.
The year 1986 was not a leap year.

Your birthday falls into the Chinese year beginning 2/9/1986 and ending 1/28/1987.
You were born in the Chinese year of the Tiger.

Your Native American Zodiac sign is Salmon; your plant is Raspberry.

You were born in the Egyptian month of Paopy, the second month of the season of Poret (Emergence - Fertile soil).

Your date of birth on the Hebrew calendar is 14 Av 5746.
Or if you were born after sundown then the date is 15 Av 5746.

The Mayan Calendar long count date of your birthday is 12.18.13.4.17 which is
12 baktun 18 katun 13 tun 4 uinal 17 kin

The Hijra (Islamic Calendar) date of your birth is Tuesday, 13 Dhi'l-Hijjih 1406 (1406-12-13).

The date of Easter on your birth year was Sunday, 30 March 1986.
The date of Orthodox Easter on your birth year was Sunday, 4 May 1986.
The date of Ash Wednesday (the first day of Lent) on your birth year was Wednesday 12 February 1986.
The date of Whitsun (Pentecost Sunday) in the year of your birth was Sunday 18 May 1986.
The date of Whisuntide in the year of your birth was Sunday 25 May 1986.
The date of Rosh Hashanah in the year of your birth was Saturday, 4 October 1986.
The date of Passover in the year of your birth was Thursday, 24 April 1986.
The date of Mardi Gras on your birth year was Tuesday 11 February 1986.
As of 1/16/2008 12:03:39 PM EST
You are 21 years old.
You are 257 months old.
You are 1,117 weeks old.
You are 7,820 days old.
You are 187,692 hours old.
You are 11,261,523 minutes old.
You are 675,691,419 seconds old.

O RLY: Kristine Sedilla Carandang

2008-01-16T20:06:00.000+08:00

You entered: Krisine Sedilla Carandang

There are 23 letters in your name.
Those 23 letters total to 102
There are 9 vowels and 14 consonants in your name.

Your number is: 3

The characteristics of #3 are: Expression, verbalization, socialization, the arts, the joy of living.

The expression or destiny for #3:
An Expression of 3 produces a quest for destiny with words along a variety of lines that may include writing, speaking, singing, acting or teaching; our entertainers, writers, litigators, teachers, salesmen, and composers. You also have the destiny to sell yourself or sell just about any product that comes along. You are imaginative in your presentation, and you may have creative talents in the arts, although these are more likely to be latent. You are an optimistic person that seems ever enthusiastic about life and living. You are friendly, loving and social, and people like you because you are charming and such a good conversationalist. Your ability to communicate may often inspire others. It is your role in life to inspire and motivate; to raise the spirits of those around you.

The negative side of number 3 Expression is superficiality. You may tend to scatter your forces and simply be too easygoing. It is advisable for the negative 3 to avoid dwelling on trivial matters, especially gossip.

Your Soul Urge number is: 5

A Soul Urge number of 5 means:
The 5 soul urge or motivation would like to follow a life of freedom, excitement, adventure and unexpected happening. The idea of travel and freedom to roam intrigues you. You are very much the adventurer at heart. Not particularly concerned about your future or about getting ahead, you can seem superficial and unmotivated.

In a positive sense, the energies of the number 5 make you very adaptable and versatile. You have a natural resourcefulness and enthusiasm that may mark you as a progressive with a good mind and active imagination. You seem to have a natural inclination to be a pace-setter. You are attracted to the unusual and the fast paced.

You may be overly restless and impatient at times. You may dislike the routine work that you are engaged in, and tend to jump from activity to activity, without ever finishing anything. You may have difficulty with responsibility. You don't want to be tied down to a relationship, and it may be hard to commit to one person.

Your Inner Dream number is: 7

An Inner Dream number of 7 means:
You dream of having the opportunity to read, study, and shut yourself off from worldly distractions. You can see yourself as a teacher, mystic, or ecclesiastic, spending your life in the pursuit of knowledge and learning.

from: http://www.paulsadowski.com/NameData.asp
thanks for the link, ginpao. :)

Veisalga

2008-01-08T06:05:00.000+08:00

Veisalga, is caused due to the consumption of large amounts of alcohol or some other drug. (from here: http://www.healthy-lane.com/remedies-and-cure-for-hangover/ ) or in Layman's term, HANGOVER. actually, pag nagsearch ka ng veisalga sa google, etong link lang na to ang lalabas

Medyo timing tong post na to. marami na kasi akong naririnig na sari saring kwento na tungkol sa mga nalalasing. madalas nakakatuwa, lalo na pag nakikita mo or ikaw ang nakakapanood ng mga nalalasing:

may nag eenglish.
may nag kkoreano.
hindi ma distinguish ang kape sa milo.

...pero sa totoo lang, nakakahiya. as in.

No, I have nothing against alcohol, in fact, I do consume alcohol. pero bakit ba ako nagkkwento ng tungkol sa alcohol kung hindi naman pala ako madalas uminom? wala lang.

read me: from newsweek:

sa mga nagbasa, thanks. sa mga tinatamad, okei fine. mahaba haba din yung article, kaya hindi nyo nga naman masisisi ang mga sarili nyo kung mahaba at talagang nakakatamad basahin. oh well.

isinasaad kasi dyan sa article na yan ang mga pangyayari sa loob ng katawan ng isang tao kapag nalalasing siya, or kung tumataas na ang level ng alcohol sa bloodstream.

potek, nakakatakot pala.

rapid pulses
nausea
tremors
light and sound sensitivity

yan lang ang ibang mga side effects ng alcohol. pero kelan ba ito lumalabas? hindi ka naman agad magkakaroon ng pulso sa oras na uminom ka ng red horse na nasa baso. nangyayari yan sa oras na tumigil ka sa pag-inom. mini withdrawals, ika nga ng article.

ayun. the morning after. maraming urban legends ang nagkalat para maiwasan ang hangover kinabukasan. nandyan na ang pag uminom ka ng ganito (another liquor) wala kang hangover bukas, etc.

my personal antidote: GATORADE (yung isang boteng malaki)

nung inabutan ako ng huli kong hangover, nakita ko ang sarili ko na paulit ulit na nagmumumog ng tubig. mistulang sahara desert ang bibig ko. yun pala dehydrated na ako. eto lang. tas matulog ka ulit.

Alcohol-Eraserheads

Di mapigil paggalaw, nagwawala, nagdadabog
Oi pare dahan-dahan lang muntik ka nang mahulog
May taong bumubulong, meron ding sumisigaw
Meron ding nag-iingles na parang kanong hilaw

Bigla nalang natutulala, umiiyak, tumatawa
Meron ding nagnanakaw at nawawalan ng pera
Sumusuray pag lumalaka, nadadapa, nauuntog
Pag dinalaw ng antok, kahit saan natutulog

May taong nagagalas na parang luko-luko
Kung saan ka man abutin, CR mo ang buong mundo
Alkohol, alkohol, utak mo'y buhol-buhol (4x)
Alkohol, alkohol, alkohol

Di mapigil ang bibig, pati sikreto nasasabi
Nasusuka, kumakanta, napa-praning sa isang tabi
Kaya ko pa, yan ang laging sagot niya
Nananaginip ng gising pumupungay ang mata

Konting alak nalulunod, lumalakas ang loob
Umeekis, gumagapang, natitisod, sumusubsob
labo-labo, sari-sari may naghahanap ng away
Binabangungot ng gising meron ding namamatay

Lumiliwanag, dumidilim, bumabait, tumatapang
Umiikot ang tingin, utak mo'y kinakalawang
Alkohol, alkohol, utak mo'y buhol-buhol (4x)
Alkohol, alkohol, alkohol

Sumusuray pag lumakad, nadadapa, nauuntog
Pag dinalaw ng antok kahit saan natutulog
Bukas may hangover ka, pagising masakit ang ulo
Paano ba ako nakauwi? Shet kailangan ko ng yelo

Alkohol, alkohol, utak mo'y buhol-buhol (4x)
Alkohol, alkohol, alkohol

ayala ave, I got you at the back of my head!

2008-01-02T20:34:00.000+08:00

I had it all in my mind. the streets, buildings and the people. Makati City was no joke for me. It was like a whole new urban jungle that I had to conquer after Manila.

excited ako nang umagang iyon. maagang nagising, at naligo agad. pupunta kasi ako ng makati. together with janet and mark conde, magpapasa kami ni janet ng resume sa isang kumpanya na sana ay tatanggap at magbibigay sa amin ng trabaho.

ok na lahat. damit. money. phone.

teka. resume. potek! ang printer ko! nagloloko! P$%@^#$@%^#!!!

ayun. hay, magpprint nalang ako sa makati. sana may netopia dun. T_T

9:00am usapan.jolibee convergys.

panis.

pababa na ako ng sasakyan ni papa nung sinabi ni papa na tumawid nalang ako at makiita ko ang convergys dun. ayus. may natatanaw akong jolibee. tama to. gogogo. pagdating ko ng jolibee ay nagtxt ako na nandun na ako sa jolibee. and then, nagtxt si janet na nasa rcbc cya na katapat ng convergys. nagsimula umikot ang paningin ko. nagtxt narin c conde na nasa jolibee na siya. aw heck naw, ako ata ang nawawala. kasabay ng kumakalam kong sikmura ang pagkataranta na ako pala ang nawawala. nagtanong ako sa kanila kung ano ang establishments dun.

rcbc tower.

damn. kung alam ko lang sana on where the heck is that rcbc tower. e hindi ko alam kung nasan eh!! nawawala ako!! heelpp!!! so, para may marating, naglakad ako. natatandaan ko na ang itsura ng rcbc tower. parang kutsilyo un eh. ayun. nakita ko din. lakad lang.

never did I know na mula paseo de roxas hanggang HV Dela Costa st na pala ang nilakad ko. not bad for an exercise.

sabi ni mama, kelangan mo raw talagang mawala sa makati para malaman mo ang tamang daan.

2007: The Year-End Special

2007-12-27T18:31:00.000+08:00

WARNING: SEMI-RANT POST AHEAD, READ AT YOUR OWN RISK.

Well, yan, ang year 2007. I had my fair share of ups and downs, but this year was a bit more fun than 2006. Maybe for the reason that I have gained/learned in this year than in 2006.

here's a recap:
hoorah:
New PC and internet
New Phone
New set of clothes
New Set of *more friends -->both online and offline
A slightly understanding dad
diminishing number of units and slightly increasing sipag.

boo-hoo:
Crash and Burn Feasibility Studies
rm -r /feasibgroupmates --->hehe, tama ba? oh well, forgive and forget
uncontrollable increasing rate of metabolism
crash and burn controls lec
lost phone
NEW really really bad habits.
Design 2 Dilemma

so far, yan palang ang natatandaan ko. mag bababagong taon na, at eto, punong-puno parin ng stress at inip ang katawan ko. I know for a fact that nobody really cares if you're miserable, so E ANO NGAYON? >:P

All I could wish for the coming year is that my life will get back on track, probably good health, and strength. Really now, for those people who made my life tolerable, all I could say is "thank you"

thank you for:

keeping me grounded
reminding me that everything will be fine, thanks for listening too.
making me laugh amidst the troubles
and for the company you gave me.

I'm not sure kung mababasa nyo to lahat. hehehe, pero thanks talaga.

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2007-10-18T19:19:00.000+08:00

nope. hindi pa ako gc. hindi rin kasali sa gc class (graduating class class? lol), marami pa akong dapat problemahin, altough may hint na ng excitement sa katawan ko.

reality bites. nasakin ang lahat ng pinakainiiwasan kong subject, ang mga pinakaka-iiwasan na subjects ng mga coe undergrads (and grads alike!) na katulad ko ay naipon sa isang term.

so far, i got:

thermo - dito madalas madali ang coe. as in. i think ME profs do take pride in 'killing' coe students, kasi karamihan ng mga naririnig ko, hindi maganda ang kinalabasan ng thermo experience nila. what's the catch? revenge? i don't know. pero gagalingan ko parin dito, sana wag nalang ako ma-KILL like the others did. :(... so far, proportional yung quizzes namin d2, for 2 weeks we had already 3 quizzes. ideal subject? walang discussion, no lectures, just photocopied materials na galing sa books. this scenario would have more justifiable kung sa semestral style kami, I know, hindi ganun kahirap ang physics. pero! hello! c'mon.

controls lec - first timer ako. and I've got mam chua. preety much medyo maganda ang mga naririnig ko about her, pero PERO! bagsak ako ng first quiz nya. bakit? e hindi ko kasi alam na may quiz nun. bakit ulit? kasi absent ako. bakit ulit? kasi natanggalan ng gulong ng bus na humarang sa ONLY way ng mga taga-cavite papuntang maynila. and I'm not allowing any of this to happen again. sa tinagal tagal ko sa mapua, ngaun lang ako nakaranas ng 'surprise exam' of my own. definitely traumatazing.

elemag-hah! i still couldn't believe na si sir evangelista ulit prof ko. dapat sana talaga, pasado na ako d2 matagal na. ewan ko ba, badtrip talaga. (go to hell, mapatao!) I'm now a different tintin sa harap ni evangelista, and somehow, i hope i would show him, na i deserve to pass elemag.

engman-hmm. kumakapal ang hangin sa loob ng classroom dahil sa mga pagpaparecite ni sir. saturated ba. -_-' di ako makahinga, at lahat ng na fformulate kong sentences sa isip ko, nawawala ng parang bula pag nakatayo na ako sa kinalalagyan ko, at ayun, nagmumukang word factory ang mga sinasabi ko dahil sa mga jumbled words and thoughts.

posix- exciting but conducive to sleeping atmosphere, preety much, things would somehow pick up some pace pag nasa programming part na. alam ko, marami akong matututunan d2. crucial tong subject na to eh.

coe ethics-walang kasing saya, Iam always looking forward sa subject na to, masaya kasi, kahit uberduper lamig ng classroom and i have to go out every 2omins. movie reviews, out-of-this-world questions, what else could you ask for? although i cringe for every moment na naalala ko na si sir sy ang prof namin dito, at ang feasib ko ang naalala ko pag nakikita ko siya

feasib-hmm, (praying...), hinahanda ko na ang sarili ko para d2, Iam also formulating a lot of ways to save money and time pag nagka leche leche na ang lahat, worst case scenario, best case scenario, I think I've got it all in my head.goodluck nalang samin d2.

design2-(praying...)

so what else. oh yeah, i also got my own multiply account : hottietin.multiply.com (finally!) baka rin ilipat ko na rin yung photos ko mula sa picasa to here kasi ayaw ko na sa picasa. bakit?coz it sucks. the entries in this blog are also cross-referenced to blogger, so para sa mga multiply viewers of this blog, add nyu na ko! (meron nga ba?) hehehehehe

until then, d2 nalang muna, kasi i'll be very busy for the coming days. (what's new?)

hiatus:lifted

2007-09-22T20:48:00.000+08:00

Hay, after almost a month of hiatus, I'm finally back on the blog road again. so what have I been up to lately?

most of the time that I was not blogging was mainly for the reason that I was so busy developing for our software design, it took so much of my time that I almost forgot my other subjects.

and that subject was, EE543 - engineering economics and accounting.

ops. ang hirap ng mag english.

ganito kasi yun, hindi gaano kataasan ang naging scores ko for the first two consecutive quizzes. so, eto, gusto kong bumawi, kungdi , lahat ng pinaghirapan ko for the past few terms na maihabol ang OJT ko for the 3rd term ay maglaho ng parang bula.

at AYOKONG MANGYARI YUN.

worst comes to worst. although nakakapag-aral ako sa ecoacc, pilit parin akong hinihila pababa ng mga quizzes ko. I started to panic.

ano na ang nangyayari tintin?--tanong ng konsyensya kong puyat.

nawala na ang atensyon ko sa software design namin. pinilit kong tapusin ang module na pinaghatihatian namin bago kami mag 3rd quiz, habang ang concentration ko ay nasa ecoacc parin. dumating na ang defense, eco acc parin ang nasa isip ko..oo mahalaga ang software design, pero di ko talaga maalis ang kaba ko sa ecoacc na ito.

--software design defense : September 15,2007

natapos ang defense sa software lab. umalis kaming tatlo na nangangamoy gisadong bawang sa DoIT. pambihira ang pinagdaanan namin, pero hindi kami madaling natinag. hinanapan ng butas ang lahat ng aspeto ng design namin, hanggang sa magmukhang mali lahat. damn, pero it would take sir a little more of that before he really make us pissed off. sinabi rin nya na hindi kami ang gumawa. hahanap daw siya ng way para mapatunayan na hindi kami talaga ang gumawa nun. pero wala, hindi nya napatunayan. sure oo, hindi rin namin masagutan lahat ng mga pinagtatanong nya. heck, karamihan kasi ng tanong nya, command definitions. ayun, kamote.

--end

nagkaroon ng computation ng grades sa ecoacc. may mga na exempt. patay talaga. lalo akong kinabahan. pero namutla ako at namuti ang paligid ko nang sinabi ni mam na pag na-perfect ko yung finals, tsaka lang daw nya kakalimutan ang quizzes naming mabababa, at saka nya kami ipapasa. gumuho na ang langit, at ako, andun, tulala.

parang sinabi rin nyang bagsak na ako. mula nung friday ng hapon hanggang sa kanina, pinuputakte ako ng sinat. kakaisip.

mga 8pm na nun nung binuksan ko yung pc, at hindi ko ma-access yung mymapua..runtime error thing. lalo akong kinabahan. buong araw akong nagdadasal

at nagdasal..
at nagdasal..

nag buzz ako kay budz para itanong at ikumusta ang resulta ng software nya. taken naman daw, so pretty much, kung pasado cya, pasado rin kaming tatlo.

di ako tumingin ng pabalik sa screen matapos kong ibigay kay budz ang username at password ko.

matapos ang di-mabilang na dasal, eto ang bumulagta sa harapan ko.

click to enlarge

naluha ako sa tuwa. naghalo at naglaho ang tamang grammar ko at bigla kong naitype ang 'thanks you budz' sa IM window namin. lumiwanag nang muli ang aking paningin at ngumiti na ulit ako.

there's one thing for sure.Hindi ko malilimutan ang araw na to.

nga pala, last august, a week after my birthday, pumunta kami sa strumms: here are some of the highlights:

ang mga nagperform dun ay ang Firm Session at ang Hyperbeat, man, they rocked the house down! totally awesome!

speaking of Firm Session, this uber talented girl at the center definitely brought us to our knees. and to boot, she's only 21! sa tingin ko kung bakit sila natuwa sa amin is for the fact that we were the only ones that are under 21 years old! well ako, 21 na. hehehe. n_n

and here's the rest of the gang, janet, toni and me. We were dubbed as the powerpuff girls that night, but hey, what the heck, who cares?!

for more pics, visit the album:

well, here's the best part, janet's got the chance to perform! she sang Oleta Adam's Get here. really sweet! oh yeah, si toni ang kumuha nitong video, at medyo may tama na cya, mainly from drinking cali ice. ^_^...loka yun, ayaw uminom ng san mig strong ice. gusto lang ay yung sminorff at cali ice. sosyaL! janet was so cool preforming onstage that I bought her a drink!

NOte: natameme ang buong audience when she performed. need I say more? Ba*i*ta rocks! \m/

we had such a good time at strumms that we wanted to go there again, but due to financial constraints, parang malabo na. hehehe. oh well, makakapaghintay naman ang strumms.

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bahay ni conde: teh invasion

if there's one guy at school to thank for this term, its mark conde. abah, kungdi dahil sa kanya, siguro nasa kangkungan na kmi pupulutin sa software namin. he even let us in his house just to teach us everything he knows about vb.net

we didnt expect na we would be working totally non stop until morning for vb.net, but yeah, we did stay up late...

...making music videos.

if there's one thing janet and me are really good at (besides pissing toni off and visual basic.NET), it's probably singing songs from linkin park.
why linkin park? coz we got to scream and rap like there's no tomorrow. janet's got to sing like chaz and I got to rap (I am a fraustrated rapper) like mike shinoda. the verdict? it was a work of art.

hmm, if you could notice, we looked ~~pretty~~ haggard. oh well, this video was shot at around 5am, after this video was taken, we were dragged by mark to their room and was forced to sleep. the next thing we knew was that we were dozing off to dreamland. (no, not in that obiquitous miss saigon cabaret)

we exchanged ghost stories, joked and goofed around while learning the basics of VB.NET. It was a fun night. parang trip trip lang lahat. di rin kasi kami nag eexpect na matapos lahat dun ng isang gabi lang.

after that night, we spent most more of our time making the project, kahit na inaabot kami ng wee hours of the morning.

pag gising: software
breakfast: oh no, wait..I dont get to eat breakfast.
at the bus : "ma software, estudyante" -ngaun ko lang to naalala, heheh. XD
at the jpcs table: "tin! kain tyo!" me: "software!"
paguwi(LRT): "software station"

okok. exaggerated na yung dalawang huli. hehehehehe, nakakatuwa na biglang umikot ang mundo ko sa nyemas na VB.NET na yan. but what the heck, nag enjoy talaga ako, at maraming natutunan. kahit na ginisa kami BIG TIME ni sir. if your wondering what sir lagazpi looks like,

mostly, yun ang nangyari whilst on my hiatus.

so what's up, tintin?

2007-08-16T12:37:00.000+08:00

midterms na. marami paring naka-binbin na proyekto at mga dapat gagawin. vb, design2, at ~~filipino dokyu~~. mga ilang linggo na rin akong nagbabasa ng ebooks, at hindi na rin mabilang ang test applications ko sa kakasubok ng exercises nila.

pero feeling ko, nasa chapter 1 parin ako. naiinip na ako sa sarili kong pacing, pero pag nag aadvance ako, lalo lang akong walang maintindihan. damn shit.

TableAdapter,DataAdapter,forms, buttons, system.windows.forms... ito ang nag o-occupy ng isip ko. kung meron man task manager pag na right-click ako, eto ang makikita mo:

siguro naiinip lang talaga ako. may parang mali kasi. bigla ko tuloy naisip at naitanong sa sarili ko :

"interesado pa ba ako?"

hindi ko rin alam. feeling ko minsan, isa nalang akong zombie na nagbabasa ng ebooks ng visual basic. ayokong mangyari yun the least. hindi. hindi ko to dapat naiisip. ako rin ang mahihirapan pag ngayon pa ako tatamarin.

mula sa video tutorials ni beth massi (rapper ata to ng microsoft, ambilis magsalita eh), hanggang sa walang katapusang ebooks ng wrox, na unti unti ko na.

for 2 straight weeks, nawawalan lagi ng pasok tuwing wednesday at thursday. bakit? dahil sa bagyo or kung hindi bagyo, matinding habagat. gaddammit,

lumubog na kami ng tuluyan sa sked ng design 2 namen. mga 3 linggo na namin hindi nakikita si sir, at ni isang progress report, wala pa kaming nai-ssubmit.
na mimiss ko na ung SNA2 ko, lugi na ako sa bayad!
wala lalo akong nagagawa para sa design2 namin. T_T

kung ganito ng ganito nalang lagi ang mangyayari. its either deadz or siyete. deadz, kasi isa kami sa mga grupo na na-approve na ang proposals. which means, marami na kaming time para gawin ang design namin. di tulad ng ibang groups, na hindi pa na-aaprove, kaya malamang, pagbigyan cla ni sir sa bandang huli. balita ko rin kasi, kahit sa email, hindi nag rereply si sir.

pre-enrolment boohoos

wala ng pre-registration sa amin, kung anong dahilan nila, hindi ko alam. so ayun, nag-pre enroll ako. to my surprise, hindi nangyari sa akin ang mga kakaibang at di mai-paliwanag na pangyayari na kinahinatnan ng isang kaibigan (ung mga 'taken' naging 'not taken', stuff like that). pero mas malala ang nangyari sa akin. yung mga kukunin ko, conflict sa isa't isa! tae!

so heto sila:

OS LEC - conflict sa engman /pwede ko itong makuha, given that ipapa-credit ko siya
OS LAB - conflict sa elemag /pwede ko itong makuha, given that ipapa-credit ko siya
Controls - maxadong maaga, meron mang iba, conflict naman!
ethics - kelangan ko itong i waive. baka may mangyaring waive /over load nito, kayanin ko kaya?

sana umayon ang kalangitan at tadhana sa mga hiling at dinaing ko. kasi kung hindi, patay talaga ako. kung hindi ko naman makuha ang OS Lab/Lec, ayus lang, ipapacredit ko nlang din sila sa next term, pero ung iba, like controls, elemag at thermo, kelangan na TALAGANG matapos to. last chance ko na ito,
hindi lang sa akin pati na rin sa nanay ko..

nung nag-aayos ako ng sked na to last week, nang-aaway yung nanay ko. ewan ko ba kung bakit, pero ako agad ang nakita nya. mga 11pm na nung nag-aayos ako ng sked tas pinagdidiskitahan na naman nya ang 'working' hours ko. sinabi nya kung bakit nanaman ako nagpapagabi ng husto kung walang kwenta naman yung mga pinagagawa ko. sinabi rin nya na sa susunod na bumagsak ulit ako, sa kahit anong subjects, titigil na talaga ako.

there's one thing I've nung narinig ko un.

I felt really really bad. bigla akong nawalan ng gana sa lahat, pinatay ko na yung pc at natulog. hindi ko na dinepensahan ang sarili ko, bagkus, sumang-ayon pa ako sa sinabi nya. it felt weird yeah, na para bang lahat ng gagawin ko sa mga susunod at darating pang araw ay palpak na. my mom's words were so fierce, tumatak lahat sa isip ko un. I definitely know what she felt. she's in the middle, trying to make ways para makapag-aral (ng maayos) kami ng kapatid ko. and unfortunately for her, she got me. I know that I don't deserve all of this, kasi wala na talaga akong mukhang maiharap sa kanya. so what's up with that? maybe I don't deserve the next term or the whole fu***'n education either.

konting tulog nalang at bertdey ko na. but I'm not that excited. at di ko lam kung bakit.

"Cannot be reached"

2007-08-08T13:39:00.000+08:00

ito ang huling linyang narinig ko sa cellphone ko. yep. nawala siya. It happened when I was on my way to school last monday morning. everything happened so fast.0

Monday

nagising ako sa sasakyan ng dad ko. it was exactly 9am at my phone's clock, kaya ibinalik ko na sa bag ang phone ko. bumaba ako sa baclaran kasi liliko na papuntang edsa si papa eh ayaw kong
mag LRT kasi napahaba ng lalakarin ko. ayun, as usual, jam pack parin ang tao (rush hour) at kakaunti ang sasakyang (fx & buses) papuntang lawton. then may dumating. isang fx, alinsunod ang mag tao na naguunahan para makasakay. ayus. kaya ko to. late na ako, no choice.

nakipag-unahan na rin ako. saktong huminto yung fx sa harapan ko habang napunta sa likod ko ang mga taong humahabol dito, mula sa noong umaandar pa yung fx. mabilis lahat, pagkahinto ng fx, biglang may bumukas ang pinto at pumasok ako bigla. sorry sa iba, pero hindi kasya ang 15 tao sa fx.

naalala ko yung phone ko. tiningnan ko kung anong oras na. baka kayanin pa ang baclaran-school ng 15 mins. tas 3 mins na lakad-takbo sa city hall. ayus.

pero hindi ko mahanap yung phone ko. naiwan ko ba? hindi.

sa sasakyan kaya ni papa? hindi rin. naalala ko, nadali ko pa yung siko ng katabi ko nung sinara ko yung bag ko sasakyan ni papa.

oh bloody hell, mamaya nalang sa school. ayokong magkalkal ng gamit dito sa loob ng fx.

dumating ako sa school according to plan. hindi ako masyado late. ayus.. nagpatuloy ang SNA@ namin as usual. ayus lang lahat until naalala ko ulit yung phone ko

and this time, hindi ko na talaga nakita. inalis ko na lahat ng gamit sa bag ko, itinaktak, itinaob, lahat na ginawa ko. nanlamig ang mga palad ko..

could it be?

naki text ako kay bryan para dun sa phone ko.

nag txt na ako kay papa, na kung nandun sa sasakyan nya yung phone ko. nagreply siya na titingnan nya pa, at hindi na siya nag reply ulit.

nag miss call na ako sa number ko.

at narinig ko ang isa sa mga pinaka-nakakalungkot na linya ng buhay ko.

ang nakakalungkot dito, may load yun, at puno na ang contacts nun. hay, mahirap manghagilap ng contacts ulit.

siyempre yung phone. kaya ko siyang I-operate kahit nakapikit ako. kasama ko siya sa lahat ng bagay, masaya man o hindi. saksi siya sa maraming pagbabago ng buhay ko. mahigit halos dalawang taon din kaming magkasama. nakakalungkot talaga. It was like a part of me has suddenly left.

ay oonga pala, ang lakas ng ulan. amff, hindi pumasok si janet. ang haba ng bakasyon niya, sakto, wala pa siyang pasok noong tuesday.-_-'

kinabukasan, kinapa ko pa rin sa ilalim ng kama ko para i ang phone ko check kung anong oras na or kung may nagtxt ba. pero naalala ko, WALA NA PALA YUNG PHONE KO!

ngaun, pag naririnig ko itong kantang ito, I can't help but remember my lost phone..

It's been seven hours and three days
Since you took your love away
I go out every night and sleep all day
Since you took your love away
Since you been gone I can do whatever I want
I can see whomever I choose
I can eat my dinner in a fancy restaurant
But nothing
I said nothing can take away these blues
`Cause nothing compares
Nothing compares to you

It's been so lonely without you here
Like a bird without a song
Nothing can stop these lonely tears from falling
Tell me baby where did I go wrong
I could put my arms around every boy I see
But they'd only remind me of you
I went to the doctor n'guess what he told me
Guess what he told me
He said girl u better try to have fun
No matter what you'll do

NOthing compares to you.. :'C

huhuhuhuhu.....

eto pala. sa filipino kasi, amy documentary project kami. tungkol ito sa kambal na simabahan sa bustillos. (I even made a error, sabi ko kasi blumentritt, nagalit at nagsermon ulit si mam..bwahehehehehe)

ayun. it was the loreto church and the St.Anthony of Padua church. marami kaming natutunan, but unfortunately may hang-over pa ako sa nawala kong phone nung lunes. camera girl lang ako. I can't pay enough attention sa interview. kuha lang ako ng kuha. ok naman yung mga ka grupo ko, medyo comedy din sila minsan, pero sa totoo lang, malungkot parin talaga ako.

at natapos na namin. I was able to take some snapshots of the place. hehehe

this is the Loreto Church

loreto church parin

St. Anthony of Padua church

goofin' around with the groupmates :)

more goofin' around :D

ok naman yung mga ka grupmates ko. kasama si botee dito. siya yung kumuha ng pic, kaya wala siya dito. may ka batch kaming mga 2006. yung dalawa sa gilid ay mag batch 06. we told them a couple of good ol'e tricks para mabuhay sa mapua. it turns out however na sobrang hirap pala ng curriculum nila (mukhang humihirap na ang mapua, pero bakit kaya mahal pa rin?). kaya words of wisdom nalang ang binigay namin. hopefully sana makatulong yun sa kanila.

bumalik pa ako ng school. para mag unwind. makahanap na rin ng kasabay pauwi. since dala ko na yung camera, I might as well take some pictures of my beloved orgmates.

ej and idahx.

salamat nga pala sa featured cast ng ouija, sa pagpapaunlak ng mga litrato. hehehehe

so far, suspended ang klase ngaun, kaya nag bblog ako. I've been on adik mode sa vb lately, pero ang dami ko pa palang dapat matutunan. so far, natututo naman ako, yun nga lang, kulang pa. hehehe, tama na muna to at mag-aaral na ulit ako. :D

Best wishes yao ming!

2007-08-05T21:24:00.000+08:00

kahapon, naka-panood ako ng movie that's all about yao ming. yeah, the great chinese dude na nakapasok sa NBA. hindi ito yungunang pagkakataon na nakita ko siya sa tv, or anything like that, it's just that hindi ko alam ang istorya ng buhay niya bilang isang manlalaro.

hindi naging madali para kay yao ming ang lahat. ang pressure. it't tremendous. lahat ng hopes ng buong tsina ay nakasalalay sa kanya. 22 years old lang nun si yao ming ng makapasok siya bilang no. 1 na dreft pick ng houston rockets. I know nothing about sa draft picks and the other basketball stuff, pero isa lang ang masasabi ko: hindi biro biro ang pinasukan nya.

pero hindi nagtagal at nagtagumpay rin siya, napatunayan din nya sa lahat ang talento niya. hindi rin inaakala ng mga amerikano ang galing nya. at dahil sa angking sipag at talento nya ako ngaun ay isang:

hihihi. mainit init pa yan, galing sa photoshop cs2 ko. feel free to grab it, basta to leave a message sa tagboard. hehehehehe

i was totally hooked. fan na talaga ako. and while I was checking his latest updates, It turns out na ikakasal na siya. hooray! sakto! ngaun siya ikakasal. ikakasal nga pla siya sa childhood sweet heart niya... waw super kewl. check the latest updates here.

LBC Main Office, Domestic Airport, Pasay City :We came, we saw, we conquered!!

2007-08-05T00:27:00.000+08:00

this trip was supposed to be an essential part for the development of our software design. as it turns out however, I was expecting it to be brief, so we had other plans in mind, to spend the rest of the day in our most expensive, yet seemingly simple hang-out, SM Mall of Asia.

we planned an interview at LBC main office with the help of my dad. I instinctively chose this company for the reason that, we would not have any difficulties dealing with developing a software for a company.

everything went well as planned. though the person we were supposed to interview has gone to a business trip to cebu (on short notice) , we were still able to fix things up, and finally set up an interview with his
subordinates.

argh..argh..ang hirap mag english.

so ayun, usapan namin, na magkita na sa LRT edsa/MRT taft station. kung sa akin lang, madali sana lahat, kaso kasama ko kasi si janet at toni, na obvious na hindi alam ang lugar, at walang balak mag adventure sa initan. so ayun.

ay bago pala yun, nag-advise ang dad ko na mag medyo formal na suot. meaning, walang naka-sneakers! oh for crying out loud. hindi ko makita ang logic kung bakit, pero hindi naman kami aatend ng job interview. >_<...so me janet, toni and I opt for somewhat respectable (but still rugged. ^_^) outfits. mga 1:30pm na nung dumating kami sa delta gate.

duh, kung meron mairereklamo dun, ay yung katarayan ng security dun. argh! allergic lang talaga ako sa matataray na security.inabot kami ng halos isang oras kakahintay kung
kelan nila mahahanap ang gate pass namin, at eto pa, saksakan ng inet! ang alam ko kasi dun sa hangar, kelangan talaga namin ng sasakyan para makapunta sa main office. hehe.

pero wala! wala! di ko lam kung gaano kalayo yung nilakad namin sa ilalim ng initan, pero inaliw nalang namin ang mga sarili namin sa mga nakita namin.

from small corporate and private jets, to large courier-type airplanes, nakita namin. we even took a picture of it (with toni!), for souvenirs. yeah it was damn hot, and we're trabahador-sweaty, but we didn't care, naging pasyal at bagong adventure ang lahat nung time na yun.

after namin makapasok sa main office, we started the interview. at first, yung system nila ay mwedyo swak sa assumptions namin ni janet,so we didn't have any dificulties regarding thier system, in short, medyo nakakarelate kami. :D

marami kaming natutunan. we even talked to the guy who designed thier POS system. and even took a peek at thier current interface. hmm. they said it was all pretty easy. pero hmm. easy nga kung marunong kami ng VB. harharhar.

after the interview, nagpicturan pa kami ulit sa hangar at sa runway. nakakita rin kami ng helicopter na kakalanding lang at isang eroplanong nagsayang ng gasolina dahil, pinaandar yung elisi eh hindi naman lumipad. amf.

mga 430 na nung matapos kmi at dumeretso na kami sa sm manila. tae, ubos na pala yung allowance ko, kaya hindi ako nakakain ng maayos..huhuhu. kumain kami sa red ribbon, at pagkatapos, namasyal muna at nagpalamig muna kami sa SM Manila. dumating rin pala ung boylet ni janet, so basically, kami ni toni magkasama, BUTI NA LANG NANDUN SI TONI!! though it was thursday, hindi kami nakapag-videoke, wala kasing pera. malas, andyan kasi si toni. hihihihihi

mga 630 na nun nung pumunta kami sa skul. wala pala si sir. amf. nalaman din namin na for the next two days, walang pasok. so, nagkayayaan na mag beer garden muna. asteeeg. kung kelan naka blouse at naka sandals kami, tsaka naman nagkainuman.

hindi ako uminom. human alcohol detector (99.99% accuracy) kasi ang mga magulang ko. ayokong pumusta. nag coke lang ako. pero hindi rin kasi halata kung lasing man ako o hindi. hindi ako OP sa mga uminom nun. hehehehehe

HAH?! taga Intra pa kayo?!

2007-07-22T23:16:00.000+08:00

friday. akala ko, filipino 2 lang ang subject ko. ayus. uuwi agad. nag-iisip na ako ng gagawin ko sa bahay habang naglalakad pababa ng stairs mula sa 2nd floor ng south building. ansakit nga ng tenga ko sa mga redundant at utterly stressful sermons ni mam dapia. arghh -_-;;;

sinubukan kong dumaan sa table ng jpcs to check on them. apparently, may nangyaring masama. yung activity form that was assigned to me, na dapat ay pirma na lang ang kailangan, e kulang pa! anak ng--, pirma nalang!

anong kulang? ok. si sir mateo pala. good.

asan siya?

makati.

pambihira. since ito na ang natitira kong trabaho as asst sec, fine then. without any second thoughts, pumunta kami (I'm with Ecah btw, our new secretary. congrats to her and welcome to paperwork hell) sa mapua makati.

we took the bus. pareho lang naming first time na pumunta dun, wala na rin ata yung kakarampot na ka-batch ko dun eh.hehehehehe.

antagal ng bus. siguro, inabot kami ng halos isang oras from lawton to gil puyat dahil nag-puno pa ng pasahero sa kalaw at inabot pa ng tae taeng trapik sa quirino. damnit.

pagbaba, Mapua Makati. the building felt like an 80's drama set. oh wait, mapua makati was apparently the former rcbc building! no wonder! hahahaha! it suddenly reminded me of the old pagcor house in roxas. very classic. i could easily imagine thick-shoulder padded employees with high hair and breakfast club style make-up doing rounds in the area. it was a beautiful place.

madaming cuties. or in amazing twins' terms, wee!

napanisn ko rin, na parang fresh-looking ang mga tao dito. parang hindi pinagpapawisan. all cool, sporting branded clothes, unstressed. in short, nainggit kami, sakto, naka ee-ece-coe outing shirt ako. sakto. branded outsider ako sa teritoryo nila.

we asked questions sa whereabouts ni sir mateo. sweet, this mapua also has its' own west building! the library seemed comfortable, and the classrooms looked really neat. take note, hindi mukhang hospital ang hallways nila. harhar.hehe

so si sir mateo ay nasa AV room. mukhang may seminar ah. maraming tao. psychology chuva ang topic. we didn't paid much attention. we spent the time looking for sir mateo.

then reality struck. hindi pala namin kilala sa mukha sa si sir mateo! oh no!

andaming cuties!

the text brigade began. I texted almost everybody sa jpcs sa intra kung ano itsura ni 'sir mateo'
pero our efforts were futile. pero hindi kami susuko. at ayun. we devised a plan. hahanap kami ng tyempo, kasi yung prof ni ecah,(nalimutan ko yung name. hehe) nandun! tumpak! so naghintay kami ng tyempo.

...after 20 minutes...

may activity. it required pairings. commence operation in 5 minutes.

chance!

dali-dali kaming pumunta kung san naka-upo yung former prof ni ecah. nagtanong kami. and in a second, nasa likod na kami ni sir mateo.

amp. may kausap!

so hinintay pa namin siya na matapos, and I discreetly and slowly approached sir mateo's side.

"good afternoon sir. papirma lang po ng activity form"

smooth. sir mateo kinda looked like na nakakita ng alien.

duh. I could read his expression

taga intra pa kayo?!

ayun.

wait. time check 10 to 4! gotta hurry! 5pm kasi magsasara ang OSA! wahhh!

nag-LRT na kami ni ecah. at umabot kami. malamang. tinakbo na namin eh.

wala na akong paki-alam kung magmukha akong wasted. wahehehehe.

pagdating ko, ang saya. may seatwork pala kami sa ecoacc. buti nalang ginawa ko ito. heheheh

so far, naipasa naman ng kumpleto ang requirements ant matagumpay na naidaos (ata) ang induction. iyon na rin ang huli kong serbisyo bilang asst sec.

hehehehehe

oh, did I mention na madaming cuties?

hehe.

Evangelion the movie.

2007-07-22T22:46:00.000+08:00

una kong napanood ang evangelion way way back in first year high school. naging addict na ako dito ever since, as in. from original japanese manga up to posters, meron ako. I even had my hair done the 'rei ayanami' way, just to look like her. and thankfully I succeeded. hanggang ngayon, some of my former highschool classmates refer to me as rei. hehehe.

naalala ko pa noon na tinitipid ko talaga yung baon ko para makabili ng 4 disc vcd set (that was worth 50 each), which cost me 200. conssidering na ang baon ko nun for the whole week was like uh, 250? high school pa kasi ako nun. di naman ako nagreklamo, basta nag-ipon nalang ako, nagutom, nahilo only to find out na mas marming questions pa pala ang sasalubong sa akin by the time na natapos ko yung death and rebirth of evangelion.

so ayun. disappointed. grabe. medyo humina na yung faith ko na magkakaroon pa ito ng isang matinong ending, wala kasi akong kabarkada nun na mahilig rin sa evangelion at that time, so parang slightly nawala na rin yung hilig ko sa evangelion by the time I reached college.

dumaan ang 4 na taon. natutuwa nalang ako sa official gainax site pag may new evangelion updates and artworks. I even do check out some of the authors' websites just to see their artworks online. ang Der Mond, o yung kay yoshiyuki sadamato, wahehehe, natuwa talaga ako dito. I even watched a movie in which si yoshiyuki sadamoto ang nag-drawing. anything that has gainax in it , seryoso at interesado ako. siguro, somehow, there's a part of me na umaasa parin sa evangelion.

I even watched a movie in which si yoshiyuki sadamoto ang nag-drawing.

until I saw this on mapuaownage:

hindi ko alam kung maiiyak ako sa tuwa o hindi. ayus. ngayon ko lang din nalaman na hindi pala ako nag-iisa na tumanda na at lahat, naghihintay pa rin sa totoo at kumpletong katapusan ng evangelion. masaya ako, oo, pero hindi na rin kasi ako talaga umaasa na masasagot ng sineng ito ang mga tanong ng daang daan o libu-libong mga taga-subaybay nito. ayoko na umasa.

pero, pipilitin kong makapanood nito. torrent, P2P, crunchyroll, youtube. anywhere.hahaah!

sa totoo lang, excited na rin ako eh!

bye bye, old study table..

2007-07-17T21:15:00.000+08:00

nagising ako agad noong biglang tumawag si mama kanina. kailngan ko raw ilabas yung lumang study table namin, at bumili raw ako ng uniform ni katherine at nikolai.

ang study table ko. mas matanda pa ito kay katherine. simula kasi noong nag-aral ako dito/pagkalipat namin dito sa cavite, mabilis kaming nabilhan ng bagong study table. ang laki nga nun eh. pero pang dalawang estudyante (in terms of supplies and other school stuff) lang ang capacity nya. It turns out however, na madadagdagan pa pala kami ng extra two siblings. more siblings meant more stuff, and more stuff meant more load for our poor study table. nagamit ko sya mula grade 4 up until I was in third year high school. sa ibang lugar na kasi ako nag-aaral pagdating ng 4th year, at hindi na talaga ako nag-aaral pagdating ng college. malamig kasi sa library ng school at minsan nakakatamad talaga. so technically, naging lagayan ko nalang siya ng gamit for the its' last five years. maraming naitulong sakin ang study table na yan. I learned a lot noong nag-aaral pa ako dyan, at maraming nasaksihang mahahalagang pangyayari ang study table namin. mula sa mga pinaka-matataas na marka na nakuha ko / mga kapatid ko hanggang sa pinkatago-tagong lowest quizzes namin, nakita at nasaksihan niya. actually ngaun ko lang naramdaman na wala na pala talaga sa tabi ko ang study table ko. it was more than a friend who was with me all this eleven years. it was a real part of our family. bumigay na rin ang study table. sa tindi ng bigat ng gamit na nakalagay sa kanya, at sa buong panahon na pinagsilbihan niya kami. wala na kaming magagawa, we have no choice but to dispose it. ok lang sana kung 'safe' at ayus pa siya, pero hindi. we have to accept the fact na palitan na siya. nakakalungkot isipin, pero change is inevitable.

I will miss you, my old study table.

pinabibili rin ako ng uniform ng mga nakakabata kong kapatid, so that means, pupunta ako ulit sa sfacs. oo. ang pinagmulan ko. muli akong tumungtong sa dati kong eskwelahan.

pero iba na ang feeling. hinihintay kong bumalik ang dating pakiramdam ko noong highschool pa ako. carefree, walang problema, masayahin, petiks mode, at matalino. pero wala, hindi na bumalik. nalungkot ako. napupuno na rin kasi ng iba't ibang mukha ang dati kong eskwelahan. may mga estudyanteng namumukaan ko pa, partly kasi, pag-alis namin dito, maliliit pa sila, e ngaun, nak ng, high school na pala!

maraming nagbago. the place, mas makulay, if ever, hindi parin maayos. parang isang malaking canvass ng painting ng bata ang sfacs. kung titingnan ng nanay ko ang quality ng artworks sa school, e sasabhin nyang,

'hay. ang korni talaga ng design dito.'

ayoko apihin ang sarili kong school kasi kahit papaano naman, marami akong natutunan dito. maraming facilities ang nadagdag, at naimprove. I'm happy that these guys na nag-aaral dito got the chance to enjoy what they have now. noong kami kasi, tiis. lahat.

but there's one funny irony behind this. gumanda nga ang facilities, pero ang quality nasan na? I could still vividly remember noong dati na kahit na wala kaming maayos na chem or physics lab back in highschool, we were still competitive in those fields. notable parin ang batch namin in producing champions and winners. from math to sabayang bigkasan to sports events, our batch were certified winners. hindi namin iniisip ang kakulangan ng facilities namin.

sayang. marami kasing nawalang magagaling na teachers dito. exactly, pag-alis namin, unti-unti na rin silang umalis. the lower batches didn't get the chance to be taught by these great teachers. at mula noon, wala na akong narinig na pagkapanalo ng sfacs.

sana hindi pa huli ang lahat. yun lang.

Need for Speed Underground: Unbeatable!!!!!---best time: 1:11.11

2007-07-09T23:08:00.000+08:00

walang makatalo sakin. pambihira, asteeg naman din kasi.

The froshweek started off with a bang. (?) I'm not sure. karamihan kasi ng nakita ko sa skul na nag-eenjoy kanina eh mag halos puro ka-batch ko lang. hehehehe the frosh week setup is like the mapuaworld theme, org booths are situated in the quadrangle, with of course fun booths to offer. aba, papahuli ba ang jpcs?

ayun, basta nagagamit ang mga laptop ng mga taga jpcs, why not? from mapuaworld's picture booth to Need for Speed challenge booth, naisip namin. but yung the need for speed challenge ng jpcs ay may twist. may steering wheel. buying the device was not the problem, pero ang pinaka-problema ay yung kung paano kikita ang org, at kung kikita nga ba.

sweet.

so far so good, I'e tried the game myself, at uhm enjoy naman,nakaka-kamote sa steering wheel, medyo mahirap kasi i-control yun, di malaman kung dapat sagad yung turns sa mga curves o hindi. the stick shift has also isuues. hmmm. pero enjoy naman. naaaliw parin kami. at eto yung pinaka-maganda dun. sa lahat ng naglaro, ako lang ang may magandang best time! wahahahahah!

panalo! panis ang ibang naglaro. kasi nga mahirap i-manipulate yung wheel, tsamba lang talaga ako siguro kanina. hehehehe, sweet tsamba naman. :D

oh and btw, maganda yung booth pag madilim na, kita na kasi sa projector yung game eh, mahirap kapag sa tanghali, everything is so freakin' bright, can't see a thing.

ay may natirang pa palang userbars dito, naiwan ko. post ko rin yun unang animated userbar ko. ehhehehehe.

hehehehe,ah kung sino pala ung mga napapadaan dito, I'm giving away these userbars (kung medyo nagustuhan at napupusuan ninyo. heeeheee) basta leave a message on my tagboard, kung ano yung kinuha nyo. at uh, don't forget yung mga websites/blog links nyo ha! para mabisita ko naman yung sites/blogs nyo. hehehehehehehehehe.:D

ah comments about the user bars are also appreciated. kung meron pa kayong suggestions/viloent reactions (^_^) about the designs, tag board or comment nalang. okie? :D

user bars galore!

2007-07-08T16:15:00.000+08:00

nyahahahahahah! adik ako sa user bars ngayon! yep, eto yung mga parang signature na usong uso sa mga forums ngaun! hahaha! at dahil ito na yung huling araw ng bakasyon ko, at malamang di na ako makakagawa ulit by tom, and the coming days for the next 2 1/2 months, ayan, gumawa ako!
wahahahahah!

post ko rin yung mga link ng mga tutorials tumulong sa akin.heheh, andami kong natutunan. :D

hophop. so far yan na muna, naubos ang maghapon ko dito eh. rest muna ako then balik ulit sa pagbasa ng vb e-books.

eto nga pala yung tutorial links :)

hehehe.

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R.O.D. the Tv

sweet, so far, as of now, di ko pa ito tapos panoorin. the series revolves around the three paper user sisters and nenene.

about the storyline. although at times na nagigng mababaw yung storyline nya,katulad nung sa episodes na tungkol kay anita at ang school life nya. i dunno, pero nababawan ako. as for the main story itself, yeah, it was somehow close to reality. using UK as their main story plot, kayang kaya nilang paikot-ikutin ang facts with thier story.nice. hindi rin nakaka-confuse yung plot, kasi in malinaw na nakkwento ang storyline. but to top it off despite it's rather serious appeal, hindi nawala yung mga comedic instances nya, that alone is a major good point in a series. :D

animation. fluid, though it somehow gets a resemblance to cowboy bebop's action scenes, superb na ang action sequences nito but lacks detail in character design, the personality and characteristics for every character is ok. the over-all lighting and coloring is quite bland, maybe for the fact na urban and realistic ang dating nya.

music. yees. sa opening credits I thought it was yoko kanno. but it was taku iwasaki who produced all of it. hmm. fair enough. ok na.

this series runs for 26 episodes.

my over-all rating for this series is 8 out of 10, and I'm pretty sure na magugustuhan ng mga anime lovers to.

kain.tulog.computer..and....ANG TV?

2007-07-06T21:07:00.000+08:00

eto ang daily routine ko. pero suddenly, nagkaroon ng konting kulay etong friday ko. dahil sa ANG TV. yep, the all-time 90's favorite tv show. grabe. I was more than exhilirated, excited and downright happy.

nag cchannel surf lang kasi ako kanina, mga 9:30am to be exact. at ayun, na-aalala ko bigla na in-advertise pala kahapon (thursday) ung ANG TV. wahehehe.jacktpot. 1 hr of nostalgia, sweeet. memories came flooding back as soon as i heard the song. waaaahh~!

get a glimpse.

Ang Tv is shown every fridays at 9:00-1030am. enjoy! :D

weh. natuwa rin kasi ako for the fact that karamihan talaga ng celebrities ngayon (aside from john, camille, patrick, atbp.,) e dyan nanggaling, or somewhat parang ganun. the cast also included bodie from PBB , ewan, nagkaroon pala ng ang tv special nun sa PBB, hindi naman kasi ako nanonood ng PBB eh. AJ and geoff eigenmann and more. very kewl.

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natapos ko na rin pala yung call of duty 2. panis.

oo. mahirap yung last mission, pero mas mahirap yung mga nauna, katulad nung isang mission wherein kaka-akyat mo lang sa cliff. may weak point nga pala yung game, the characters could regenerate thier health. I dunno if this is necessary at all but, nasanay kasi ako sa counter strike na may health meter na hindi bumaabalik oras na napuruhan ka talaga. so, it made the game quite easy by that feature. another thing, you could pick up weapons of any sort, I'm not sure, may nagkwento kasi sakin nay hindi gaanong kaganda/challenging kapag ganun. pero what the heck, natapos ko na. I'll buy Need for Speed nalang, nawala kasi yung game na to dito nung na reformat bigla yung pc this last month.

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I'm trying to regain my old weight back, mainam daw kasing magpataba ang mag-computer buong araw. pero hindi ata. nawawalan lang ako ng energy at tamang physical activity at hindi ang tumaba. natutulog na rin ako, to compensate lahat ng nawala kong tulog, na sa tingin ko ay kulang parin.

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friday na rin pala. ilang days na ulit bago magpasukan. new school year, new challenges, but basically same routine, same plans. what do I really have in mind? hindi ko pa rin alam. naging extremely naive kasi ako this last term..

na·ive [nah-eev] Pronunciation Key - Show IPA Pronunciation –adjective
having or showing unaffected simplicity of nature or absence of artificiality; unsophisticated; ingenuous.

I should Improve myself on this. naging egotistical rin kasi ako. masyado rin akong nag-iisip ng mga bagay na dapat hindi ko iniisip.

so what's in store for me? nothing. sabi ni mama, dapat ko raw parusahan ang sarili ko for what I've done.

coz' I dissapointed everybody. including myself.

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Nag-aaral na nga rin pala ako ng Visual Basic.

I'm using Visual Basic 2005 Express, I already got a couple of good ol' e books lying around in the internet. good thing I still have my bittorrent client, at na download ko agad in no time. pero sa tuwing babasahin ko sya, nakakatulog ako sa harapan ng computer. wah! hindi pwede! kelangan matuto! wala kasi akong kaalam-alam dito! (ni isa, pramis!)

it's been ages kasi mula noong introduction seminar ko dito, wala na talaga akong maalala ni isa. :(

new on the blog: Luna_sy! na link na kita! wahehe
on the photoalbum: the EE-ECE-COE summer outing. :D
new category/label: whatsintheboobtube.

ang soundtrack ng buhay ko. :(

2007-07-05T10:37:00.000+08:00

warning: mushy post ahead.

ang soundtrack ng buhay ko ay

why does it always rain on me by travis.

I dunno, swak lang talaga sa buhay ko ang lyrics ng kantang ito. mushy, ma-drama at pang senti. sa totoo lang, hindi cya nabibilang sa current playlist ko sa winamp. dati siguro oo. yun lang.

I woudn't say na pessimistic ako. coz I always tell people to look at the brightside. I was also known as Ms.Brightside nung kasikatan ng The Killers.

op op, off topic na.

I cant sleep tonight
Everybody saying everything is alright
Still I cant close my eyes
I'm seeing a tunnel at the end of all these lights
Sunny days
Where have you gone?
I get the strangest feeling you belong
Why does it always rain on me?
Is it because I lied when I was seventeen?
Why does it always rain on me?
Even when the sun is shining
I cant avoid the lightning
I cant stand myself
Im being held up by invisible men
Still life on a shelf when
I got my mind on something else
Sunny days
Where have you gone?
I get the strangest feeling you belong
Why does it always rain on me?
Is it because I lied when I was seventeen?
Why does it always rain on me?
Even when the sun is shining
I cant avoid the lightning
Oh, where did the blue skies go?
And why is it raining so?
Its so cold
I cant sleep tonight
Everybody saying everythings alright
Still I cant close my eyes
Im seeing a tunnel at the end of all these lights
Sunny days
Where have you gone?
I get the strangest feeling you belong
Why does it always rain on me?
Is it because I lied when I was seventeen?
Why does it always rain on me?
Even when the sun is shining
I cant avoid the lightning
Oh, where did the blue skies go?
And why is it raining so?
Its so cold
Why does it always rain on me?
Why does it always rain...

nakakalungkot isnt it?

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monday: halos lahat ng naglaro sa recent jpcs sportsfest ay nakaranas ng matinding sakit sa katawan. mistulang na HAZING ang mga players. kung si ida ay halos di makatayo nung monday, na hindi naman naglaro ng amazing race e pano pa kaya ako!? damn.

noong sunday lang ulit ako napagod ng husto. sheez, nag-amazing race pa. kala ko hihimatayin na ako sa pagod. but actually hindi sa pagod na pagod. I was out of breath really; namumuti na yung paligid ng paningin ko while I was doing the 5 lap challenge. naknampotek, I have to rest muna, bka bigla nalang akong bumulagta dito. eww dyahe.

--

monday.

walang galawan. buti nalang may pc, na may larong call of duty 2. pilitan pa nung maligo ako, grabe. dapat talaga nag warm up ako nun..:((
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movie review:

phantom of the opera.

naging fan na ako ng broadway mula nung nagparticipate ako sa broadway chuva nung 3rd year highschool. I became a slave to broadway music. Sa dvd ko nalang napanood tong phantom. naalala ko pa noon, na nagpromise ako sa sarili ko na I will watch it on the silverscreen. pero due to school, hindi ko na nagawa. nalimutan ko na.

pero yehey! after 3 years, mapapanood ko na! wee! sa dvd nga lang.

ayan. this movie is for broadway hardcore addicts only. as expected, this is not a date movie at all dahil sa musical ito. kantahan dito, kantahan doon. as for the cast, the phantom kinda reminds me of sir damian. maybe sa demeanor nya. whatever. bagay palang phantom si sir damian. natutuwa ako sa kanta na all I ask of you. kasi, laging nababangit yung pangalan ko. hehe..as for christine, galing sya sa disney channel. kanina ko lang nakita to, may movie syang "genius" na ipapalabas sa sunday ng gabi, sa disney channel. bata pa cya dito,hehe, a very talented lad.lastly, as for Raoul, sweet, nakaka-inluv tong guy na to. heheh. he delivered such a stunning performance.:D

as for the production. it was stunning to say the least, pinaghandaan talaga. may mga minor revisions ata for the movie, naging isang malaking flashback yung movie.

the songs, hmm. ewan ko ha, 3 lang kasi ung alam kong kanta, and it turns out pala na madalas ginagamit ulit ung same melodies at tunes pero different lyrics. pero ok lang. maganda parin naman.

over all, nagandahan ako,. hehe maybe for the fact that I love broadway, or talagang trip ko lang yung story nya. I would recomend this to watch with other art and music buffs, kasi kung ang mga kasama mo ay mga dakilang pop culture babies, naker, mabbadtrip ka lang.
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am i a blog addict?

80%

medyo.:D

remaining units: 39?!?!?!?!?!

2007-07-03T19:09:00.000+08:00

huwatdapak. ang huling bilang ko nito, by school year 2006-2007, 42 units nalang ako, e I got 10 units..so dapat by now, 32 units nalang, then, whatdayanaw, pagkakita ko sa encoding station, 39 pa!

okok, ganito raw kasi yun, dati kasi hindi dinadagdag yung extra 6 units electives ko...

so,

39 - 6 =33..

where:

39- computed units ko
6 - electives

which is di equal sa supposed to be computed remaining units ko na 32..hmm..may mali ata ako..

ayan, di ako makapag-overload, di rin makapag-waive, tae,bka lumagpas pa ako nito! :(

ok ok, 39 units-14 units ngaun, which leaves me to, uh, 25 units by next term. kung papalarin,

i-wwaive ko yung ethics (2) at eng man (2) ko..may matitira pa ring lecture subjects by 3rd term. dun ko nalang cguro ilalagay yung other subjects ko such as elemag(3), controls (3) ,thermo (3) = 13...

i was wondering, pwede kaya waive-overload?
25-13=12
so by 3rd term:

OS lec -1 unit (credit)
OS lec -3 units(credit)
elective 2 -3 units(credit)
seminars -1 unit
practicum - 3 units

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hmm. as for my skeds.

i got

ecoacc---eto na naman, di na natuloy yung proposed waive ko kasi dahil dyan sa pesteng elective n yan! argh!

design 2--good luck sa amin at kay sir linsangan

software lab--good luck din...

java--credited

comnet--I decided na hindi nalang ipa credit to, reserve ko nalang yung credits ko para sa ibang subjects such as OS lab & Lec..

nga pala, kukuha ako n unix! wah! I need sna2..kaso ang aga kasi eh..:(
----

ayan, new term , new beginnings, uh, except for feasib. incomplete kasi..sabi ni remon, marami cyang oras na ma-ilalaan para dito, so maybe, sana, baka, matapos rin namin cya by this term.

--

ay oo nga pla. last week we happen to see sam milby and that eyebrow-shaving-guy from PBB. IMHO, I thnk sam milby has gotten fat. :...mas nakita ko pa at napansin yung other guy, pero di ko cya maxado nakilala kasi di naman ako nanonood ng PBB eh.

do check out janet's post for more details. :)
note: nasa bandang dulo yung details eh, so you might as well check the whole post out, nakakatawa naman bashin eh. it's worth the read. :)

to hell with EcoAcc.

2007-06-30T23:41:00.000+08:00

kung merong isang bagay na makakapadescribe sa nararamdaman ko ngaun, ito marahil ang MATINDING PAGKASUKLAM.

nayayamot

nasusuya.

poot.

hinagpis

galit.

paano ba naman, bagsak kasi ako sa ecoacc. mahirap ang subject, pero mas mahirap kung hindi marunong magturo ang prof. pero, I still managed to pass at least one exam. complete assignments, and seatworks. pero wala.

nang dahil sa isang estudyante. na nangopya at hindi umamin. kung may kapangyarihan lang akong malaman kung sino yun, bakit hindi? lalaslasin ko yung leeg nya kungdi siya aamin.

unti unting gumuho ang liwanag at pag asa ko sa subject na to. I was never been lucky with these kind of proffesors, pambihira talaga. sa totoo lang, madali lang kausap si mam. yun lang nagalit siya. hindi ako natutuwa sa pag jujustify nang pagiging magagalitin niya, napaka-unprofessional to say the least.

eto lang naman kasi yung logic: pumapasok ang estudyante regardless and independent sa character at behavior ng mga magiging kaklase niya, mangopya man yung kaklase nya wala na siyang paki-alam. in short, walang esprit de corp dito (all for one, one for all), HINDI ITO HIGH SCHOOL FOR CRYING OUT LOUD.

and another thing: maaring magaling siya magturo sa ibang subjects niya, pero dito, hinde. what I really hated was, partida, hindi mo na nga naituro ng maayos yung subject, ang lakas mo pa magpahirap at magtorture ng estudyante! paimportante ka masyado, may nalalaman ka pang verification dyan! wag ka na sanang magturo sa eco acc!

damn it.

may araw ka rin! I have given you all the respect despite all that had happened, pero ano? pinakain mo pa rin sa amin yang bullshit mong pride at ego!

one day soon its going to happen to you
and when it does it wont be pretty
one day soon its going to happen to you
and when it does...i wont be there

ganito na lang. I may forgive you sometime, at ito nalang, sana ma realize mo na hindi mo pala kami idinamay sa galit mo, we paid you to teach us, hindi ang kainin ang pride at ego mo! >_<

see you in hell.

the last train: A term in review

2007-06-22T00:04:00.000+08:00

WARNING: LONG POST AHEAD.

hindi ko lubos maisip na tapos na pala ang term, all 2 1/2 months na pagpupuyat, pagpapagod, at unintentional na pagpapapayat ay tapos na.

pero sa kabila ng lahat, napansin ko lang na naging mareklamo ako. wala na akong ibang masabi kungdi pagrereklamo. though I find some time to laugh once in a while, pero hindi na rin katulad ng dati. naisip ko tuloy yung sinabi ni jel sakin one time. hindi na siya nag eenjoy.

enjoy? mukhang nalimutan ko na tong word na to.

----

for the past few weeks, pinakain ko ang sarili ko sa PARSER na hindi gumana. to think about it, ginawa ko ang lahat, pero parang laging may kulang. ano yung kulang? ewan. di ako nagpalampas ng isang araw na hindi nag iisip kung ano yung kulang. soon, I became easily irretated, anxious and before I knew it, burned out na pala ako.

nag-invest nga ba ako ng time sa maling desisyon?

ewan. hindi ko rin talaga alam. fraustrated at dissapointed na ako sa pinaka-crucial na oras sa term. ang pre-hell week. ang hell week ay ang week before the finals. dito nagaganap lahat ng milagro sa mapua, or ang katapusan ng mundo para sa iba.

pre-hell week. pasahan ng halos kahit anong pwedeng ipasa. unti unting gumuho ang mundo ko nung nagka- sabay sabay ang mga exam. natunaw ang utak ko, pero wala paring nangyari. naubusan na ko ng oras, hindi ko parin gawa ang parser.

di nagtagal, nag-pangabot na ang pagod,puyat at napaka-tinding fraustration. nauwi sa katakot-takot na misunderstandings..

It didn't took long before I realized that I was fighting a losing battle.

hindi ko na nagawa.

nagawa na ni janet. at nakagpag defnse na kami sa compiler.

though napatawad nya ako for what I've done, nahirapan akong mapatawad ang sarili ko. kinain narin kasi ng pride at ego ko ang pagtapos sa parser na yan. mahirap pala talaga yun no. nahirapan akong mapatawad ang sarili ko dahil I have no regrets. nasa akin na lahat ng resources para magawa siya ng tama. I felt so stupid. wala na talaga akong magawang tama.

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as for feasib

INCOMPLETE.

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as for methods.

tips from carol sambaoa:

if ever na may chance, mag pa proofread..hindi PROFREAD.
attack agad sa introduction
avoid surveys. kadalsan kasi may methods dito, at computation
be SPECIFIC.
do have decent related literature
makabubuti na magkaroon ng kopya ng research ng iba bilang pagbabasehan/guide ng paper nyo.

hmm. mukhang lusot kami dito kasi bookbind nalang tom. hehe

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software lecture

hindi ko ito inaasahan. kasi ang hirap ng exam....online na 15 questions lang. kamusta naman yun? mag review ka man ng sandamakmak, which might lead sa mental block, which in turn, baka magpabagsak sa finals.

at yun na nga ang nangyari. 40/150 lang ako...huhuhuhuhuh...maaa'm...:'C

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comorg!

wee! "taken" na ako!

--
ayan, na upload ko na yung EEC summer outing pics sa album. wala kasi akong multiply eh. these are some samples.:D

Figure 1. the real summer bodies.

Figure 2. JPCS

Figure 3. ComOrg Buddies :D

Figure 4. More JPCS Buddies ^^,

hay..ayan na muna. antok na kasi ako.pupunta pa ko ng school tom..

ang CFG ng buhay ko.

2007-06-07T23:34:00.000+08:00

3 linggo. tatlong linggo ko nang tinititigan ang CFG na para sa parser namin. alam kong hindi lalabas ang CFG, selection set, table entries at push down machine sa kakatitig sa CFG namin. mga 2 linggo ko na ring hawak ung parser code nila ji.

mahirap.

linked list, classes at pointer. eto ang bumubuo ng code nila. ironic it may seem, pero kung ano pa yung topic sa c++ ang hindi ko maintindihan, un pa ung nakalagay sa code. damn, sa kanila parin ako nakakapit pagdating sa ganito. I feel so bad about myself, na hindi ko to magawa ng maayos.

I'm trying hard to understand everything that I need to learn to make a decent parser.
pero wala.

nahihiya narin kasi ako sa mga ka-grupo ko, lalo na kay janet. siya kasi, gets nya agad. eh ako, aabutin pa ng hapon bago magets ung 3 sentence-tutorial ni conde.

I wanted to do the same. ayoko na i-asa sa kanya ung parser. siya na kasi ung sa lexical part. I couldn't afford na cya din gagawa nun.

I also wanted to prove to myself na kaya ko itong gawin.

<start>-<gawa><jpcs><tambay> <gawa>-<compiler> <gawa>-<methods> <gawa>-<feasib> <compiler>-<cfg> <cfg>-tama<selection> <selection>-tama<pdm> <pdm>-tama<table_entries> <table_entries>-tama<code> <methods>-research_more<defense> <defense>-kill <defense>-pass <feasib>-null <feasib>-chapter1<edit><next> <edit>-<feasib> <edit>-null <next>- <jpcs>-outing <jpcs>-<seminars> <jpcs>-<induction> <seminars>-activity form <skedule><seminars> <skedule>-ok <skedule>-not ok <jpcs>-NULL <tambay>-uwi <tambay>-kain

yehey..medyo nagkaroon ako ng prolema sa pagpost sa cfg na to dito. kasi ba naman, pinaprocess nya ung "<" as code. apparently, may paraan pala. heheheheh

kung meron mang cfg na katumbas ang pang araw-araw kong ginagawa. pero, hindi ko lahat ginagawa yan. kaya may "NULL" o epsilon kung tawagin..

from my last post, may problema ang PC ko. ung ubuntu issue. and guess what, I fixed it all by myself! wee!

see? ok na yun partition ko! yehey!

nga pala. may gusto lang akong sabihin at itanong.

....kelangan ba talaga ng action symbols para sa parser?!?!?!?! hindi naman diba?!?!?!pakshet! argh!

[untitled]

2007-05-30T01:08:00.000+08:00

nalilito na ako kung lahat ng pumapasok sa isip ko ay pawang epekto lamang ng matinding pagod o isa lamang sa mga guni-guni ng tinatamad na tintin.

may mga araw na parang lumilipas na parang wala akong ginawa, ngunit hinangad kong magkaroon ng kabuluhan. sa totoo lang, pagkagising ko sa umaga ay pinaplano ko na kaagad ang mga dapat kong gawin, kasama na dito ang mga 'plan b' o ang mga alternatibong gagawin para hindi masayang ang oras ko.

pero wala. naiinis na ako sa sarili ko.

dati, meron akong mini-calendar na kwaderno. walang kwenta. hindi ko rin naman kasi lagi binubuksan ito, pwera nalang kung may ilalagay [or isusulat] ulit ako na mahalagang bagay o plano. kung sakali man na may maisulat ako, tsaka ko lang ulit sya bubuksan. edi wala rin. limot ko rin agad.

kaya ayun , ayoko ko na ng kahit anong organizer. lalo lang kasi gumugulo yung buhay ko, kasi nauuwi lang ang sisi sa sarili ko tuwing nalilimutan ko na may organizer pala ako. wag na lang.

ayoko ko na ring magalit. sa mga ka-grupo sa methods at feasib, eto lang ang gusto kong sabihin:

demmet. di talaga kayo kikilos ng kusa no!?

I know. di lang din ito ang subject nyo. bakit ako rin naman ah! leche.

---sabi ko, ayoko ko nang magalit. tama na ang drama.

last weekend, dito nagpalipas ng gabi si ate ina. sya nga pala ung pinsan ko. ehhehe, at may blog cya. ngaun, nag-promise kasi ako sa kanya na gagawan ko cya ng layout na tulad ng sa akin at ng kay janet. inggit. hehehehe. so ayun, medyo sinacrifice ko muna yung saturday ko para sa promise ko at ginawan ko siya ng layout. from photoshop cs2, ginawan ko cya ng main image na gagamitin nya, then as for the codes, copy paste nalang sakin. well, walang contribution si ate ina sa sarili nyang layout, pero ok lang yun. kaya lang, di ko talaga alam kung ano yung ialalagay ko para sa profile nya. so iended up not editing some entries in my template. profile naman nya un, kaya siya nalang meg-edit.

ok. hindi pala niya in-edit.

it also turned out na tinamad na siya mag-edit ng kahit ano dun. for what reason? i dunno.

at eto ang naging resulta:

kung tatanungin, hindi ako nag direct link. e baka kasi baguhin na nya eto sometime. hehehehehehe

for the design:

1024 x 768 image size
gradient style coloring.
Brush from Magurno.com
beach-style theme with some lines from "pure shores" lyrics by all-saints
navigation at the right
wide main blog section.

haayy.

kanina, nagbigay si conde ng ubuntu cd ver.7 kay ej, bigla kong naalala ung ubuntu cd na binigay nya sakin dati. pagdating ko sa bahay, nakita ko yung ubuntu cd na naka-tambay sa ilalim ng mga patong-patong na cd's sa computer table. sinubukan kong i-run as live cd, pero antagal. grabe. as in. meron siyang progress bar, pero di talaga ako sure kung progress bar yun, di kasi naandar eh. damn. ayun ctrl+alt+del tuloy ako.

plan b:

gumawa ako ng new partition para ma-install. tae. antagal parin. nandun parin yung nagkukunyaring progress bar. wala. so ayun, gusto ko nang burahin yung partition.

teka..

panu nga ba?!

o shit. di ako marunong. so mula kaninang 12:30 hanggang ngaun, nag ttroubleshoot parin ako ng pag-delete ng partition para ma-recover ang space na na-reserve ko para dun. tae, I'm definitely learning things the hard way recently.

hmm. bakit nga ba ako nahihirapan? simple naman neto, pero hirap na hirap ako. does this mean na wala akong natutunan man lang ni isa sa mga pinag-aralan ko sa school? o wala lang talaga akong tamang experience sa ganito.

kahiya hiya. nag-unix pa naman ako, at nagustuhan ko ang unix.

argh.

*still working on recovering the deleted partition. pamimigay ko na tong ubuntu na to kay alvin. nag-order kasi ulit ako ng free cd, heheheheheh, ver 7 na cya. hehehehehe

of sweat, front rows and Cosplays

2007-05-20T00:15:00.000+08:00

Mood:

Wah!!! hindi ko alam na hahantong ang araw na ito sa isang nakakapagod ngunit, masayang araw na ito. first stop, compiler lab.

may mali raw. anu kaya yun? harhar. sa nagyon, si janet daw muna bahala dun. hmm.

CFG naman. Unfortunately, ako naman ang taya dito. or rather our other groupmate. Instinctively, pinag-iisipan ko talagang mabuti kung ano talaga ang balak namin sa kanya. ang maglaglag ng ka-grupo ay hindi isang madaling desisyon. napakalaki ng chance na hindi tama ang desisyon, kaya't minabuti namin na kausapin cya, (on behalf of janet, ako nalang ang kuma-usap, to avoid possible cat fights.bwahehehehe.) kinausap ko cya, and she'd agreed.

gagawin na nya ang pinapagawa namin sa kanya. She didn't object nor I told her what's on our minds.

so ayun.

next stop, MANGAHOLIC festival sa mall of asia. to start, first time ko talaga na maka-attend sa ganito kahit mahilig ako sa anime. though I am a self-confessed anime lover, Iam not definitely a anime guru nor an Otaku. wearing cosplays is not my cup of tea. but I find this culture really cool.

nagkalat ang mga bagay na kinahiligan ko ng high-school at pre-college days. mula sa pinaka-magagandang posters hanggang sa anime dvd's (these were the only ones that were new, I used to watch anime in vcd and vhs formats back then). meron din launching ng isa nanamang local manga-style version. kewl. ang galing.

habang tinitingnan ko ang mga sample premier issues nila, hindi ko maiwasang mainggit. marahil sa kadahilanan na nagagawa nila ang gusto nila, samantalang ako, halos ubusin ang isang buong araw at nalalabing kabataan sa pag-aaral sa Mapua. passion ko kasi ang mag-drawing.

pero, iba na ang pananaw ko. may mga pangarap na dapat iiwan para sa ikabubuti ng nakararami. pero natagalan akong tanggapin bago ko tuluyang iniwanan ang pag-ddrawing. oo, nag-ddrawing parin ako paminsan-minsan, pero hindi na career mode tulad ng high-school up to pre-college days.

speaking of anime, nakapanood ako ulit ng bagong movie. Ito ay yung Toki wo Kakeru Shoujo, or The Girl who lept through time.

napanood ko ito sa crunchyroll.com, napasarap ang panonood ko dahil maganda ang story nya. taking from the name itself, isang time-travelling plot ito. medyo mahirap kung i-elaborate ng husto, pero magandan naman yung kinalabasan. as for the animation, maganda siya. bakit? kasi gawa cya ng favorite kong animator na yoshiyuki sadamoto !(many of his works are kinda reminiscent sa mga gawa ko. hehehe, idol ko talaga un..) woohoo~! after siguro a couple of years na hindi ako nakakita ng new works nya, medyo natuwa talaga ako nung nalaman ko na siya ang nagdrawing neto!!!

My verdict? Panoorin.

at dahil napasarap ako ng nood, nahuli ako ni mama at hehe, medyo na-gulity ako kasi hindi ko natulungan si janet sa CFG namin. hehehe, so I brought her a MOO™ .hmm. ayun, wala na akong atraso sa kanya. hehe, hindi na rin ako guilty.

nagun, balik tayo sa napuntahan kong anime festival. medyo na-cornyhan ako sa pag-cosplay ng iba, pero ok lang, wala naman akong magagawa dun eh, pero yung sa new local comics, medyo alanganin pa ako. hindi naman sa wala talaga akong bilib sa kapwa ko pilipino pero, sa tingin ko, hindi pa talaga handa ang mga pinoy for local anime. hanggang ngaun, stuck up parin tayo sa panonood ng anime. nakikta ko rin kasi na ang dahilan ng pagiging sikat ng anime ay sa simpleng interpretasyon ng kulturang hapon. napaka-laki na nang natutunan ko sa bansang ito sa pagbabasa lamang ng manga at panonood ng anime. the same goes for koreanovelas. iba kasi sila sa atin. pero datapwa't subalit at ngunit, hindi dito nagtatapos ang mga pangarap ng mga pinoy na makagawa ng sariling pangalan sa larangan ng animation. malay mo, balang araw, sumama ako sa kanila. (hmm, hindi parin talaga ako over sa animation dream job ko. )

OO nga pala! I bought a new anime DVD! waaH!!!! ang mura! 6 episodes, 100php lang! wee! binili ko yung matagal ko nang hinahanap na GateKeepers 21..hahahah! wee! I can't hardly wait! sana bumili nalang ako pati ng iba...

hehe. di bale, ok lang yun, meron pa namang iba eh,.

hindi ko lang sure ah, pero si arfel ( a high school friend. former MOCC mate) ata yung nakita ko sa cosplay kanina. hindi kasi nag-iba yung mukha niya, kaya madali ko siyang naalala. hindi rin ako nagtataka kung makita ko sya sa ganung lugar, mahilig rin kasi sa anime yun. nahiya ako nung una, gusto ko sanang batiin at lapitan, pero naunahan ako ng hiya.

At nung mawala ang hiya, nawala naman siya.sayang.

hello, arfel, musta na?

pagkatapos ng anime festival, may concert ang globe sa MallOfAsia. kewl. it featured sessionroad, itchy worms, callalily and yeng constantino. ok na sana eh, if it weren't for those stupid bastards na nanood lang ata para sa freebies ng globe( though I managed to get one too!) hay. pang masa.(argh! commoners!) hindi ko masyado na-enjoy. pero ok lang. i got to see session road's vocalist just merely 3ft away! pakshet kasi ung harang. argh!

session road was ultimately cool. or maybe I am just a sucker for live performances. hehee. 4 sa 5 kinanta nila ay ang mga paborito ko. hehehe, next is Itchyworms. grabe. ang kewl parin. pero mas maganda yung performance nila nung nagconcert sila sa school namin last year. mas masaya eh. haay. ewan ko ba, kilala naman nila ung 2 naunang banda, pero hindi man lang pumalakpak?! man, you're the worst crowd ever! (sobrang starstruck ata sila, ngaun lang nila nakita tong mga to, hindi tuloy makapalakpak.) wahh! hindi ko na pinanood ung natitira pang iba. gutom na kasi ako.

for a change, try ko kaya ipost yung gawa ko sa compiler dito??hehe, joke lang. antok na nga talaga ako.

amft. wala na nanaman akong ulam..pero, anyway, I got Mood themes!

2007-05-17T01:58:00.000+08:00

Mood:

Isang napakabang kwento kung bakit ako galit na galit o masyadong apektado sa pagkawala ng ulam o pagkaubos nito pagkadating ko.

pagod kasi ako, or gutom, teka....pasahan pala sa compiler. ops. tapos ko na. yeye.Tapos ko na. galing. ahehehe, dati pa cya tapos sa totoo lang, dinagdagan ko lang. yung to convert row..kala ko sisiw lang. sisiw nga! tweet!~

sa kabilang dako, world record na ako sa sarili ko. 3am na ako natulog kahapon dahil sa report ko sa software lecture.., and ngaun, gising parin ako. syempre hindi papatalo ang long-lost kong tigyawat na dati nang pinatay ng intsik kong sabon sa mukha . nagbalik sila. lintik lang daw walang ganti. grr.

at the back of my head, marami pa akong gustong gawin. I think my mind is steroids. sana yung katawan ko nalang din. hindi ko alam kung bakit, ngunit tila naghihintay ako na magkasakit ako. tae, tae talaga. marami pa nga kasi akong gustong gawin, pero datapwa't ngunit at subalit
kelangan. bawal nga pala magkasakit sa mapua.

ika nga ng silent sanctuary sa kanilang awit na "ingat ka":

Doon mag-ingat ka (San ka man magpunta)
Matulog maaga (Para di mamutla)
Huwag mashadong magpupuyat
Inom gamot pag nilalagnat.

sweet.

at dahil walang pagkain, napilitan akong mag-noodles. buti nalang naimbento ang noodles sa mundo! waah~!

haay. hindi ito yung kinain ko. FYI: ito ata ang pinaka-unang nissin ramen dito sa pilipinas. hmm. ata lang ha. and so far, ito rin ang pinaka-masarap para sa akin. bakit? may sesame oil. basta iba cya. hindi cya nakaka-umay tulad ng lucky me. adik no?

eto cya:

cool..yummy yan...thank to ecah for this.

hmm..san ko nga ba nakuha yung Princess hours mood themes?hehe eto: click me!
well, yan na muna, tulog na muna ko.hehehehe.

New Desktop. yehey!

2007-05-14T16:31:00.000+08:00

maraming nangyari ngaung weekend na ito. In fact, sa sobrang dami, hindi ko na maalala yung iba, okey, simulan natin noong umaga ng sabado. haay. sabadong sabado, puyat ako. well, hindi lang naman ako ang puyat.

saturday :

from approximately 23:45 (friday night) up until 4:45 am(saturday am), gising ako or rather kami, para sa lexical analyzer na hindi matapos tapos. kung ano-anong bug at error ang hindi masolusyunan. pero hindi kami sumuko. I find it rather unusual na hindi ako nagrereklamo. hindi rin ako napapagod. oo, puyat nga ako. Pero, nag-eenjoy ba ako? maybe. pinili kong matulog para hindi mapasma dahil may klase na kami at maya-maya'y kailangan ko nang maligo. Pasma is the least thing I needed. pagdating sa school. damn. wala paring tao. naiwan ko nanaman yung phone ko, hehe, kaya kandarapa nanaman ako kung kanino ako makikitext para mahanap nayung pakner/groupmate ko. oh yeah, didn't I mention na tatlo kami sa grupo? yung isa, well, Ayoko sanang sabihin to pero, she has to exert more effort, for crying out loud, hindi kami ganun kahirap hagilapin. she could contact us sa isang text lang, in 3 numbers that she could choose from. hindi naman sa masyado akong demanding, pero hindi naman kasi kami ganun kagaling sa C++.

amidst sa half-functioning brain ko, nainggit ako kay janet nung maaga siyang umuwi. sana ako rin (gusto ko na rin kasing matulog)...kasi naman, 12-4:30 ung vacant ko, may eco acc pa ako at 4:30-6:00pm...nagulat ako ng biglang pumunta si xyrelle sa org at sinabi na nag-text daw si papa sa kanya. hehe! anu kaya yun. pinatawag ko nalang si papa sa phone ni xy since di ko cya ma-contact sa landline nya.

he said something na concerned about my CPU and sa monitor.

baka ibili na nya ko ng bago.
hindi ako makapinawala sa narinig ko. namuti ang paligid ko at tila hihimatayin ako. nakangiti na ako noong buong eco acc namin, lumilipad ang isip sa mga bagay-bagay. I was Daydreaming. buti nalang maaga kaming pinauwi. halos patakbo na akong naglalakad papunta sa opisina nina mama. at nagmamadaling pumunta sa PC Express na nasa tapat ng opisina nina papa. sa kabila ng gutom, puyat at pagod, nagawa ko paring ma-excite sa mga pangyayari. and there it is:

ang bago kong PC.....

* 512 MB RAM

* 128 MB ATI VIDEO CARD

* Intel Celeron D

* ASUS MotherBoard

* LiteOn Dvd-Rewriter

* 120GB Sata HDD

Unfortunately, hindi cya nagkasya (ang buong casing) sa loob ng computer table ko. msyado kasi siyang malaki. pero ok lang.

at dahil para akong bagong nanay, hindi ko pinalampas ang mga pinaka-unang bonding moments ko with my new PC..

Gorgeous..

dito narin ako unang beses naka-pag install ng OS, hehe. ganun pala yun. chicken lang pala. ayun, pati pag-kabit ng luma kong hard drive , para sa necessary installers. necessary like Game boy advance, winamp, k-lite codec, hehehe. tsaka na yang MS Office na yan. hehehe.

well, at dahil mother's day kahapon. nag-tagaytay kami. unfortunately, hindi ko masyado trip kumain ng marami noon, kasi may ubo at sipon ako. hmm. i only got 3 slices of pizza and a plate of meat ball spaghetti. wala nga akong gana...

last week, janet told me something na kamukha daw nya.I was fascinated, kasi I have this strange habit of sending other people's photos (na nakikita ko sa internet) to friends and relatives kapag kamukha nila. at eto sila.

Kamuka no?by the way, this guy is a baseball player (ata) in japan. but he looks like he's playing a guitar here.

eto yung pinsan ko.

eto pa:

ops. just for this Angle, and lighting, naalala ko si jap kapag nakikita ko itong pic na ito. wala kasi akong picture nya dito, and besides, pumayag kya siya kung ilagay ko ung pic nya sa blog ko? kilalanin nyo nalang si jap. hehe

and last but not the least, ang kamuka ni janet. I was pretty sarcastic at first, pero nung nakita ko na, all I could say was,"OMG"..

grabe. sabi nya( ni janet), payat lang daw to and matangos ang ilong(which by the way I prefer to disagree, pareho lang naman eh). at nung nakita ko yung ibang pics (this girl), hindi na naman nya kamuka. weird..di ko na kailangan ilagay ang pic nya(ni janet) rito. you might as well check this out.linky

pero IMHO, mas asteeg parin si janet dito.hehehe. di dahil sa pakner ko cya and all that.hehe.

ngaun lang ako ulit nakapag blog. kasi walang pasok. walang pasok kasi eleksyon.

3rd week: HELL WEEK?!

2007-05-06T00:36:00.000+08:00

Ay grabe, 3rd week palang, haggard na ako. Mula sa methods of research hanggang sa compiler design, may sari-sariling deadline ngaun.

may 2 linggo na rin akong walang tulog.

pero I seem to survive.

nakapag-pasa na kami ng proposal sa feasib. gusto ko na matapos to, ayaw ko kasi paabutin to hanggang 2nd term ng coming school year. argh. ang problema naman ngaun eh yung logo, company name, trademark (?). haay.

sa methods naman, ang proposal pala ay equal to chapter 1. sheez.. ayun, hanging parin kami. gumwa na ko ng groups for this subject. baka bukas ko nalang din to formal na simulan.

as for compiler design..... dito ko nalang ulit nalaman kung gaano karaming brain cells ang naipa-anod ko sa dagat at swimming pool. wala akong nagawang tama. nakaka-fraustrate. give me time, at ma-gegets ko rin ulit ang c++, at ang naka-baul kong Object-oriented Programming unit sa brain.

as for the coming weeks, since, pababa na ng pababa ang nalalabi kong nutrisyon at sigla sa katawan, I'll try to be more attentive, and eat more. uuwi na rin pala ako ng mas maaga, dahil i rereview ko na ulit ang c++. mag papaturo na ako ng matino sa mga kaibigan kong nakapag-compiler na (conde, thanks! :D), at malamang, magpa-consult na kay sir tungkol sa project na to.

at dahil nga magkahalong antok, puyat at gutom ang nasa isip ko ngaun, eto ang mga katagang ito:

I'll try to manage this things better.

sana may patron saint ang c++. siguro deboto na ako dun.

matutulog na rin ako ng maaga.pramis.

LSS: gary valenciano-di bale nalang kaya.

paano ko nga ulit sisimulan yung lexical?argh.

status: di na ako galit. si mam benibe nalang. sana mag-cool down na cya..mahina pa naman ako sa accounting...mam, magturo ka na ulit.

Dissapointed, tired, dead, traumatized.

2007-04-29T01:12:00.000+08:00

mood: furious.
to **** ** *** ********* ********:
dissapointed. ayoko na. napapagod din si tintin. ako ang napapahiya sa kawalan ng matinong pagdedesisyon nyo. wala akong madahilan, walang malusutan. I couldn't save myself, worse, I couldn't save you guys. I felt terrribly alone. and there you are, sitting your arse in some place. This will be the last time.

to ** ****:
palagi nyo naman akong nakikita, nakaka-usap, tapos tama ba na malalaman ko pa ba sa iba? I believed in you.

to the *** *** ****:
don't be such a pushover. be strict. don't let their excuses fool you. show them how good you are. teach them on how to respect, and how to be responsible enough. 'cause pushovers and sloths aren't allowed here.

sa ***** ****:
wala na akong bilib sa inyo. anu ba tingin nyo dito, bastang upuan lang?

to the ******:
ask nicely. be considerate enough na may nakakarinig sa inyong iba. your opinions do matter, but, shouting and screaming profanities at the top of your lungs at somebody just to show your anger at something you don't understand doesn't mean you're tough. i don't care on how you think about the things you didn't know, but know first who you are talking to. you might be just reading your side of the story. Paano kayo maniniwala sa kanya, na in the first place AYAW nyo nang maniwala sa kanya?

I'm sorry. naghalo lang talaga ang pagod at init sa ulo ko.

Sm Mall of Asia: almost 5 Days in a row.

2007-04-25T00:36:00.000+08:00

so what? wala naman. kung meron lang kasing log-in log out sa mall of asia, e malamang, meron na kami dun. bakit? e simula ng dumating ung mga tito ko from the states and catarman, ayun, lagi na kaming halos sa Mall of asia nagtatatambay. kain dito, kain dun...

...na para bang wala nang bukas. kumain din kami sa kalapit nitong 'dampa', isang lugar na pinupuntahan ng maraming tao, no wonder, masarap naman talaga. asteeg, sulet. maraming kainan, wherein, pwede kang magpaluto ng mga binili mong seafoods sa tabi ng mga restaurants.

and oh, btw, ang mga seafoods na mabibili mo rito ay mga high-class, meaning, fresh at sulit (sulet kasi, kahit medyo mahal, e sigurado ka pang magandang klase yung nabili mo.).

edi yun, kain. 2 big plates na puno ng crab claws, deep-fried shrimps, grilled tuna belly, sinigang na di-ko-alam-na-isda, at talaba. grabe, ansarap. grabe, sa kabila ng maingay na pagtugtog ng isang banda sa likod namin, tinamaan na ako ng antok sa sobrang sarap ng kinain ko. all I could think of after eating was to sleep.

since birthday din ni papa nung saturday, at nandyan ang mga brothers nya, syempre may gift cya. this includes a 7 megapixel digital camera! waw! bertdey!

at hindi lang yan, may palm pilot din cya. hay, andamut nga, ayaw mag-share. hmph. >_<>

loon, remon

santos, alvin

aborde, robinson

---geez, buti nalan, 3 out of 4 (including me) ay taga cavite, but so sad naman, na nag-boboard ngaun si remon. musta naman kaya yun. sa ngaun, wala parin kaing proposal at mukhang bukas pa kami gagawa. hayayayayay. sa national library ata kami kukuha kasi may kakilala cyang inabot lang ng 1 term nung halos iretype nila lahat yun! wee! sana kami ren!
at may methods na rin ako. ang mga groupmates ko ay sina:

eric, charl, at ron.

good luck naman sana samin, hehehehehehe.dahil, wala pa kaming proposal. mahirap mag-isip kasi ng bagay na ganyan, lalo na kung nasanay ka sa lecture at laboratory cases,wherein, may definite na lahat.

at lastly, sa compiler lab. OO, may groupings na sa infamous at dreaded compiler lab. dreaded?e kilala kasi itong subject na ito na individualism at uber hirap, not to mention ma-trabaho. at eto ang mga ka-group ko:

janet at jobelle. 3 lang kami (at puro babae! gogogogo!!) at mukhang sa c# ang tuloy namin.

dumating na ang pinaka-hihintay kong jpcs summer outing pictures. naalala ko tuloy ung time na na flood ko yung memory card ni ej ng halos puro picture ko. dang! ang ganda kasi, 8 megapixel! carl-zeiss pa!

here's a sample: look at your own risk! bwehehehehehehe.

nyahahahaha! yan palang eh! hehehehe! yep, sa calatagan yan. super babaw ng beach at walang malakas na alon! as you can see, ngiting ngiti ako sa pic na yan kasi nasakin na ang camera ni ej! >:)....dyan na rin nagsimula ang pag-invade ko sa memory card nya! nyahahahahaha!

more to come! antok na kasi ako. hehehehehehehehe.

weird.weird.weird.>_<

2007-04-19T00:32:00.000+08:00

kanina, nung sa comorg namin, nanood kami ng slideshow ng pictures ng matrix, WITH SOUNDS. cool eh? the show lasted about less than 20 mins. ewan, buong slide show, naka-kunot yung noo ko.

bakit?

bakit?

ewan.

ang weird talaga. nanood parin ako, dahil baka malamang, magtanong si sir tungkol sa slideshow, at baka sa paglalaro ngtadhana ay matawag ako. pero, buti na lang, hinde. hinde nya ako tinawag kasi hinde naman cya nagtatanong.

hinde naman sa pang-aaway ng slide presentation, pero punong-puno ng distractions ang slides ni sir maramba. ay. buti nalang, hard-coded na sakin si keanu reeves na bading cya. there's no way i could be distracted by him or any other way na makuha nya ang atensyon ko. sana lang, simpleng slides nalang. sakit kasi sa mata.. ang dilim na kasi sa room tas sobrang makulay pa yung slides. arrrgghh.. >_<>_<

speaking of init. grabe. since absent si janet buong araw kanina, i was forced to tie up my hair on my own. it was damn messy, pero at least, kinaya ko ang init at natiis ang inis.

ay, naiwan ko pala yung payong ko.dang.

Now what?

2007-04-16T23:32:00.000+08:00

hay. ngaun at tapos na ang pinaka-mamahal kong bakasyon, tinanong kong muli ang sarili ko kung anu ba ang gusto kong mangyari ngaun. definitely, tutulong na uli ako sa org, dahil, wala na kong rason para tumakas sa mga trabaho ko, dahil hindi ko na lagi kasama yung kambal ko, si janet.

speaking of janet, hehe, magkaibang-magkaiba sked namin. di ko alam kung amazing twins parin ang tawag samin ngaun, pero, I'm quite sure na matagal pa bago kami maghiwalay ng landas. hehe. at, binigyan pala nya ako ng tshirts. yes, yo read it right: TSHIRTS.

yes. plural cya. no, hinde ito kasama sa mga daang-daang typo error na kinatamaran ko nang baguhin at i-revise. at dahil plural cya, malamang higit sa isa ang binigay nya sakin.

hindi dalawa.

hindi rin tatlo.

kungdi lima.

yesssss. lima. nang tiningnan ko ito, natuwa talaga ako ng husto. waw. anliit. pero, since hindi ko pa nasusukat, hindi ko parin masabi kung talagang masikip nga ito sakin. sinayasat ko pa ito ng husto, at 'stretchable' pala ito. pwede!

so I got:

2 shirts
3 striped shirts that amazingly looked alike.

grabe. waw. bihira sa mga close-friends ang maghiraman ng damit, pero kami, bigayan! do read this post on janet's blog to see what I've bought for her.

sabi nga ni daniel, baka naman sa susunod e, undergarments naman daw. nye.

what else..hmm..

It kinda felt weird going back sa normal routines ko. LRT, van. lakad. jpcs table. oo nga, may pasok na talaga ulet. kasi I could still remember certain nights when I would dream about school, wherein na sobrang totoo talaga siya, na inaakala ko na may pasok na talaga. but hinde, pag gising ko, nasa ibang kwarto ako.

haay. I'm dissapointed to myself recently. I tried hard to gain weight, pero wala. but I effortlessly napaitim ko ang sarili ko kahit na less than 1hour akong nagsswiming. the hell.

ay oo nga pala.

pumunta kaming last saturday sa LUCENA FRESH AIR RESORT. waw. di ko na matandaan kung kelan akong huling pumunta dito. asteeg. kung tama talaga ha, mga +15 years na akong hindi pumupunta dito, given the fact na more than 3x a year akong umuuwi ng lucena. everything felt weird. o ako lang ang nagddrama sa amin. ito ang pang-uto sa akin ng mga tao nung maliit pa ako, para sumunod ako sa kanila. (etc, ubusin ang pagkain, wag na maglaro sa labas at gabi na, stuffs like that.) tiningnan ko at pinilit alalahanin lahat ng natatandaan ko sa lugar na ito, pero wala. sayang. pero yung pakiramdam na nandun ka ulit sa lugar ay hindi ko talaga malimutan. di ko rin alam kung bakit ako ganito ka nostalgic sa lugar na ito.

and lastly, mama bought a sushi set. ay hinde. maki set lang pala. the set consisted of:

1. california maki rolls

2.kani maki

3.smaller kani rolls.

yummy.

no_code name: bleh.

Catarman---as told by tintin..With Pictures!

2007-04-12T13:46:00.000+08:00

yey! sa wakas at nakuha ko na ang mga pictures namin galing sa catarman.

as of now, wala na ako sa catarman. ako ay ngayon ay nasa lucena. hehehehehehe. so if any of you guys who wants a glimpse of my samar summer, click on the picture above.

eto pa ang iba:

this feature on tito ayi's camera is really neat.
Jolibee Calbayog branch.
would you believe na ito lang ang jolibee sa buong eastern samar? I even saw a road sign in catarman na this jolibee outlet is "just +70 kms. away?" yikes.

speaking of that infamous jolibee outlet, meron nakitang kakilala si tito ayi ( the guy in the yellow shirt, he's my dad's younger bro by the way), itong kailala nya, e nag-punta lang ng calbayog para lang mag jolibee! nyahaha! kumusta naman yun diba? hehe, e di ang total ng travel mileage nya ay 140+ kms! come to think of it, Lucena City is 137Kms away from manila. 0_0....

this is tito ayi's house, (from left to right): patty, katkat, and Mayi. :D

at the nest restaurant. ito lang ata ang pinaka-fine dining na place dun sa catarman... then, nag brownout pa! amft talaga! wah! >_<

But that didn't stopped me from singing in the videoke! >:D

these little 'lagoons' in the back are super sweet. not that they are only knee-deep but they are also full of cute (not to mention yummy) sea creatures! among them is a sea cucumber! mmm! mmm! yummmy! ^_^

eto? wala lang..haayyy....sarap ng summer..hammock, beach, sand and never ending cool afternoons...^_^'

sa lahat ng hindi nakakakilala sa tatay ko, eto cya. at kung sino man ang makakahula ng kanyang kinakain ay mananalo ng exclusive merchandise galing sa catarman!

nung umuwi kame, medyo nalungkot ako, mainly kasi siguro, ito na ang senyales na malapit na matapos ang bakasyon ko, at haay, back to reality na ako ulit.. well, technically hindi. bumaba pa kasi kami ng sis ko sa lucena. the ferry ride, the bus ride seemed different. baka nagddrama ako nun, kasi wala man lang kaming makain na chichiria puro lang kami biscuit...tapos ampangit pa ng bus. badtrip. no match sa sinakyan namin nung una.tsktsk. pero mas nakapag-enjoy ako sa ferry ride pabalik. their port also had a non-filipino name: Allen Port. who would among these waray-speaking people would make up such a strange-foreign-sounding name for their port? interesting. baka ang dating nakasakop ng catarman ay isang poging kastila na nagngangalang allen! hehe. just a thought.

haayyy. marami pang iba. di pa ako umuuwi ng bahay, for the last 2 weeks to say the least. but I'm not saying na hindi ko na nami-miss ang mga kaibigan ko, excited narin akong pumasok tulad ng iba! sa lahat ng hindi ko narereplayan for the past few days, sorry! wala kasi akong pang-load, at miss na miss ko na kayo! mwah! mwah!

PS:

Kung hindi napansin, ang taba ko na no? hehehe. umangal patay. 0_0

ah, nga pala, birthday nagun ng pinsan kong si bitoy...happy birthday! paka-bait ka na,oh wait, 'mabait' ka na nga pala! hehehe! mwah! ehehehe. :)

Bus No.33

2007-04-02T18:53:00.000+08:00

wahooo!!!! 16hours of travel, 646+Kms, One dead tired tintin.

ayun. nasa samar na ako.

to top it off, I would start at our pre-departure madness, na nagsimula sa terminal ng philtranco. andaming tao, lahat sari-sari. from the bakasyonistas to the plain old prpbinsyanos na nag-tatake advantage sa holy week. it was a stunning view to see, to a first-timer like me.

super late ung bus.

you see, dapat 11am ung alsi namin. ok lng sana kung 11:30 or something like that eh. pero damn! 1:40?! what the---. may kasabay din pala akong taga-mapua, na taga sfacs din, si eddie boy, well, mukha cyang hindi cya kasing excited ko, ayaw nya ata dun eh, liblib raw maxado.

430pm--Lucena city

11:30pm--stop over sa Naga

april 2,2007

2:00 am- Bicol, over looking the mayon volcano

4:00 Matnog, Sorsogon----> dito ako na-excite ng husto, biru mo, nasa dulo na ako ng luzon! weeee!!!

the ride was super, ang bilis lahat, parang 10mins lang , our meals consisted of packed adobo at kanin na biunili sa INANG AMANG resto. (sus, lagi sa resto na to nag sstop over ung philtranco. franchise?), di naman ako masyado nahilo sa zigzag. hehe. sisiw.
the ferry ride lasted for about an hour, ang haba ng pila dun, na para bang may concert ni bamboo. amft. may singitan kasi. amft talaga yung mga sumigit, hindi aasenso sa buhay nila yun. damn! *^%$#@! >_<....at dahuil nga natagalan kami, kami tuloy yung mga nahuli. well, pinaka-huling sumakay sa ferry! grand entrance amft! as in. the other passengers were like ,' amft. we we're watching you'. 0_0

ayus sa ferry. daming tao. mga 4+ na bus kasi ung nandun. we were heading south east. at our left side (or east, is the infamous Pacific Ocean. cool huh) and the west is the seas that bounds up until batangas area. cool. it was about 5am when we boarded the ferry, at malamang lamang nito, aabutan ko ang sunrise. yehey. nagun lng ako makaka-experience nito. yehey ulit. pagkatapos, nung bumaba na kami, mga 30mins lng, nasa catarman na kami.

hindi talaga ako naininip sa byahe, maybe these factors are to be blamed:

excited
may kausap
excited ulit
gutom
hindi nahihilo, kasi excited

after arriving at tito ayi's place, we or i decided to have breakfast first then tulog muna, system restart siguro, I woke up at around 3pm at had my lunch, geez, mula nang mapunta ako dito, lagi na akong extra rice. amft, pag tumagal pa ako dito, 200lbs na ako! -_-''

pumunta kami sa runway. the runway is really cool. plus, talagang nagagamit cya ha! wee! and, the runway is located within the locale, it bisects the residential area and the town proper! which means that if you have to go to the town, you have to literally cross the runway! cool! and at the end of the runway, beach na!!!!! wee!

then, the town itself, is just like another rural town. there isn't much here, walang especialty food, etc. sabi nga ni mama, para lang pagbilao.

pumunta kami sa two caltex stations, both of which is owned by one family, one station belongs to papa's cousin, and the other is owned by papa's uncle. monopoly? nah. :D..punta rin kami kina tito stephen, hehe.

oh, how I wish I could post pics here. hehe..

ps: L's prank on MO was really cool, to L: you almost got me there! XD

16 hours of sleep. argghh

2007-03-31T00:36:00.000+08:00

I woke up at exactly 10am, ate my breakfast, which consisted of 2 large pandesal, and a half-eaten chicken burger. at 11:3o-ish, lunch was served. ang inet parin, pero, sa kabila ng lahat, nagawa ko paring maubos yung 'knorr hot and sour soup'. grabe, adik talaga ako dito. naka-take 2 ako ng rice, and 2 pcs of chicken! yumyum!

pagkakain ko, tinamad ako mag-online. wala lang talaga ako sa mood mag online. kung hindi ownage, wala. bored lang talaga ako. naisipan kong pumunta muna ng kwarto nila mama upang makapag-basa ng magazines ni katkat.

and the next thing I knew that I was in dreamland.

di ko na matandaan kung ano yung napaginipan ko. pero from the moment I woke up, I was panting, and I had this terrible feeling of desperation, I couldn't breathe properly, I struggled to pull myself together, at ayun, ok na. Weird. mga 6pm na ako nagising. wait lang, kung 6pm ako nagising, at 1pm ako natulog, woah. 5 hrs ang siyesta ko! huwaw! oh no! hindi ako makakatulog nito mamaya! wah. musta naman yun.

samar trip countdown: 2 tulog na lang! weeee!

I found this pic on the net. hehehe,asteeg talaga si monique. I find her more cool than janelle. what I really liked about this pic is her hat
really sweet ain't it? hehe. It would really be nice if I had a hat like that on my trip. so summer. so cool. so monique.

Catarman trip countdown : 3 tulog na lang!

2007-03-29T12:30:00.000+08:00

Wee! may ticket na kami! akala ko hindi na matutuloy yung trip na yun kasi na-ospital si katherine two days ago. The tickets cost a thousand each, so malamang hindi basta-bastang bus to. Since first time ng sis ko na pumuntang samar, we were quite excited sa trip namin. we looked in our tickets at napagtanto namin na hala! sa likod kami! naman papa, bakit dun? haaay.

kakauwi ko lang kahapon galing hospital. hay. buong araw din nanaman na syempre, tambay mode ulit. no choice eh. buti nalang, may cable. may myx at mtv. magkatabi pa. perfect. since may cable din kami sa bahay, it really doesn't pose much a difference samin, since myx lang at mtv yung nawala samin. ay, pati nhk at arirang din. na-miss ko to. I should call sky cable for this. >_<>

Itchyworms - LoveTeam ---7 times

Imago - Sundo---7 times

My Chemical Romance - I don't love you--4 times

Gwen Stefani - The Great Escape--3 times

Spongecola - Tuliro--3 times

Avril Lavigne - Girlfriend - 2 times

wah. first time ko nun makita yung sa itchyworms, and by the end of the day, memorized ko na yung kanta! haha! and naging instant favorite ko na rin sya! at pagdating na pagdating ko sa bahay, kinuha ko na agad sila sa bearshare! hehehehe!

hindi naman kami tutok sa tv. nag-drawing din ako, para naman ma-practice tong age-old tradition ko, na unti-unti nang nawawala. I got 6 sketches in total. post ko nalang. do check this out for my last summer's sketch.

kahapon, pag-uwi namin, while in the elevator, tinanong ako nung guy with the scrubs kung ano ko raw si katherine. hindi pa ako nakaka-sagot nung bigla nyang sinabi kung anak ko ba raw cya. WTF! nagdilim ang paningin ko at muntik ko nang masaksak yung guy. napangiti nalang ako, at sinabi na sis ko siya. napangiti rin cya. damn, do I look that old?

Well, it turns out to be na hindi pala tigdas yung sakit ni tren. parang viral infection lang daw. Viral Infection. too technical. medical terms. di ko maintindihan. hehehe. well, that's good to hear.

to no_code_name: you have been on my mind lately, anong meron?! arrghhh. >_<

The attack of the German Measles

2007-03-26T15:05:00.000+08:00

Whew. dahil kaya ito sa init? kahapon, pagka-galing namin sa glorietta, biglang sumama yung pakiramdam ni katherine. weird. sa pagkaka-alala ko, buong araw syang maliksi, malikot at maingay. I am used to it. tama. lagnat lang.

Or so we thought. German measles pala. she is now confined to the nearest hospital, and is now doomed to stay there for quite a while. swerte niya, na nalaman agad yung sakit niya. umuwi rin si mama agad. tsktsk. ..my poor sis.. :(

which brings me back, teka, hindi pa ako nagkakaroon nun ah! waa! amft, baka abutan pa ako ng pasukan nun! weh.

kahapon din, nun lang kami ulit pumunta sa glorietta. hmm, lagi na kasi kami sa MOA eh. bumili lang ako ng a couple of shirts and a short. super ikli pala. weh, pero pang swimming ko lang yun sa beach. bakit nga pala ako bumili? kasi isasama daw kami ni papa sa samar! wee! by bus! well, mahal kasi sa plane..parang nag hong kong na yun. hehe. and ironically, kung sino pa yung hindi nag-bbus, yun pa yung mag-bbus papuntang samar, which in fact, 16hours! wah! (pero na-eexcite ako. ^-^'), however, as stated earlier, Our trip (me, kat & papa) to samar, might be in question ngayon, kasi nga sa sakit ni trentren..

new codes, same layout. dahil, kating-kati na akong baguhion ang lecheng codes ng dati kong layout, nag-install ulit ako ng dreamweaver mx sa desktop ko. hmm, medyo mabagal, pero okie na to say the least, and at least, medyo, tahimik na ako. now using my codes on janet's layout and my past layout's codes, eto na kinalabasan. weird. yung sa link header tags, hindi gumagana. damn it. >_<'

Ironic Zits. >_<

2007-03-25T14:19:00.000+08:00

haaayyyyy. It's been days since nag Blog ako. well, most of the time, online ako, pero, parang nawalan ako bigla ng gana magsulat kung ano man ang nasa isip ko, so maybe, isusulat ko na lang lahat ng nangyari sa akin for the past days na hindi ako naka-pag blog. whew.

sobrang bored ako. amft. tinapos ko na yung princess hours last thursday, and indeed, it was great! grabe, hindi ako nagsisisi dahil, talagang pinilit ko yung sarili ko na disiplinahin ko yung sarili ko na huwag manood nun nung may pasok. kahit na awang-awa na ako sa dvd player at tv namin, I couldn't help but to watch more, and more and more.

kinabukasan, ayun, bored ulit. gusto kong panoorin yung isa pang dvd set na nasa akin. taiwanese title yun, if my memory serves me correctly (waw! iron chef!--^^,) and to my suprise, medyo reluctant ako kung gusto ko itong panoorin. medyo na traumatized kasi ako nung pinanood ko yung princess hours, nabobo ako sa english nila. hell with that.

ginawan ko rin pala si janet ng layout. marami akong drafts, pero hindi ko nakuha yung personality ni janet. it was like making a portrait pala. I tried to look for brush that reminded me of her and other things that would make her layout more 'janet-like'. all I needed was a couple of grunge brushes, personalized fonts and her picture. geez. lahat ng picture nya sa friendster didn't fit on the design I had on my mind. out of 47 pics on friendster, 1 lang nakuha ko. haay. hirap. ironically, nung ginawa ko na yung layout niya, I used my old brushes that were initially installed on my pc dati pa. hehe. pinagod ko lang sarili ko.

next stop, coding. dati dito ako hirap, pero it was easy pala. I downloaded some codes from blogskins as my reference for the tags and div layers, and it was pretty easy pala. ngayon lang ulit nahasa yung html know-how ko since cs fundamentals back in 1st year college. it was refreshing to say the least. with minimum adjustments and with the help of my dreamweaver, i was able to create my first not-my-own skin! pwede ko nang pagkakitaan to! yehey!

do you want to check it out? click me

next, since bored na bored parin ako, try ko namang gawan si ate ina ng skin. heheh, madali lang to, since pinsan ko naman siya, and we've known each other for as long as I can remember. this should be pretty easy. I could make this in one night

ah yes, cbox doesn't function well here. aayusin ko to. wah. >_<

new anime download.

2007-03-22T14:46:00.000+08:00

At dahil wala na talaga akong magawa nagyong bakasyon, no choice na ako kungdi mag-download ng anime. No, I won't be downloading BLEACH or NARUTO or even DEATHNOTE. geez. madali lang makakuha nun, if I wanted to. lahat kasi sila, nagkakandarapa sa anime titles na yun, eh ako, I will stick to my own instinct of choice. surf and download.
Marami na akong napanood na series. mula voltes V hanggang fushigi yuugi, napanood ko na, not to mention some really nice classic genres such as princess sara, cedie, etc,. maganda sila, and that's maybe the reason why kung bakit ako mahilig sa anime. pero, yung degree ng hilig ko eh medyo nabawasan na. I mean, hindi naman sa hindi na ako mahilig sa kanila, but hindi na ako na-cacaptivate ng mga recent series ngayon. wala na kasi akong madaling access sa kanila. or wala, walang dating ang plot. too fantasy ika nga. Internet? not really. hindi ako 24/7 kind of person na download araw-araw. hindi kasi ako otaku. I love the music, pero not all. ever since nawala yung mga anime sa axn, dun na siguro nagsimula yung pag-baba ng hilig ko sa panunuod ng anime. ayoko ko rin ng masyadong mahahaba yung titles. wala na rin kasi akong access sa animax, except pag nasa hotel kami or any bahay na meron skycable gold.

Pero dahil bored talaga ako, naisipan kong mag download ng 1 or 2 titles. first stop:

Welcome to the NHK- whew, title palang, halatang reality anime to. I love this stuff. yung plot nya nag-rerevolve around sa isang tao na hikokomori. isa itong condisyon, wherein socially withdrawn ang isang tao. ito rin ang lumalaking problema ng japan ngayon. bakit ako interesado? siguro mainly the fact na reality anime siya. different plot. recently, 2 episodes palang ako ngayon. goodluck naman saken. hihi.
kiko's journey- well,since, tinatamad pa akong simulan to, naka-isang episode palang ako. amft, 50MB. .rmvb format naman. pero antagal eh.. bakit ako interesado? para kasi siyang gawang studio ghibli. hehe.

hay, so far, ito palang naddownload ko buong araw. thanks to siena. hah....ang inet..parang gusto kong pumunta ng lucena. for a change. tapos na naman ako mag-enroll eh. wala rin naman akong magawa dito. kung baga, parang ako lang ang hindi busy sa mga kaibigan ko. nagsasawa na rin akong mag ownage, same people rin kasi kausap ko. offline naman lahat lagi ng mga kakilala ko. janet? ecah? toni? ji?daniel?hay..kainggit. buti pa kayo, mukhang busy, at sa sobrang busy, hindi nyo na naiisipang mag-online.

OF Starfish'es' and hard wooden beds.

2007-03-20T20:07:00.000+08:00

well, ngayon lang ulit ako naka-pag Blog. hindi ko alam kung bakit ako tinamad kahapon, nasa bahay na kasi ako by 4pm kahapon.

by the way, galing kasi ako sa org outing this last sunday up and until monday. for the weirdest reasons, pinayagan ako ni papa. OO. pinayagan nya ako. hindi rin ako makapaniwala. siguro, pinayagan nya ako for the reason that wala akong bagsak. yessss. wala nga pala akong bagsak.

hehe. as the title implies. starfish. sa calatagan, batangas kami pumunta. armed with 3 vans na jam-packed with chismis and computer-loving jpcs members(and officers too!) and applicants, na-invade namin ang ivory coast resort. whew.

the beach. the sand. palm trees. sun and starfishes.

eto ang mga unang salita na pumasok sa isip ko. minahal ko bigla ang lugar. dinamdamdam ko ang paligid, ngunit biglang nag-iba ang lahat nung nakita ko yung tutulugan namin.

no fan.
no cushions.
no t/b per room.
total chaos.

I understand. hindi kasi ganon ka commercialized yung place, unlike yung 'playa' sa tabi nito. bloody hell, ika-nga, medyo nakakahiya kay mam yumang at kay sir gerry kung dito sila matutulog. we had an all-meat diet, thanks to ej. at kungdi meat, warm water at chicheria ang kinakain namin. para sulit talaga, hiniram ko yung digicam ni ej. perfect. ang buong outing ay documented na.

or so I thought. hindi ko napansin, pero, sa sobrang excited ko sa lugar, the colors, the scenery, napuno ko HALOS yung digicam ng puro picture ko. statistically speaking, that for every 10 pictures taken, nasa 8 yung kuha ko. and, as soon as na makakuha ako ng copy nun, I'll post some of them here. hihi.

mga bndang hapon na nung dumating sina mam yumang at si sir gerry. awts. kahit ako, nahihiya sa pag-iistayan nila. pero wala akong magagawa. ganun talaga. nakakahiya in the sense that kasi, kasama ni mam yung baby niya...hmm..mahirap mag-alaga ng bata sa lugar ng walang matinong ventilation. trust me on this.

marami ang nangyari that night. but I rather not choose to write it down. sa akin nalang yun. pero, all in all, nag enjoy ako. maraming natutunan, maraming nasaksihan.

last week, by saturday ata yun, kinuha ni joanna yung number ko sa bahay. I didn't knew why, pero binigay ko pa rin. maybe for future purposes na baka bigla nya akong kamustahin someday. pero hindi pala.

...3 beses nag-ring yung phone namin. lahat yun para kay tren-tren. hay. dahil ako ang pinaka-malapit sa telepono gawa ng internet na nakakabit sa pc (nag-iinternet ko nun btw), nag-ring na ulet yung phone.

"katherine!!!!! paki-sagot ng phone!"

(tren picks up the phone)

"ate sayo daw."

weird. wala naman akong sinabihan ng phone number ko sa ibang tao, bukod recently by her.
kinabahan ako. I reluctantly picked up the headset and whispered,

'hello?'
'tin.'
'sino po ito?'

sabay tingin kay katkat who also gave me a puzzled look. panic suddenly struck in and I covered the mouthpiece.

"katherine?! sino to?"
"eeewwwwaaaaannnnn!!!!"

bumalik ako sa headset.

'hello?'
'si joanna to. musta na tin?'

my mind went blank, my face grew white, time stopped, and my sweat ran cold. for seven long years, I am now talking to my old best friend, whom taught me things that I should have known long ago, and still continues to be a beautiful part of my post-childhood days.

nag-usap kami. nag-catch up sa maraming bagay. nagkwentuhan, nagtawanan ulit na para ba siyang hindi umalis. too bad, hanggang saturday na lang siya. sinabi ko sa kanya na sana magkita kami, at sumang-ayon naman cya.pero, sa sobra kong excitement, hindi ko hiningi number nila dun sa bahay na pinag-iistayan nila. whew.

hihintay ko ulit tawag niya until kahapon. tinanong ko sina katkat kung tumawag siya ulit. wala.
busy kaya siya? andami ko pang gustong itanong sa kanya. maraming gustong malaman, makita at ikwento. I'll tell finally how I've missed her and tell more things that had happned back in highschool.

maybe I'll send her a message on friendster to check up on her. sana magkita kami ulet.

kasi, hindi na ako nag-eexpect na makita siya ulet.

on the contrary, kaka-enrol ko lang. weird. hindi ako nahirapan mag-enrol. 42 units left. at dahil wala akong bagsak nung last term, ginanahan akong mag-plano ng sked at kukunin for the next two terms, namely 1st and 2nd term of the next school year. though hindi ganun ka-critical lahat, mas maganda talaga kung wala na akong bagsak. ayokong mag-promise sa sarili ko o kahit kanino man na wala na akong bagsak, kasi nung last time na sinabi ko to, nagka-bagsak ako ng six units. wah.

yoko ko na talagang bumagsak...

New skin layout..

2007-03-17T10:00:00.000+08:00

Wah. I totally lack sleep. kasi ba naman, almost 4am na ako natulog kanina. hindi rin ako makatulog kasi, gusto ko talaga ayusin yung coding ng blog. I know I know, nag-rip lang ako ng codes ng iba, but to hell with it, hindi ko naman talaga forte ang codes! hardware pwede pa! geez.

I'm keeping myself busy.

kasi hindi parin ako mapalagay dito. I still have 2 more subjects to go.. mem i/o at data com. speaking of mem i/o, 2 lang pasado ko..sana pumasa na talaga ako. ayokong umasa na papasa ako sa kabila ng lahat ng sinasabi ng iba. kasi, pag-umasa ako, bka masaktan lang ako..

kanina, a really weird thing happened.kinausap ako ni papa. ginising nya talaga ako. as usual, ayoko ko syang kausapin. uutusan lang naman ako nun eh. pero hindi. na mention na yung word na 'outing'. nagising ako, na may halong gulat at pagtataka sa pagbanggit ng salitang hindi naman niya gusto. tinanong ko siya kung bakit at sinabi niya kung sasama ba raw ako. sabi ko,gusto ko syempre, kasi, kasama ako sa nag-plan nun. musta naman. tinanong din nya kung sino kasama, etc. hindi ko na maintindihan yung iba. antok pa talaga kasi ako. umalis na sila. graduation mass kasi ng kapatid ko ngayun. maybe, kakausapin ako il

waiting, wishing,..in vain

2007-03-15T20:05:00.000+08:00

In current load. eto parin yung nakalagay sa aking natitirang subjects for this term. well , except for probstat. read more here

as for today, hindi na talaga ako sanay na mag stay sa bahay, for whatever reason, di ko alam. namanhid yung paa ko, maybe partly sa paglalakad buong araw kahapon. but nonetheless, di ako dapat ganito. dapat hindi ako restless. anyway, ayun, napuno yung araw ko ng pag-iinternet, tulog, which is by the way, nagising na ako ng halos 11:30am kanina! sinimulan ko na rin pala yung princess hours marathon ko..at feeling ko, mahaba-habang panooran to.

nung sinimulan ko, wah. ang tagal ng flow ng story. yung pacing nya, okei naman, pero yung story itself ata talaga yung mabagal..o baka baligtad. ah basta, mabagal talaga. >_<

am boring. mula friendster hanggang sa website ng silent sanctuary , napuntahan ko na. amboring talaga, not to mention yung sobrang init. haaaay

aside from all the dullness ng araw na to, may kaba parin na bumabalot sa dibdib ko: data com, mem io, sna1...still waiting, still wishing.

EE533 3.00 PROBABILITY AND STATISTICS TAKEN

2007-03-14T22:50:00.000+08:00

Sa Wakas.natapos ko na rin ang subject na nagdulot sa akin ng matinding pighati at galit sa sarili. ihalo mo pa rito ang poot at pagkasuklam sa ideya ng pagpapatuloy sa pag-aaral. in short, halos mawalan na ako ng gana sa pag-aaral nung i-take 3 ko itong subject na ito. halos napaluha ako sa nakita ko. taken

anyway, kanina, nag-finals na kami sa mem io.amft , ang hirap. mahirap siya hindi dahil sa hindi ako nag-aral or wala akong ot, pero mahirap kasi matching type at yung ibang tanong ay nag-uulit ng sagot! amft! nakakalito! 50 questions, 64 choices, many repititions. sa friday pa yung verification.

which bring me back to the idea: walang na-exempt. even janet..mababa kaya lahat? kung hindi siya na-exempt, ipagsabihin mababa siya? kung mababa siya? anu kaya ako?!weh. kinabahan ako bigla.

after the finals, we went to divi. sa 168 to be exact.grabe, ang gaganda ng damit, not to mention, medyo mura sila. ang ganda.. from blouses to bags, lahat asteeg. our vision was literally fiiled with hoards of goodies! pero sa kasawiang palad (and maybe my mom's will,) wala kaming pera. pinagod lang namin sarili namin..by the way, I'm with janet, may pera cya (as always) and she ends up buying things that can be shared:

pack of colored pens
6 pairs or earrings
2 meiji choco baby packs

eto, hati na kami, technically, mas malaki yung share ko..3 sticker books. ang kyut kasi as in. nag tataka nga ako sa sarili ko kung bakit ako biglang nakyukyutan sa mga bagay na dati ay walang dating dati. weird. malakas talaga impluwensya sakin nung biik nayun.

hay...as for the food, eto rin kasi ang isa sa mga bagay na hindi ko palalampasin kung pupunta ako ng divi. ang sibot-mixed soups. well, this time, duck soup. hindi ito yung first time kong kumain nito, pero ito kasi yung isa sa mga pinaka-masarap na variety. at hindi ko cya matangihan. masarap parin.

for the record: hindi ko talaga alam kung bakit trip na trip ko yung lasa ng sibot. there's something in it na hindi ko mawari kung sa ko unang natikman. I could vividly recall nung first time (ata) kami kumain ni mama nun, sinabi ko "ah, eto pala yun," without knowing that in fact, first time ko kumain nun. tapos sagot ni mama,

"ha?! alam mo to? kelan ka nakakain nito?"
"ewan. tastes really familiar."
"hay anak nga kita!"

ang weird ni mama nun. inubos ko nalang yung soup. sarap talaga eh.

ewan ko kay janet, hindi nya ata nagutuhan..hay. mga pure-blooded pinoys talaga. tsktsk...

I'll post my favorite soup later, nasa fone ni janet ehhhh.

pagkatapos sa 168, divi mall naman. ambaduyy...kung anung kina-hip ng mga paninda dun sa 168, pang manang naman halos lahat dun sa divi mall. hindi lahat, pero majority, medyo out of the season na. balak pa sana naming pumunta ng tutuban, pero, mukhang malabo na kasi, hapon na. mahirap sa ganung lugar ang abutin ng dilim.

at yun, pag-uwi namin, hinintay lang namin yung kuya ni janet, then umuwi na kami. pag-ka sakay ko ng fx, nakatulog agad ako. whoa. musta. at hanggang ngayon, nararamdaman ko parin yung ngalay sa legs ko. damn, dadagdag naman to sa leg muscles ko. >_<

kill! kill! kill!

2007-03-13T22:21:00.000+08:00

3 kill. ito malamang ang masasabi ng inner tintin. malamang, kakatapos lang ng mem io quiz 4, compiler finals, at data com finals.

weh, ansakit sa ulo. as for mem io, amft, mag-aral man o hindi, masakit parin sa ulo ang mga exam ni mam. ewan. pero may nasagot naman ako, though my minor mali sa identifications tas may kulang akong 4 entries sa enumeration, 4 na kulang out of 10+ na questions. sana umabot sa 123+ ang points ko. kungdi, kill ulet sa finals. yoko na kabahan.

speaking of kaba, naalala ko yung finals ng stat yesterday. shet. nagbago. as in. though not completely, nag-focus nang husto dun sa last topics. alam ko na may pakana neto. si sugay. amft yung dinosaur na yun, andami masyadong alam. >_< e hindi pa naman binabalik ni sir chai yung exams (2,3, at 4). musta naman? sana pumasa na ako. yoko ko na talaga mag stat..yoko yoko yoko.

as for data com, putek. as usual kamote kaming lahat. walang nag review, as far as I know..well maybe for jamar. pero hindi gaano masyado. mukha kasi siyang hindi prepared kanina.-_-' so ayun. ini-expect na namin ang dapat i-expect. wala talaga kaming masagot. kasi yung entries ng exam ay (almost ha,) 80% hindi tinuro ni sir. I mean, hindi naman sa hindi siya nagturo.pero kasi, iba yung topics na tinuro niya. tas lahat, pahapyaw pa. :)

and for compiler. nag dasal ako na sana ma-exempt ako, kasi hindi talaga ako nag-aral dito. at akalain mo nga namang na exempt ako! wah! 63.2% ako! damn! galing! pero guess what, nag-exam parin ako. nalaman ko na lang na hindi na pala ako dapat mag-exam kasi, amft! puro activity sequence! amft! kamote!

haay,dinaga talaga ako dun. naka-aircon man at nakaupo man ako, feeling ko tinakbo ko ulet yung court ng sfacs ng 20 laps. (MOCC daily routine back in my junior year in h.s.) hapong-hapo ako. pawis at hilong hilo.

siguro naman hindi ako babagsak dun. (sa compiler ha, hindi sa finals. pwede ba ako bumagsak dun? e hindi naman bumaba ng 60% yung percent ko ah.) ang alam ko kasi, bababa lang yung grade mo kung sakaling 2.25 ka tas nag exam ka pa, e kung nagkataon na bagsak ka, baka hilahin kapa pababa ng score (finals) mo.hell.

pagkatapos, kumain kami ni janet sa sm. bloody hell, nasuka nanaman ako. damn, umikot na naman yung paningin ko after the meal. super stressed out ata ako nung mga panahong iyon, then nabigla pa ng kain. ulk.

at lastly, pagdating ko kanina sa sakayan ng van, nakita ko si mama! wee! libre pamasahe! wee ulet!

at dahil may natira sa pera, bka ipangbili ko ito ng machang tommorrow! wahehehe!

ps..
happy birthday guilty pleasure. tanda mo na.
to no_code_name: talagang sabay ko pa kau nakita kanina ha! ang galing mo talaga!

Cheers to Janet!

2007-03-11T22:57:00.000+08:00

waw. I'm so happy for you girl! asteeg ka! sabi ko sayo eh, chicken lang sayo yan! hehe, geez, you're definitely lucky to be in a band! hindi kasi lahat ng tao, nabibigyan ng chance na ganyan! wah! good luck! :D

geez, kahit ako, na hindi nag-auditon, sa 'audition' nya, na-excite pa rin ako sa maganda nyang balita. bloody hell, anybody would die to be in a band. even me, na kahit hindi marunong kumanta at tumugtog, hell yeah! gusto ko rin ng mga ganyang bagay! knowing that she made it through, might be enough for me to be utterly happy for her.parang tinupad nya ang isa sa mga hidden dreams ko..(weird, i sound like my mom.0_0)

ako kaya? hehehe. wag na lang. groupie nalang ako siguro ng mga bandmates nyang pogi. at wish ko lang pogi nga. kasi kung hindi, hehe, malas mu janet! hahaha!lol.

finals for tomorrow:
11am- sna 1
3-5pm-probability and statistics.

goodluck naman sakin, kasi naman hindi pa rin ako nag re-review as of this moment.

conscience: bad tintin, tsktsk. -_-'

kanina, pag katapos namin mag simba, edi yun, nasa sasakyan kami, akalain mo ba naman na nag-tatalo na pala sina mama dun? haay. hindi na ako nag-care na makinig sa topic nila, pero, naririning ko yung logic ng argument nila, as well as the statements. hindi tugma. malalim. kasi naman tong si papa, ewan ko ba, hindi niya kaya rumespeto ng opinion ng iba. gusto nya, pag nag comment siya or nag-suggest, yun kagad yung kukunin na idea. nag comment ka pa, edi sana nag utos ka nalang na sundin yung sinasabi mo. kaya ayun, away sila.

ironically.kakasimba lang namin nun.

well yan na muna. break muna ako sa mala-telenovela non-sense na buod ng buhay para sa araw na ito.

ps..hindi nagana yung picasa web albums ko. bakit kaya? hindi parin ba kaya ng pc ko yun? help..

swerte nila.hehe.:)

2007-03-10T00:35:00.000+08:00

http://www.myheritage.com

Malihan Day and the spaghetti finals schedules

2007-03-09T23:31:00.000+08:00

wahhh.. nagkapatong-patong yung mga quizzes at finals ko sa paerhong subject ko kay mam malihan. una nito yung pag-hang ng server sa unix. inaamin ko, oo, masaya ako dahil naudlot malamang ang posibleng pagkabagsak ko dito sa finals ng sna1. paano ba naman, e hindi kasi nakapag-review, dahil sa godamnit na movie ni jean claude van damme sa bus.

di ko alam, pero, nawalan lang talaga ako ng gana mag-aral sa bus. natawa din ako partly kasi may love scene. bwahehe. love scene sa public transpo na bus, tanghaling tapat.

at dahil naka bus ako, ibig sabihin lang nito ay late ako. hindi ko na sinabi kay janet na na-late ako ng gising kasi, nag-pagising ako sa kanya, pero tinulugan ko ulit yung text nya. kaya aun, hehe. late.

naging maayus naman ang the rest of the day ko, until, nag-mem io kami. bloody hell, kung gaano kabilis yung discussion sa amin ni mam nung sunday sa sna1, mas mabilis ngaun. pakshet. at breakneck speed, nagawa nyang ma-explain ang isang bagong topic sa loob ng 45 mins. at pagka tapos pa nun, nagkanda-loko loko na sa sked ng quiz, (kasi naman may finals yung iba. conflict talaga. at kung nagkataon, 3 exams ko sa monday, sna finals, mem io quiz4, at stat finals..kill..kill.kill...)

haayy..at pagdating ko pa ng bahay, ginawa ko pa yung sa data com. naging printing station din pla ako ni janet ngaun. hay. di bale, ok lang. libre naman ako dun mindan eh.^^,

bigayan ng sa stat tom. kinabahan ako bigla...yoko na mag take 4 dun..:(
may natutunan naman ako eh.

as hell week concludes...

2007-03-08T23:27:00.000+08:00

malapit nang matapos ang hell week. pero hindi pa talaga ito tapos. meron pa kasing finals week next week. naker. musta naman. bukas na ang huling araw ko sa mwf subjects ko, at still, pakiramdam ko, parang kahapon lang ay first day of classes.

ngaun din pinasa yung problem set namin sa prob stat kay sir arsenal, haayy...ang haba talaga. nakaka-stress as in, ganito kasi. nag hiwalay na kami ng landas ni alvin para makipag-group kami sa dalawang mag-kahiwalay na group since MIA yung dalawa naming groupmates. (yoko magalit sa kanila dahil hindi sila pumapasok, bagkus, dapat nilang pag sisihan ang mga ginawa nila.) edi yun. nag hiwalay kami. pucha, ang hirap pal. paano ba naman, 95% ng estudyante dun e 2004. wala akong kiala, except for rene. arggh!ang hirap kausapin ng mga batang to, ni contact number ayaw magbigay! amft! p[ahirapan tuloy kanina. sheez.

pero naipasa parin, sana nalang, eh, tama yun lahat at tuluyan na akong makalaya sa sumpa sa akin ng probstat.

pasado na pala ako ng assembly! wee!

so, ang propoblemahin ko nalng ngaun eh yung mem i/o, compiler, stat, at data com..hmm. pati rin ba sna? ai..dapat pala mag aaral na ako. heheheh.

princess of irony 2

2007-03-07T22:23:00.000+08:00

waaah!!!!!!!!!!! grabe. ang aga ko pumasok ngaun dahil akala ko may make-up class kami sa mem i/o. ay sus. nagmadali ako para sa wala. dahil kinansel ni mam malihan ang make-up clas.. musta naman. sa friday na daw. so bale ganito: buong araw kong prof si mam malihan, with only a break of 1hr and 30mins.

march 9,2007, tintin: mam malihan day

10:30-12:00---make-up class mem i/o
12:00-1:30---sna1 finals
1:30-3:00---thank god vacant ko na. woo.
3:00-4:30---mem i/o ulet.

ay sus. tapos kanina,binigay na ni mam yung quiz 3. AMFT! bagsak ako!tipong parang hindi ako nag-aral ah! wah! masyado ata akong naging kampante. naker. hindi na ma-uulet to. malamang. dapat lang. at dahil sa uber ka-shungaan at katangahan ko, this cost me a whopping +123 points para ma exempt. gusto kong ma exempt para naman mag bakasyon akong panatag ang kalooban.

pero lahat ng aking pag-aalinlangan ay biglang napawi nung nag last game kami sa compiler..kamote.ngaun lang talaga ako nahirapan sa compiler na to. pero, ginawa ko pa rin ang lahat ng makakaya ko sa game, kahit na medyo tulala ako sa naging quiz ko sa i/o...pakshet.

marami kaming mali. pero hindi naman kami zero. may partial points malamang. kaya ayun. hindi na ako or kami (my groupmates) na kami yung ma-eexempt. may mga grupo kasi na nakakuha ng tamang sagot. at hindi kami isa sa kanila. too bad, tsktsk.

pero nagbago nanaman yung ihip ng hangin nung nalaman namin na tie kaming lahat! haha! sabi ni mam yumang, na kung may tie, mag generate daw ng random number at kung sino yung makakuha ng pinaka mataas, yun yung panalo. pakshet ulet. mahina swerte ko dyan. pero, pinakita parin sa amin ni mam ang excel file nya kung san nakalagay yung results, at dun nya at kami (the class) napagtanto na..

...panalo pala kami!!! hahahahaha! napangiti ako sa tuwa, at hindi makapaniwala sa sinabi ni mam. wtf!i can't believe it! buti na lang! kamote kc ako sa topic na yun...kung nagkataon, bka bumagsak pa ako sa exam na yun. bloody hell.

actually, napaginipan ko nung monday na mananalo kami. ewan. propehcy ata yun. hehehe. buti na lang totoo.

hay. at hindi pa dun natapos yung araw ko. pag uwi ko, or namin, with jpcs members and applicants, nakita ko c rebel. rebel ni janet. then c guilty pleasure. hindi lang cya. with somebody..ika nag ni chito miranda sa kanta nyang 'sayang', 'ang dibdib ko ay sumikip, at ang paglunok ko ay naipit.' totoo. kita ko kc sa mga mata ni guilty pleasure na gusto nya yung girl..haaay bayaan na nga..dapat ko plang tandaan na eye candy ko lang cya. no more, no less.

then along came kambal. hay janet, ang aga mo kasi umuwi. ayan..tsktsk.archi ata yun, kasi napatingin talaga ako sa dala nya..an galing magdrwong amft! heheheheh. bagay!heheheheh.nagmamadali cya. at sa sobra nyang pag mamadali, dun talaga cya lumabas sa entrance. amft yun.

lakad. pa. as usual, c no_code name naman. konti pa, uy! c meant to be!!! haha! tsktsk. sayang janet, sayang. dahil hindi ako sanay hindi mag react, nahirapan akong itago ang mga violent reactions ko sa harap ng mga taong hindi kilala ang mga naka code name na taong nabanggit ko. amft. dapat talaga kasama ko c janet kanina. bka ma-obvious ako. pero feeling ko naman hinde. ika nga ni no_code_name, 'best actress ako'.yihee.

waw. nadali nga pla ng ms32dll.dll.vbs yung pc ko..at hanggang ngaun, habang nagsusulat ako dito, nag ii-scan parin ako..huhuhuhuhuh. sna mattangal nato.

may dalawang paraan actually.

-yung spyware doctor( hindi kasi ma detect ng spybot yun,
-etong mano-mano

since thursday na..groupmates ko sa stat, asan na kayo?:(

Princess of Irony

2007-03-05T23:13:00.000+08:00

majority of this term, mam malihan played a big part in my life. malamang, 2 sa major subjects ko , namely unix at memory input/output e siya ang prof ko. bloody hell ika nga nila. pero marami talaga akong natutunan sa kanya sa kabila ng mga batikos at haka-hakang mali-mali yung mga tinuturo nya. hindi naman siya perpekto katulad natin.

at ayun na nga. binigay na niya ang mga tamang sagot sa aming nakaraang pagsusulit. masakit mang isipin, na kung kung kelan hindi cya yung nagbantay sa exam e dun naman ako ata marami, as in, napakaraming mali. bloody hell! para tuloy mas gusto ko na lang na cya yung magbantay, baka madali yung exam, at may chance pa akong pumasa sa subject nyang hirap na hirap cyang ipaintindi sa amin. kailangan ko pa naman ng 97+ points para pumasa..amft. sana pumasa ako dito.haaaayyyyy...not to mention, na talagang mahirap na yung natitirang topics, at dahil sobrang konti na ng raw na nalalabi sa term na ito, wala na akong gustong ipagdasal kungdi na sana eh ipa take-home nalng yung last exam.(asa naman ako.)

tama. ako nga ang princesa ng irony. kung nagkandaloka-loka ako sa mem i/o at sa sermon ni mam kanina, napawi naman iyon nang nalaman ko na 136/150 ako sa quiz 1b sa compiler lec! rawr! subalit hindi pa ko dapat dito magsaya. marami pa akong dapat gawin, isipin at isa-alang ala.

ay sus.oo nga pala. itong mp4 player ni mitch e meron virus! amft! putcha! mula registry cleaner hanggang sa latest update ng spybot at avast ko, amft! wala talaga! buti nalang, naalala ko na meron similar case dun sa mapuaownage. kaya ayun. sana effective. well, mukha naman. hehehe, at habang inantay ko ang pagtapos ng spybot scan, ginagawa ko na yung sa stat.finally.

for the record: nanuod nga pla ako ng princess hours. weird.

Hell Week: Launched

2007-03-04T23:09:00.000+08:00

heto na ulit ang 10th week. also known as the HELL WEEK, karaniwan na ang tanawin ng mga nag-mamadali, dead lock, at walang tulog na estudyante.

ako? hindi gaano, except for the fact na puyat nga ako for the reason that halos magdamag na akong online.chat, blog,blog skins, ownage. ewan ko ba, dapat nga hindi ko na ito gnagawa eh. dapat nag-aaral na ako sa sna1 ko or ginagawan ko na ng sagot yung sa problem set ko sa stat.

tsktsk.bad tintin. walang disciplina.

ito ang sinasabi ng konsenya ko. sinabi rin nya na balang araw pagsisisihan ko ang pag suway sa mga payo at utos nya. malamang, hindi ko cya konsyensya ng walang rason. para hindi ko maklimutan, dito ko na napagpasyahan na isulat ang iskedyul ko para sa linggong ito.

monday 12:00pm-1:30pm--quiz 4 systems and network and administration1 (yoko ko na nito, kapagod mag memorize ng commands)
1:30 pm-3:00pm--vacant/lunch review ng compiler lec for game.
3:00 pm-4:30pm--may nalagyan kasi ng asterisk sa isa samin sa klase. baka gisahin kami ni mam malihan..+_+ read full story here.
4:30 pm-6:00pm--compiler game. heto na rin pla yung last game. nawa'y ma exempt kami... nang magkaroon ng konting liwanag ang mga pangarap ko..huhu. +_+
tuesday 12:00pm-1:30pm--assembly finals! waah! 40 pts badly needed!
1:30pm-3:00pm--vacant. malamang review mode ulit ako sa stat.
3:00pm-4:30pm--PROBABILITY AND STATISTICS.sa wakas, exam na. pakshet, bakit pa kasi hindi natuloy last saturday, kaya ayan patong-patong na clang lahat! grr!
4:30pm-6:00pm--data com. anu kaya gagawin dito? sana naman mag pa take-home si sir...ng quiz.(0_0 to reader: ano iniinsip mo?)
wednesday 12:00pm-1:30pm--practical exam. bali-balita ko nga eh, wala daw makakasagot nun. tough luck tintin.
1:30pm-3:00pm--review/lunch para sa last exam ng compiler lec. nawa'y wag sana akong mag petiks mode.
3:00pm-4:30pm-memory I/O..discussion b?
4:30pm-6:00pm-compiler lec 5th quiz. ay teka, naisoli nb ung ibang quizzes? T_T
thursday. ***---may gagawin pa ba dito? ano kaya? baka nalilimutan ko lang..T_T
friday 12:00pm-1:30pm--finals ng sna1
1:30pm-3:00pm--quiet mode?
3:00pm-4:30pm-memory I/O..exam?
4:30pm-6:00pm-finals?

saturday 12:00pm-1:30pm--no more assembly!
1:30pm-3:00pm--quiet mode?
3:00pm-4:30pm-more stat? pasahan ng prob set?
4:30pm-6:00pm-data com? exam?

so far. eto plang..bale, ganito sana balak ko eh. mag penitencya..WALA MUNANG INTERNET. kayanin ko kaya? pwede rin eto.UMUWI NG MAAGA.dahil for crying out loud, sobrang tablado na talaga yung konsensya ko sakin. kung pumapatay lang ang konsenya, malamang wala na ako dito.

anyway, so much naman sa lahat ng ito, na mukhang napahaba..hehehe.:)

The Fall of the Giant

2007-03-02T22:50:00.000+08:00

noong nakaraang wednesday ay nasaksihan ko ang isa sa mga highlights ng term na ito. Mortera. tumatak sa isip ko ang pangalang iyon nang malaman ko ang kinahinatnan nya. Kung tutuusin, sayang. hindi ba niya naisip na pwedeng mag back fire yun lahat sa kanya? hindi ba niya nagawang makita kung ano ang pwedeng mangayari kung sakali silang manlaban?

at ayun na nga. Lumaban na rin ang mga ME. kung nakita lang niya ng mas maaga at nakapag isip pa cya ng mabuti, edi sana hindi nangyari sa kanya ang bagay na kinatatakutan ng mga katulad niya.

pero datapwat,subalit, ngunit. sapat na iyon. magsilbing aral sana ito sa kanya at sa ibang pang mag-aaral sa lahat ng estudyante sa lahat ng institusyon.

nag-exam nga pala ako sa mem I/O kanina..hay..ok naman, pero may mali ata ako. wish ko lang, above 97 ako..kungdi, yari. sinabayan pa ito ng matinding antok na dulot ng mefenamic acid....hay..

Petiks mode

2007-03-01T02:06:00.000+08:00

Ito ang mga katagang narinig ko kay siena habang tinutukoy nya ang magagaling nyang groupmates. nagmula ito sa salitang kalye na pa petiks-petiks o pa simple simple lang. walang pressure ika nga.

Ito rin ang mga katagang tumatak sa isip ko habang pinagmasdan ko ang performance ko ngayung term, na sa kabila nang 2 bagsak nung nakaraan, e nagawa ko pa maging "petiks mode"..hehehe. baka karmahin ako. petiks mode in a way na baka siguro, hindi ako ganun ka busy. hehehe.wala aksi akong laboratory ngaung term. walang design, prototype o kung anu mang proyekto na nalalabing matapos. hay at malamang dahil dito, puro ako desisgn at prototype next term. speaking of next term, wah. controls, software lec,compiler lab,methods,feasib, eco acc...hay. yari. gudbye tambay kami cguro ni janet nito.

ngunit, datapwat, subalit, masaya ako ngaun araw nato..dahil,
nakita ko na ang calculator ko! hahahaha! ay sus ginoo, nakay toni lang pala, hindi nagsasalita yung lokang yun. pakshet, mamamatay na ako't lahat, wala lang para sa kanya. pero anyways, okie na yun...

hay,kelangan ko na nga palang mag-aral sa assembly, at data com...weee.

bakit kaya amoy bus yung isang office ng city hall?

2007-02-28T01:14:00.000+08:00

hay. since dumadaan ako sa city hall araw araw, madalas nagagawi ako sa isang opisina malapit sa elevator. naka-aircon ito. ngunit sa hindi malamang kadahilalan, e amoy air freshener ito! bakit? ewan. hindi lang basta bastang air freshener, yung tipo pa na sinasabit sa unahan ng bus, na hugis christmas tree at malamang kulay pula. ambaho..

lost calculator update:
wala... I'm losing hope na. bibili na ba ako ng bago? ayoko...hindi ko kayang tanggapin nang ganun lang ang pagkawala nya. hindi biro ang pinagsamahan namin..I miss you so much, calculator ko...I feel so incomplete without you..(sings incomplete by sisqo)

waw. for the first time, nag enjoy ako sa assembly lec namin..panu b naman, may recitation..ang saya. parang elementary first elimination quiz bee..heheheh. to sir arsenal, sir, andami naman neto, 47 problems...hayy...

calculator ko. :(

2007-02-26T22:25:00.000+08:00

asan na kaya calculator ko? waaaahh..kung sino man ang nakakita o nakhiram, please, paki-soli na.... magkakasakit ata ako kung hindi ko siya makita within this week, pag nag exam ako sa stat at memory I/O wala akong gagamitin...huhuhu...asan ka na, calculator ko?

THURSDAY..nagamit ko pa cya nun, gamit namin siya ni rene sa stat namin..pagkatapos ng klase ay agad ko ulit siyang ibinalik sa bag.

sige, try ko ulit alalahanin...
FRIDAY..nagamit ko ulit siya para sa seatwork sa memory I/O, wala namang humiram, kaya ibinalik ko rin agad sa bag, at hindi ko na ulit inalis.

SATURDAY..napansin kong wala siya sa bag ko. inisip ko lang na baka naiwan ko lang sa bahay. pagdating ko, agad ko cyang hinanap, pero, wala....

SUNDAY..hinanap ko ulit siya sabay panalangin na mahanap ko agad dahil 9th week na..wala, wala talaga.

MONDAY..natakot na ako. dahil sa mga nagdaang araw ay busy ako, baka hindi ko napansin na baka naiwan ko yun sa classroom nung thursday or friday. worst case scenario: NAIWAN KO NGA! oh no! hindi ako makakapayag, mahigit na kaming 4 na taong magkasama..huhu. ang bigat ng loob ko, sinamahan pa ito ng isang nakakapagod na exam sa compiler lec. waaah..I'm starting to cry..I can't take this..asan ka na calcu?

hay my mapua, kelan ka ba magbabago?
at hay janet paed, bakit wala akong major subjects for next term?daya. yoko pa mag elemag..-_-'

Self study. Hay.

2007-02-26T00:46:00.000+08:00

dahil adik na adik ako sa pag design ng blog, (layout, ..,etc), at dahil sawa na akong mag download ng skin ng iba, naisipan kong gumawa ng sarili kong blogger skin..

hindi pala madali..

sinimulan ko un sa pag gawa ng layout. first stop, photoshop 7 ni janet..hay, pumuti ang buhok ko kaka-kapa sa lumang photoshop na to. pilit hinahanap ng isip ko ang cs2 pero wala. simpleng brush lang, hindi kinaya ng photoshop 7..kapa ever talaga. sumuko na ako. sabay plano ulit sa panibagong layout using cs2 sa laptop ni papa. at ayun, as of 3pm i have my first layout. sakin, at hindi kay janet. pero, gagawan ko rin cya, pag natapos ko na, para madali mag coding. hehehe

parang na-torture ko yung sarili ko nung nalaman kong hindi pala sa dreamweaver parati nag ccode ng blogger layouts...may blogger tags, yung may <.d.i.v. >, hayy..ewan. buti nalng, may nakita akong site na nagtuturo (ng malinaw) kung pano mag code ng blogger layouts. unti unti ko itong pinagtiyagaan, dahil malamang kung gusto ko talaga, e eto lang ung choice ko. at hanggang ngayon, eto, coding parin ako...

New shirts!

2007-02-25T00:05:00.000+08:00

ahahahahahahah! matapos ang hindi mabilan na araw na paghihintay sa bagong damit ant sandals, eto na! ibinili na ako ng nanay ko ng bago! I was so happy na parang nalimutan ko lahat ng problema at pagod ko for that term.eheheh.

here's the deal, so I got these

a 500+ shirt from plains and prints
another shirt from plains and prints (wee!)
a new pair of sandals (guess I have to make way for these and give my sneakers a deserving break)
a yummy dinner!

eto na siguro ang naging buhay ko kung sakaling ako lang ang anak ng nanay ko, well, kaagaw ko parin dad ko, papatalo ba yun sa kamukha nya?!heheh, pero, since minsan lang naman mangyari ito, kaya siguro, wala na rin mai-rekalamo si mama. hehehe.

pero dumilim lahat ng sinabi sakin ni mama na kung hindi gaganapin sa lucena ang outing, hindi ako makakasama sa outing ng org..nalungkot ako bigla. at ayun, matagumpay na nanaman na nasira ng tatay ko ang gabi ko. haayy.

when will you ever change dad?
If you could only believe in me.
If you could only knew how to listen.
If you could just be a understanding dad we wanted you to be.
It isn't that hard, believe me.
but then, you don't really believe me don't you?
You don't really believe that I still believe in you. Believe that someday, all of this hatred wouldn't happen.

SoundReview: Silent Sanctuary

2007-02-23T22:23:00.000+08:00

tonight on sound review.

waw. parang primetime to ah. hehehe. gusto ko lang. hinde naman siguro ito masama. anyway, bago lang ata tong silent sanctuary. First time ko silang narinig sa radyo, e nasa bus ako nun. medyo nagualt ako dahil akala ako, another new local band lang ito. kasi naman, yung radyo station na yun eh kilala sa pagapapatugtog ng medyo maka-'masa' sa trip. hehe. so ayun na nga. my attention was drawn for some reason. yep. the violin. oo, meron ngang ibang bands na merong ganyan, pero, hindi talaga naka-incorporate sa kanila yung 'classical ambience' na dala ng instrumentong ito.

and indeed i was so drawn into them muntik ko nang malimutang bumaba ng bus at lumampas sa nararapat kong babaan.haha. since noon ko lang cla narining, nalimutan ko cla ulet, until..

..pagkalipas ng ilang araw, isang kaibigan ang nagpakilala sakin ng bandang ito. whew. nakaka-intriga. hindi ko pa alam na sila yung kumanta nun.nag try akong i-download ito to see it for myself, since bentang-benta yung kaibigan ko sa kanta nila.

at akalain mo nga naman na sila pala yun! well, here's the verdict. the sound is really okay, not to mention the sheer uniqueness of their sound. their style is not even compatible yet to be compared by the hottest bands of today, for the reason that they have this 'raw' style of delivering straight-to-the-point lyrics without being drowned into verbose cliches. another add factor to this group is the 'rockestra' ambience.

sheez.

2007-02-21T23:05:00.000+08:00

hmmm. Sa tinagal tagal ko nang umuuwi ng medyo late, nagtaka ako kung bakit ngaun lang napansin nina mama na ginagabi ako this past few days. well, mismo ako, hindi ko rin alam. basta alam ko, inaabot ako ng gutom at exactly 6pm at mahirap talaga ma stuck sa traffic sa ganung oras pag gutom ka. at ayun na nga, sinita nila ako. lumayo muna ako sa pc ko for the mean time para to cool things down, kasi alam ko, malamang, madadamay pati paggamit ko nito. after an hour or two, bumalik ako sa pc at nagsimulang i-download ang mga lectures ni sir villamor, nang biglang lumpit sakin si mama at nagtanong kung may boypren na daw ako.

haha. edi sinabi ko wala.yun naman yung totoo eh.

then tinanong naman nya kung may manliligaw daw ako.

ayun, sinabi ko wala ulet. wala naman talaga.

nagsimula na cyang magtaka. bakit nga naman ako late umuwi? sabi ko, wala. mas marami kasi akong kasabay at certain times at gusto ko talagang kumain. maari ko namang sabihin na, 'hehe.boypren? pagkain eh.' syempre, praning na ako nun kapag umamin akong tumatambay ako sa walls for the past week (na ngayon ay hinde na pwede.) at siguro ito na rin yung sign na dapat mag pa-good shot na ulit ako. eheheheheheh.

ay sus. oonga pala. umatend ako ng mass for ash wednesday..with janet and toni. waw..first time ko ito, sa tinagal tagal ko mapua, ngaun lang ako naka tungtong dito sa chapel ng skul.heheh. sweet. ok na sana ang lahat ng biglang nag lecture ung pari ng terms and definitons ng lenten season ng taon. aba kung nasa classroom kami, baka nakapag take-down notes nako. grabe. parang nag-google siya sa mga sasabihin nya. kala ko sermon na medyo adjusted for college studs ang sermon nya. lecture din pala. wala lang para ka ulit umatend ng klaseng 6pm-730.hehehe. just a thought. :)

ps:mam villaflor.ipasa nyo na ako, bago ka umalis. :|

Choked*

2007-02-20T23:22:00.000+08:00

yummy pansit lucban..hehehehe. dahil galing ako ng lucena this weekend, na-isipan kong magdala ng pansit lucban as for lunch. xiempre as always, nagdala ako ng extraserving for Janet.who knows, baka masarapan cya. at ayun nga. mukhang nagustuhan nya..malamang habang nagrereview kasi ako, panay ang kain nya ng lunch namin.. hehehe, ok lang naman, no harm done.

speaking sa review...arrgh,kamote ulit..pero, hindi ako nagulat nang binigay ni mam yung exact quiz nya from last term. ang hirap parin..pero mas kamote ako last term. habang ang eexam, since drained-out na ako, nag-promise na lang ako sa sarili ko na super babawi talaga ako sa last exam. ngayon ko rin lang din nalaman na aalis na si mam villaflor. hindi ko maintindihan kung ano dapat ung maramdaman ko. tuwa? dahila ba aalis na cya? kaba? dahil baka ung pumalit sa kanya ay terror? wah. kasi if ever na aalis na nga cya, sana naman ipasa na nya ako, kasi naman baka yung papalit sa kanya ay ibagsak pa ako. wah.@_@

kanina rin, pagdaan ko sa JPCS table, dumating yung 15 boxes ng pizza na pang-blowout ni budz!(belated happy birthday ulet!) waw! a5 boxes! at hindi lang yun! meron pang mahigit sa sampung cans of coke! waw! pwede na yun actually, for a super big and takaw jpcs members and applicants, including janet,ngayon lang napuno ang table namin ng ganito karaming pizza! waw! ( as for the other organizations: asa! inggit kayo?!)

to no_code_name:
Seeing you makes me realize that we could be no more than friends. though it breaks my heart into a thousand pieces, why do I still find it hard to accept the fact that amidst it all, you were not meant for me? I wanted to let myself go, free from the hurt I have kept inside, i wanted to move on, free from everything that reminds me of you.

coz' I know that from the very start, missing you terribly was wrong.
PS: bakit ngaun ko lang nalaman na bawal pa lang tumambay sa wall ng 6pm onwards? duh. di bale, bukas nalang ulet. >_<

Of Booze and V-days

2007-02-16T01:49:00.001+08:00

noong valentines, I decided to start the day unusual. unusual in a sense na I would like to make it feel that this day would be special. pero, ayun na nga, as always, na late nanaman ako ng gising.

I wore black that day. kahit ba nasuot ko na last week ang damit na to, medyo napag-usapan na kc namin ni janet mag black..hindi rin kc ako sure nun. trip ko lang in a way. this v-day preceeded like any other day..but amft! soobrang baba ko naman ata sa SNA1?! mam, ang daya nyu naman, sabi nyu module 4-6 lang..bkit may mod7 sa exam?! T_T...and since 90% ata sa amin ang bumagsak, naisip nalang namin na bigyan ng cake si mam, para naman medyo , lumambot yung heart nya sa inabot namin..and so it goes. nakahiram pala ako ng DS ngaun..hehehe..na miss-ko to..(asa ka naman xy, hindi ko ito ipapahiram sau!!!!0_0..)

ang sumunod na kagilagilalas na eksena sa buhay ko noong araw na yun, e yung EB ng MO..ok naman, except yung pakshet kong konsyensya na nagpupumilit umuwi. (kj kc.amp,)

ayoko sanang uminom. pramis ko yun sa sarili ko (which has the rule: bawala uminom kapag may pasok..bakasyon lang pwede at malayo kay papa) at sa dad ko. usapang mag-ama un, kya cguro hindi ako mapatawd ng sarili kong konsyensya at sikmura..nagpatuloy ang inuman..sa kabilang dako, nilimitahan ko ang sarili ko sa pag-inom nang sa gayon ay mapanitili kong buhay ang diwa ko, at hindi tuluyang maktulog sa balikat ng katabi ko..

matapos ang hindi mabilang na tawanan, fish crackers at tagayan, na pansin ko na lang na iba na ang tawa ko.mabigat.heavy....napansin ko na lang nung sumonod na papunta na pala ako ng cr kasama c janet,hydevine at ivankirk..umiba ang pakiramdam ko. bumigat. wah.oh no. may tama na ako. nangyari na ang pinaka kinatatakutan ko..

pinilit kong gisingin ang sarili ko upang makaiwas sa lubos na kahihiyan. umupo, tumawa at nagpanggap na sober parin ako, nung bumalik kami sa kina-uupuan namin,. wah.kelangan ko nang umuwi. ngunit, hindi pa pala pwede.ayaw pa ni janet. lintis yun.may tama na rin kc, wala pa kasing sasabay sa kanyang umuwi..at mukhang nag-eenjoy na. haha. natalo ako nito ngaun...hay.ako ata ang weak samen. cge, kaya ko pa. sa kabila ng pag-ikot ng paningin namin ni janet, pinilit parin namin na makapag panggap na sober at naisip ring kumanta sa videoke.nice. kung kelan kakanta na kami, tsaka naisipan na lumipat. amft.

nikko's. beer house ata to.head count? wla.ang initially na konting tao sa bG ay na ngonti pa lalo..ayus. mas maganda. mukhang nag-eenjoy na itong c janet, kaya hinayaan ko lang. nagawa pa nilang mag duet ni trip..hindi na ako aasang may walang mag rereact sa potential chismax na to.haha. bahala na cla dyan, basta ako, naliliyo parin.

ang sunod kong problema nun ay ang pagtatago ng hiningang-chico. mahirap ito. ngunit, dahil malamang sa mainding dasalan, eh ayus! wla pa c papa! whahahahaha!

at doon natapos ang kwento ng munting gabi ko ng v-day with colt45.

Happy Birthday Ma.

2007-02-06T00:50:00.000+08:00

happy birthday ma..I'm sorry if I'm not the daughter you expected..alam ko un dahil, I could see it in your eyes. I know that you love us unconditionally. You endlessly gave us all that we want and need, but in return, all I could give back are failures. I'm too ashamed to be your daughter ma, ashamed for the reason that I'm not worthy to be yours. you deserve a daughter that could anybody could be proud of, a responsible and a perfect one. but still despite of it all, I love you mom, for always giving me a chance to prove it all, for making me believe into myself that I could still do it, for still believing and hoping that someday I would live the life that i wanted.. Happy birthday ma.

syntactically speaking

2007-02-01T23:41:00.000+08:00

eto ang mga huling salita na narinig ko ky mm villaflor bago mag 1st bell. hindi ko inaakala ng pwede pala gawing adverb ang mga words na inaakala ko ay mga COE lang ang nakaka intindi. ngunit hindi. mismo COE students, hindi maintindihan ang adverb transformation ni mam. in fairness, mas nakikinnig na ako sa kanya di tulad ng dati, na sa bawat 20,000 words nya, 10 words lng nasasagap ko. baaaadd tintin. and my efforts have paid. so far, nakka-formulte ako ng questions regarding sa topics nya..which means medyo nakaka-ride ako sa subject at magulong discussion nya.

to ************************
I couldn't help but to lay my eyes on you.but as you move closer, I could feel myself floating away from you. i struggled to breathe as i fix my gaze, to flash a toothy grin on my face.

dahil puyat na puyat ako kagabi, nakatulog ako ng bandang 230 am...whew. swerte nlang at nagising ulet ako sa text ni janet. kungdi yari...huhu. pramis ko sa sarili ko na matutulog na me ng maaga, pero ano ako ngaun? hay. another broken resolution...

wak..hindi p pla ako nagdi-dinner.musta namn,susuka n namn ako ulit nito mmya.:|

may net n kami!!!!!!!!

2007-02-01T00:07:00.000+08:00

weeee. sa wakas. may internet na kami. matagal ding hindi nakaram dam ang kompyuter ko ng outside world..hehehehe. i sucessfully updated all updates that i should've have, at sa wakas, makk pag net na ako ng walang humapay! wla na akong excuse sa ibang tao ('wla kming net eh. sa flash drive nalang')

at heto pa! i've got new friends. just last week, naka attend kami ni janet ng 2 EBs! hehehe. hindi nman cnasadya, pero aun, kilala na nmanin cla! at heto pa, kasama dun ang isang cuite! itatago ko nlang sa pangalang boytoy. eh etong c janet, saksakan talaga ng shunga, babytoy ung tawag! (hahahahahaha!) btw, meron p pla cyang isang boytoy. sa kanya na un. yoko dun eh.

as for this week, hmm. anlamig. as in. parang pasko nga eh. masaya ako, dahil, padao ako ng 2nd quiz sa sna1 wee! partida, konting rebyu lang un! hehehehe....sana mag tuloytuloy na 2...yoko na talagang bumagsak,(sniff.)

the end of the hiatus

2007-01-26T23:41:00.000+08:00

hayy... akala ko hindi n ulit ako makakapag-post dito. na miss ko to. hehehe. nwei, to start things off (again), mag bblog na ulit ako. baket? wla lang. marami lang cguro akong gustong sabihin sa sarili ko na dapat ko mismo mabasa sa harapan ko, or plain bored talaga ako sa buhay ko. hay, new year new beginnings.

since gusto ko nang gawin an lahat ng bagay nna hindi ko nagawa last term, cnimulan ko ito sa pag wall climb nung foundation day sa skul. xiempre, alam ko na itatayo nila ulit yun, dahil, hehe, naka0akyat na ako dun once pero sa kasamaang palad, hindi ko naabot. :(.....at simula noong araw na yon, hindi naalis sa isip ko ang mapait kong kong karanasang iyon.

day 1:
wala pang wall climbing facilities. nag ikot lang kami ni janet sa school. ewan ko, may mga poging drummers naman dun sa battle of the bands, pero mas nag enjoy parin ako sa fireworks display...hehe, i guess magkaiba talaga kami ng taste. wahehehe. speaking of the battle of the bands, hay, ok lang, sa lahat ng nag perform sa stage na taga mms, pinaka gusto ko ung last na nag perform.hehehe. as for the contestants. boohoo, pero,sayang eh, kung sana nag prepare kyo ng mas crowd-appealing performaces, edi sana mas nakakuha kyo ng mas malaking audience. peace out.
day 2:
nag-absent si janet. well, pagkakataon ko na tong makapag-lingkod sa pinaka-mamahal kong org, ang jpcs. for the past days kasi, hindi na ako mxado nkktambay dito dahil busy kami ni janet na mag 'boy-hunt' sa school, kumain, mag kwentuhan, mag suntukan, at mag-asaran. but, heyhey, gawa na ung wall climb! weee! dali-dali kaming umakyat ni kitten! pero teka, bakit naman kung kelan ako aakyat, tsaka ddating cna dino at zander?! naker! at dumadagdag pa ang lahat ng kakilala ko!nakakahiya! medyo kinabahan ako nung una. bigla ko kacng naalala ung experience ko dati last year, nakakahiya, nakakapanliit. ayoko na maulit un..so, I gave my best shot sa pag-akyat, kahit mahirap, dahil baguhan ako, pero, imbis na tumingin sa baba, inisip ko nalang ang mag-enjoy at huminga ng malalim ( i was so out of breath!!) but then, little did i knew, nasa taas na pla ako. hindi na ako tumingin sa baba. kaagad kong tiningnan ang view sa taas. it was exhilirating. matapos ang konting sandali, rappell naman. what the?! ano un?! mas kinabahan ako dito dahil sobrang baguhan lang ako dito....pero, voila! ang sarap lng pala nun eh, medyo nakakaba sa cmula, but heheh! mas okie pa un kesa sa pag akyat! whahahaha.

for the rest of the foundation days, umakyat pa ulit ako. sa totoo lang, medyo na lift ang deteriorating self-confidence ko. it made me believe to myself again, amidst all the hardships and trials that i went into and this experience gave me a whole new reason to move on, be stronger.

wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

2006-05-08T21:39:00.000+08:00

the return.. the return!!!!!!!!!!!]

weee. that was blast. summer has come and go but still i didn't post any thing on this damned blog. why? i aint busy. no still love my blog...but, wala kaming internet. that's the reason. I maybe eager to thiungs that sparkle to my interest, but who cares anyway?

I've been to the beach and all that.

I've been to lucena and all that..

And classes has started..and all that jazz.

things kinda looked repetitive to me recnetly.

so bye bye..

lindol!

2006-03-02T22:48:00.000+08:00

march 1,2006 7:15pm,jolibee kalaw:

kumakain kami ni mama nun nang biglang umulan.
i feel blessed kasi, pagkababa ko nung jeep, tsaka umulan, e galing akong skul. buti nlang hindi ako naulanan..phew! pagagalitan kc ako ni mama.

and since kasama ko sya, at nalaman nrin nyang wla akong payong, heheh. napagalitan tuloy ako. hehehehe.

at kaya naman ako nsa skul ng ganung oras e gumawa kami, este, sila *cough* *cough* ng prototype. then, nang biglang, yumanig ang kalupaan, at biglaang kong naramdaman ang dahanng-dahang pag suway ng sahig na tila tubig ang galaw.

natakot ako. pero madali ring nawala. siguro dahil, alam ko yung gagawin ko sa mga ganung oras. kung may bumagsak na building of course. hehe.

humigit kumulang 3 minuto tumagal ang mabagal na yanig. nakakahilo ito sanhi ng pagpigil marahil ng ating katawan na marahan na paggalaw ng lupa. hmm.

akala namin, ay doon na nagtatapos ang gabi..karaniwang tanawin na sa aguinaldo highway ang pag-daan ng mga trailer trucks sa gabi, o araw. ngunit sa pagkakataong iyon, pagkalampas ng truck sa amin ay bigla akong may narinig na malakas na pagsabog na tila isang bomba! hinanap namin ni mama ang pinangalingan, at kami ay nagulat sa aming nakita. pumutok ang gulong ng trailer truck.. kung nagkataon na pumutok sa harapan namin ang gulong na iyon, e malamang, di ko na alam ang nangyari sa amin.
...sounds like final destination...

yeppee! march na!yepeee!

ps. sabi ni xyrelle, meron daw mangyayari..13 days after leyte landslide..wla naman e..buti nlang..:)

amazing race philippines: binondo, team 1,234,987: siena and tintin

2006-02-19T00:33:00.000+08:00

inakala ko na ang buong saturday ko ay magiging isang normal na saturday lng. hmm. parang hinde. may test sa numericals, at economics. luckily may nasagot ako sa parehong exam, pero hinde tlaga me sigurado sa dalawang yun. heheheh.

tapos, since maagang natapos yung eco ko, edi, wla pa cna jel nun at kelangan kong maghanap ng matambayan pansamantala habang wla pa cla..sina roel,jayjay,mark conde,siena and others ang nahandun. normal day nga.

then, nagyaya si siena sa,..chiang kai shiek. una di ko alam na gus2 nya plang pumunta roon.malay ko bah, duh! tinanong nya ko kung may klase ako, sabi ko 3pm pa. napangiti cya na para bang hulog ako ng langit sa kanya. ^_^'

hmm.nakakaramdam ako ng adventure. sabi ko sige, basta ba lilibre nya ako. and since di pa naman 1330, maaga pa.heheheh.edi yun, sumama ako...adventure to!

hmm, easy lng. as far as my general knowledge skills goes, sa bandang divi or binondo lang yun. chinese school yun right? cge, divi lang. carry on.
pagabot ng divi, napangiti ako...san dito!? natawa kami pareho, dahil nakakaramdam na kami ng matinding kaba na aabutin kami ng syamsyam sa paghahanap sa eskwelahan.edi yun, tanong dito, tanong doon. buti na lng MOCC ako.hinde madaling mapagod sa lakaran. e si siena? yari. nahihilo na cya. sa layo ng nilakad namin, feeling ko kung pagsasamasamahin mo ay parang nilibot namin ang buong intramuros...imagine.

at sa wakas,sa tulong ng 30-pesos na pedicab, nakarating narin kami sa chiang kai shiek...high school. anak ng patuka, nangalay na ko't lahat, wla parin kami sa totoong chiang kai shiek!!!!pagod na ako.pero, wla akong matinung dahilan na nakikita ko sa sarili ko na dapat na akong bumalik ng school. kelangan ituloy ang laban.
ok.back to square one. dahil si manong guard ay sooper galing mag turo ng directions( I'm being sarcastic btw.), tanong kami ulit to the people around. hmm, eto talaga dko na alam itong lugar na ito, promise. basta, ang naalala ko ngaun ay ang tawid,kaliwa. un lang.
sweet. nakarating narin kami. and this one's for sure na. malaking building, yep ito na nga un. pero, hindi ito nag nakalagay sa parehong mapa na drinowing ni siena at ni christian olazo.(kuya chris, curse you!T_T).pagkapasok namin, halos mamutla ako sa nakita ko. ang daming chiks. as in. shucks, kung lalake ako, grabe ang saya ko. pero hindi e,girl ako at para bang sinampal nila ako isa-isa, dahil wla silang kahit anong kalse ng tigyawat sa mukha!!!!!!!arrrggggghhhh!

i mean, i still do have some 25% chinese blood that runs thru my veins but hey why don't i get the same results?kahit sa mukha nga lang e, okey na. cla mula ulo hanggang paa. i couldn't stare away from them. inicp ko nlang, hay tatanda rin kyo, at dun, magiging magkamuka na tayo!hahahahahah!(bitter)

less than 20 mins. lng kami nagstay, nagpicturan lng. hehehehe. we wanted to, but may klase pa ako. biro mo, mas mahaba pa ung nilakad namin! eto, uwi na, panibagong istorya ulet. at dito, nawala n kami ng tuluyan...wlang tanong tanong, pure animalistic intstincs lang. napunta pa kami ng tomas mapua st., bongga!!dahil, akala namin pareho na, shortcut yun papuntang binondo church na papuntang manila. getz namin pareho ang plano..yun nga lng sablay.hehehe.arranque,sta cruz kami napunta.naker, asan na ako, qtr to 3 na! nilakad namin pareho, na with speed of 20kms/h. dahil, yehey sta.cruz na! alam ko na to! konting takbo pa,...

ayan nasa skul na kmi....only to find na konti lng yung i di-discuss ni cabrera.darn!marami akong natutunan sa binondo. at eto ang iba run.

ang fraternities dun ay super bongga. may condo-like building sila kung saan nakalagay ang frat name nila.

binondo isn't as noisy as divi

i felt a starnge calling to that place, like as if I'm not new to it.the smells, feel, seems very oddly familiar to me

masarap tlaga pagkain

yung businesses buhay na buhay to the fact na para bng wlang customer if you looked at it.

the fil-chinese look alike

chiang kai shiek has two campuses that look alike

they don't have street signs. and if they have, chinese namn.

mahirap umuwi dahil wlang main road dito. lahat national road.

di masyado delikado. (maybe since siena and i look dangerously rowdy ^_^')

well that's my normal,boring saturday.

ps. mon., flash drive ko?

arrg..damn coffee, it's too hot. paltos ata dila ko..hapdeee!

2006-01-31T20:36:00.000+08:00

geez. i'm making a total makeover of this blog...simula ngayon, magtatagalog n ako!!!!!!.okie, enough of that.

sabi ko nga, magtatagalog n ako..

naks, pinahiram sakin ni xander-kun ang kanyang mp3 player! sweet!hehehehe. di n ako naboboring sa 3 oras kong biyahe! pero, meron akong gagawin. at, ngaun, tungkulin kong lagyan ng bagong kanta ang kanyang mp3 player.

ano nga b ang dapat kong ilagay?

bagong kanta?luma? korni? or rock nalng lahat.

ang hirap kasi. di ko msyado kabisado ung music preferences nya.

dbale, ang winamp ko nlang ang bahala dun.

hmmm.badtrip ung tronics. di ko lng to cgurado ha, pero, i'm relly having a hard time reviewing all the lectures that we've discussed. sheez. parang minatamis na saging tong utak ko kaninang test. heek.

tapos wala pang logic. sir dangan? asan na po kayo?

and, speaking of logic, wla parin kaming 2nd exam. di panga naibabalik ung 1st quiz e. hmmm.sana pasado ako. at sana, pumasa n ako. wla kc akong balak sumabay sa mga 2004. hindi nman sa ikinahihiya ko clang maging kaklase, subalit,datapwat,ang sarili ko naman ang ikakahiya ko. and that's hell.

nagun ko lang naranasan na magtanong ky sir hortinela. wla lang. di rin naman cya nakapgbgay ng matinong sagot e. harinawa'y patnubayan kami ng langit sa susunod na pagsusulit. (Super tagalog!)

okie, hanggang d2 nalang.

no more korean for me.

2006-01-25T09:35:00.000+08:00

it was exciting.it was new.and it was exhilirating. a group of koreans stormed campus floors at the first day of school. it was interesting to see such new and fresh faces in the school, amidst the sea of jeans-clad youngsters that flood the campus.

i got excited for some reason. maybe its' form the korean overload that i'm under. korean movies, dramas, comedies, even the food. it was like seeing inside the arirang channel come to life. exact koreans. nothing more, nothing less. i sensed that something will happen. and it's fast approaching.

eventually, i ended up signing up for the english tutorial sessions for the koreans. first day: i was late.
second day: ....hi, I'm tintin.

things weren't going out as i expected. she was too sleepy to begin at and i know for my self that teaching a sleepy person is almost the same like talking to the wall. (at least the wal is facing to you.) she responed with a half-yawn, then her name, "park soon young" (i dont know if i spell it correctly. whatever.) she tries hard to respond and listen, but really, it is damn hard to teach economics to a fifteen year old kid who only has 2 hrs of sleep.

I barely finished the module, thanks to certain examples, drawings,charts and graphs. it was hard as hell for me to make it understand to her what economy and inflation is like. but, nonetheless, she worked hard too, she patiently listened to me, responed well and followed my instructions. i was a little bit disappointed to see that my student was not as cheerful as the other young koreans that chatted with them, laughing along. 'i can understand', as my envious self tries to cope up with this emotion, but i felt that this wont go long. i must be free before things could get bland for me.

and the race is on!

2006-01-06T17:56:00.000+08:00

yep. school has started. the wannabe engineers and the geeks are now back again from the short-lived christmas vacation.

'tin, musta?'

'eto, buhay pa.'

'namayat ka.'

as everyone says, every living flesh of me is gradually dying away from this body every year. ironically, i should have gained acouple of pounds due to the fact that i have my vacation, and i don't have anything to do but to eat and sleep. but dang, that even didn't work. the only reason i could see is that i blamed myself too much for the ill-fated numericals and logic circuits 1.boohoohoo.

but i didn't blame myself that much, i think. and if i did, my self confidence would be so bummed, it will only make matters worse. i meditated myself so that i would find the enlightenment that my life IS NOT DEFINED BY THE ACADEMIC GRADES I GOT. and that's a real fact. for the achievers out there, i'm not saying to go bum themselves out, but remember to take a nap once in while and explore what makes you distracted from life. heheheh.

'ano ano subjects mo ngayong term?'

'numericals at logic ulet.'

'ulet? take two mo?'

tintin nods.

'tsk.tsk.sayang. sino prof mo na nangbagsak?' (the hurt in my heart is there again, ready to refresh the wounds...awwwww)

'hortinela at si pabiannia.'

'pabiannia?'

'bago un eh. taga-ama.'

'talaga? marami kayong bagsak? terror b yun?' (obviously, creating an atmosphere that somehow, releses me from the hurt that i'm not alone from the painful experince. what a good friend.)

'oo. marami-rami din. partida may pasado ako.'

nodds in symphathy.(i cry.....joke.)

'bruha kasi yun eh. pakshet sya.'

and the conversation was ended. this conversation is again repeated if another friend approaches you and starts a talk. it sure is pretty tiring but refreashing, maybe beacuse iam now starting to release all the emotion inside me, end evemtually, free from all.

2006-01-02T17:04:00.000+08:00

You Have a Melancholic Temperament

Introspective and reflective, you think about everything and anything.
You are a soft-hearted daydreamer. You long for your ideal life.
You love silence and solitude. Everyday life is usually too chaotic for you.

Given enough time alone, it's easy for you to find inner peace.
You tend to be spiritual, having found your own meaning of life.
Wise and patient, you can help people through difficult times.

At your worst, you brood and sulk. Your negative thoughts can trap you.
You are reserved and withdrawn. This makes it hard to connect to others.
You tend to over think small things, making decisions difficult.

What Temperment Are You?

2005-12-28T11:21:00.000+08:00

due to blogger's bithcy photo uploading services, i was forced to use my html powers and resort to photobucket when hosting these pics..sorry if it was late. :p

the tree. seems so quiet right?..wrong.

life is random, and sometimes, somebody isn't lucky enough to be in the picture.

drink and be merry!

ok.just let the good times roll. :)

sleeping on a cold and cloudy christmas morning. :)

the christmas winefeast!! so, the pulutan are green mangoes,. apples (?!), more mangoes, and cornick? and oh yeah, three bottles of the all time favorite, red wine.(-_-')

MAGANDANG PASKO NGA PO!!!!!

2005-12-27T15:14:00.000+08:00

MAGANDANG PASKO NGA PO!!! was the sound that echoed in that cloudy and cold christmas morning. children half my age squarmed the village streets, clad in fresh, store-brought clothes, ran happily, with high hopes of getting 'pamasko' from the residents.

the 'pamasko' is usually a couple of bucks that could buy one a couple of sweets, or a fresh, new 20 peso-bill that could take you places, not to mention with an ice cream at hand. this practice is usually seen from kids 12 years old and below, but that doesn't mean i'm exempted.

i woke up earlier than usual, hoping to get the same amount of gifts my siblings used to have, and ran down to the stairs.

'good morning!' i greeted.

'merry christmas.' mama rosa greeted.

i smiled, with a hint of hunger. maybe its breakfast that i wanted, not the gifts..;p

after finishing my christmas breakfast, which consists of.....rice,ulam and juice, my mom asked me if i wanted to go to 'compound'. the word ringed a bell in my mind. it was their first house before they lived in the city, a house which i remembered that was not only memorable to me but to mama rosa, mom, and her siblings.

'yeah. i would love to.'

hurrying upstairs to get a bath, my dad suddenly asked me to hurry up and get dressed, because we are going to church.

dang. another plan foiled again by the great dictator. but that wasn't gonna stop me. no one will. sure maybe i would go church later, since he was the only one who insists on going there, amidst the other people who thinks the same thing. and being squashed literally on church is not everbody's idea of spending this cool christmas.

as we rode the jeepney that will take us to town, i suddenly sudennly remembred when was the last time i was there, what happened, and what it made me leave that memorable place. to my surprise, amidst my good photographic memory skills, everything was a blur. a cool christmas wind brushed my cheeks, reminding that i have reached my destination, and i should be back to my pointless reality.

the uneven streets still doesnt even ring a bell. the houses, ambience and the people didn't even helped.

'remember anything?' james asked.

james is my cousin who was my playmate when we were young, and we used to play in those streets the whole day. i asked him back, but he said the same thing. i tried harder, even asking some questions to tito junior, who was more oriented in this place.

'this used to be our basketball court.' as he stared blankly into a high wall that obviously resembles as the gate of a huge house.

'i see.'

'it's way much better here than anywhere in lucena.'

obviously, he still considers this place his home. and that is a sad truth indeed.

i stared through the other houses. after some time, we walked into another street in which a beautiful home that stands out the others, sitting beautifully to her own right.

'hey. we are here.' james said to me.

the memories suddenly came in flooding to me. it was a fast slideshow of images that ran into my mind. time suddenly stopped as i stared into the house. i could vividly picture out those afternoons where i would go home after playing outside.

but that was years ago.

'hi. merry christmas!' tito jr greeted his friend that was ironically the resident of the house.

they chatted for a moment, obviously catching up on each other. after a while, james said to me that we used to have a playmate used to live adjacent to this house.

'jay chris?' i asked, with a hint of bewilderment

iam sure i dont remember one bit of that 'jay chris'. suddenly to my surprise, tito jr suddenly called his name to get the attention of this guy who approached us.

'hi.' as he posted a smile to us. 'merry christmas' he added. ironically,he himself doesnt know the people in front of him.

'jay chris, this was the former residents of this house. do you remember them?' his uncle asked.

'i am afraid i dont.' he said,

'here's chonke, you used to be playmates back then.'

his face suddenly lit up.'chonke?' and a smile grew on his face. he happily ran back to his house, 'wait here' he said to us, i'll be right back'. later, he came back with hand full of pamasko, for my cousins of course.

'hey, chonke.' he said to james.

my cousin only smiled, embarassed from the fact that jay also gave him a pamasko.

factoid.: jay chris is also the same age as ours!

he also gave me a pamasko. damn!

'sorry. i don't know all of you. here's the pamasko. he said as he gave the rest of the bills to my younger cousins.

'so, where are you studying?' my uncle asked.

'mapua'.

my sister mocked a cough so as to give the signal that i, too was mapauan like him. my eyes rolled back and forth trying to hide myself or a bubbling conversation. he turned to me, because THEY were pointing at me. (thanks guyz....:|)

so started the conversation.

'so what's your course?'

'civil engineering.' then he added, 'what's yours?'

'computer engineering' i paused for a moment, 'i see, so that's why i don't recognize you enough.'

i blew it off. my last statement seemed like i wanted to see him at school. like i was very popular to our depertment and was wondering why he didn't recognize me.

i thanked the heavens that our departments were worlds apart.

and he should thank this moment because i already forgave him about what he did. to me and james.

or just me. maybe james was happy to have pamasko bigger than anybody else.

hmmm. maybe he was lying about the mapuan thing. hehehe. bacause he rode a new mazda3. mapauans don't have cars. thier cars are usually from their dads.

where's the pictures?--mmmm

is it really christmas?

2005-12-23T12:59:00.000+08:00

is it really christmas? my alter ego asked. ' don't know. i'm not sure either.' answered my conscience.

my lowly self has once again suffered a terrible christmas. thanks to college life and the perils that comes with it, i am able to live a life that seems to not work on me. suffeerings, hunger pangs, temporary insanity, inferiority complexes (temporary too.) are some of the things that i've never experienced since after highschool graduation.

not just 1, but 2 failing marks, namely logic circuits and switching theory 1 and numeriacal methods. just to relieve myself of the harsh truth, i believed that it was by far one of the most hard subjects i took since math 3,data structures and electromagnetics.

facing the truth, it wasn't really that hard...it was just plain boring. it didn't drive me or didn't provide be the drive to study it very well UNLIKE logic circuits 1! oh that MF instructor! i really loved and studied her subject and then what, is this what she's gonna pay me?! bullshit!

you see it's like this.,if she sees that majority of her students didn't have a preety score for their previous test, she'd say,' it'll be ok class, there is still your nth(number of exams left) and the finals.' for any straight thinking individual, she or he would get his hopes high and be ready enough for the next quiz. and the same sentence is said again until the last test. i was happy because she was passionate enough to cheer her students up despite the fact that was supposed to scold them for such indespicable low marks. and the rest of the class was able to get a couple or more passed exams..

the finals came. we were more ready than ever. testing our intincts on what would come out, we searched for ot's for the finals, and luckily, we got one. and we wasted no time, giving all we've got just to make it barely three.

and the finals ended. the heavens was literally stormed with prayers from the famed technological institutions asking for the mercy of their cold-blooded subject professors.

just to relieve myself of the constant, whispers from my conscience, i gingerly trekked the school website. and then the whole world came crashing down upon my shoulders, then it went black. i died. my mind suddenly crashed like windows does and life suddenly crumbled. as my sight suddenly grew blur, i slowly got a hold on my chair and bumped my head against the wall.

'why?'

2005-12-13T23:24:00.000+08:00

Your 2005 Song Is

Mr. Brightside by The Killers

"It started out with a kiss
How did it end up like this
It was only a kiss, it was only a kiss"

Let's just say you're happy to be done with 2005!

What Hit Song of 2005 Are You?

HELL WEEK

2005-12-09T23:48:00.000+08:00

this seems just another chilly friday december morning.a cup of coffee,some breakfast and the usual smell of the coming yuletide season.but,as i take another closer look, it is hell week.more hellish tahn hell it is a time of rushed lectures,assignments, take home exams, defenses, and prototypes. furthermore, there was this instance that our defence was moved to the same day as the defense of my other prototype!!little did this professor knew that he could kill an inoccent student like me in that instant!! but thank god, there was no defence in the power supply prototype, and neither did he required us to be in a formal fashion..

speaking of formal fashion, many instructors give some *special* conditions when taking their defense. there was this prof who required ALL FILIPINIANA suit. bloody hell!!!! so, i should consider myself lucky ne?

well. i just wish that everything would work out really well for me this term..(everybody does.)

--tintotz

btw, here is a couple of pictures i wanted to test if that 'blog' thingy on photobucket really works..

2005-12-02T00:31:00.000+08:00

hai..the name has been changed.

it was once been called freedom terminal, but my summer-loving soul decided to overthrow my opressed and tired mind for eternity.

it has been a hellish week.the pressures seem invisible, but one could feel it, the moment they step into the lifeless floors of the mapua campus. you could see students laughing, chatting and eating like as if they are so happy. but the sad truth is, buried beneath their shallow souls, is the never-ending worry about tomorrow,endless screams of impartial rights, and the strong need to get a day-long sleep. but they can't. they just can't.

if there's one thing, i'd wish today, it'll be the same wish i'd say roughly 2 years ago. TO PASS ALL OF MY SUBJECTS. ironically, while in high school, i'd wished for nothing. yes, maybe for a couple of jeans and a pair of sneakers and some money to spend, but i'm glad i didn't wish like there's no tomorrow.

what would you feel if one of your most respected people turn out against you? even if they said that it was just a gimmick?me? nothing. i would just say that they have done a good job of doing that. but that was a freakin' bad thing to do!!! it was done to me to say the least, and i was angry as hell. angry in way that they were so unfair and too subjective, throwing killer glances at you as if you have killed their entire families, and for crying out loud, is this what 'deliberation' mean???!!
for all you know people, this means 'INICIATION'! but that's all.nothing more nothing less. i just wanted to say that..

2005-11-21T14:13:00.000+08:00

afternoon.....

another week, another day, another set. I start my day way too late today. I can't sleep last night, so I decided to munch on a couple of hopia and a glass of water to replenish my midnight hunger. It didn't do much. I'm still hungry.

I woke up after everybody else did, even later than my late-wakeupper baby bro. i jumped of the bed, and while taking a quick glance on the time, i planned my day.

1000hrs: 0150mins before my young sis goes to school, so i have to prepare her lunch while taking my breakfast.(at the same time too!)

1015hrs: prepare chinese soup, tonkatsu and rice. that's what for lunch. first stop, soup. easy...
-next stop, tonkatsu. oh wait, the rice. since i decide not to eat rice for my breakfast, i'd rather heat it on its' own so as to save time while prepearing the rest of the meal.
-recipe for tonkatsu:
1. beat 1 egg and set aside.
2. find seasoned pork and set aside.
3. find flour. after, dip the pork egg then flour.
4. wait!! flour???where?
and the time goes on. if i was a cotestent in iron chef, i'll be losing big time and my opponent will be laughing like kodachi.(wahahhhhahhahh). i struggled to find it, while constantly stirring the soup. I panicked. hah. the only 'flour' i can see is a can with the label 'cake flour'. that can't be right ne?
with the remaining minutes till the bus arrives, i gingerly put the cake flour in the plate and the rest is history.

....thankfully the 'tonkatsu' turned out right, without the slightest taste of any cake.

Hectic

2005-11-18T17:36:00.000+08:00

I'm not ok.

as i finish the remaning strawberry yogurt last night, i recall what happened later that day. it all started off at 730am, with a badminton match. I arrived first. and so it was. things has been going smoothly. ji being late, kuya pj with his trusty racket and the butterflies inside my stomach. as expected, our opponent was again late.

but the sunny atmospehere turned sour. you see unfortunately, the opponent came too late that they came exactly 9am! for crying out loud, we have classes!i couldnt decide, so I leave it out to ji. ji, too, is more indesicive than me in these things, so we ended up playing. fortunately, the opponent wasn't as hard as iiee and oti, so we did'nt have any troubles getting in our own play and be in the winning streak. things have been going so smoothly until that freakin' refere burst out saying unnecessary things and other shit during the game. the first one to give in was ji. she beacme too occupied with her emotions that it greatly affected the game.
she became so irritated that she too, started murmuring words only the ants could hear. not only it posted a big obvious chance to our opponent. instead of concentrating on the game, i ended up hating her for just that moment.

ahh. the hate could eat so much from me. we lost the game, ran to school, jsut ending up to know that our professor for that class was absent. ahhhhh! we could only shout within.

And I thought my restless day would end there. And so I thought.

1030 am: I have to cut my soc class off just to make up for the time to do my logic lab remaining reports. I do have to take my lunch earlier, because I will no longer have the time to take it, since my interview time eats up the lunch time.

12:00-mec. Not much happened here

1:30-interview. Maybe is should thank my friends for this, that is, if they really wished good luck for me. Because, most of the members have their classes on 130pm!!!!!there were only less than 10 people around, and the good thing is, they were the ones that I like!! Like in a way that they are not the ones who will trip on you. Heheheh! These are some of the things they asked me /to do.

Modeling using a racket (badminton racket I used earlier that day.)

Draw (as always)

Sing(!!!)

Reason out on various things

Most of the time, they asked about the futuristic things i.e, what will..,will you…,will they,…, and if they did,…where will you… those stuff.

430pm-logic lec exam. For an unknown reason, I mostly devoted my time last night preparing for the exam. I guess luck wasn’t really on my side then. I got mental blocked, probably from the extreme tiredness I experienced. I didn’t falter, nor I didn’t chose to be, I still give it my best shot, but to no avail that I would pass. And so my day ended there.

2005-11-11T22:15:00.000+08:00

I.................................have the whole MISS SAIGON SOUNDTRACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
weeeeeeee! I'm soooo happy. I have been dreaming these for ages, since our performance in the folk arts theater back in my junior high yr. I fell in love with the songs, and the rest they say is history.

back then, I would attend collegiate performances in college, but really, they proved no match to the amateur performance of our school team. in spite of the lack of training in acting skills, we were able to beat out the best of the other sister schools. we were sooo very happy.

since then, i kept myself busy searching

2005-11-09T10:55:00.000+08:00

ah, the exams has been returned. frankly, i don't expect good results from a double exam day last saturday. it all started last friday, when we learned that we don't have a game for the badminton division. I decided to stay for a bit longer, and there, my time was wasted.
i now hate myself for such an indespecable act, and now i'm paying for it. but now, i won't be too stupid anymore to spend my day recklessly on some stupid time-wasting activity that could endager my chances of passing of these hard subjects.
i ask myself: why do i always get this kind of problems? maybe the fact that i don't learn from my own mistakes, that i intentionally
be irresponsible for my own actions? to somebody up there, please give me a sign or something that could change me, or rather, give me the strength to be more responsible,....co'z i dont wanna go back into that depressing stage again. i dont want to hurt myself, i'm tired of failing, and i'm tired of making myself believe that i can still do it. however, i don't want to give up, neither to lose hope, and be miserable to my own self.
i know, someday, some time these days, that i could be a person that i wanted to be. maybe that's the time that i could die as well.

entering the terminal

2005-11-07T20:34:00.000+08:00

This is my first post in this blog.